Xena
152. solve the problem

Ray was still waiting for Xena to realize, he did not take a second to release his hand from his wife's hand. Before long he felt a movement in his hand, Xena began to open her eyes.

"Sweet you realize?" said Ray happy when he felt his wife would be aware, he then pressed a button next to the bed to call the doctor.

"Ughhh..." Xena felt her head hurt.

"Dear, why? Does anything hurt?" ask Ray to worry.

Xena tried to win herself over and the pain slowly disappeared, she stared for a moment at her husband who looked panicked. Xena sighed and not wanting to say anything, she tried to calm herself down first.

"Honey.." said Ray felt sick when his wife did not say anything and did not want to look at him. He only realized if ignored and let go of that sick. He really feels guilty.

Chequek!

"Excuse me sir" said the doctor coming in with the nurse.

"Ah yes Doc" said Ray

"Let me check the patient first sir" said the doctor. Ray let the Doctor check on Xena.

"Bu Xena's condition is better, but we're waiting for the lab results first sir, Mom. In half an hour the nurse came to bring food and medicine" said the doctor

"Good Doc thank you" said Ray.

"Thank you Doc" said Xena.

After the doctor's death, Ray sat down next to Xena's gurney. His wife was silent and did not look at him at all and just stared at the ceiling.

"Darling, sorry" said Ray with a trembling voice.

Xena who heard her husband's voice tremble knew that her husband must be crying. Xena closed her eyes for a moment and exhaled her breath slowly.

"I know, can we talk later? My head still hurts, I want to rest for a while" said Xena who still did not look at Ray.

"Ah forgive me, Rest! I'll wake up in half an hour, you'll have to eat and take medicine" Ray said gently stroking Xena's head gently.

"Hmmm..." Xena cleared her throat and closed her eyes again.

He just closed his eyes but did not sleep, only he thought about why his trauma could return. He hopes he will no longer imagine the trauma of the past and this is the last time he remembers it.

The problem with Ray, honestly he still hurt because he felt ignored. But he also can not blame Ray because this is also his fault. Moreover, he did not blame anyone for the trauma he had experienced first. Moreover, she knew if her husband really regretted having ignored her.

If only Xena's mentality was the same as in her previous life, it was certain that she could not be clear-minded or re-deteriorated when the trauma returned.

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"Darling, wakeup... Eat first continue to take medicine" said Ray, when the nurse came to deliver food and medicine.

Xena opened her eyes opening her eyes a few times. Knowing Xena wanted to sit down, Ray was quick to help her.

He shook his head as Ray again fed him to the other side. Ray gently wiped the food marks on the wife's lips.

"Now take the medicine" said Ray, Xena just nodded and took the medicine.

"Darling, I'm sorry to have brought your trauma back. I was a foolish man who acted childishly out of jealousy and anger, knowing my wife was near another man and my cousin's sister wanted to be harmed. But I don't know anything.

I felt like I was not needed and was not considered, so I avoided for a moment to calm down. But I do not know if my attitude that makes you hurt, even make your trauma back.

I'm sorry, I promise I won't inhabit you or ignore you anymore. I promise I will listen to your explanation first, if we have any problems" Ray said, holding Xena's hand tightly.

"You can be mad at me, hitting is okay. Just don't get sick like this, because I will also feel the same pain and also blame myself for failing to be a husband" continued Ray again.

"Yeahhh...." Xena took her breath.

"I'm the one who should be sorry for not being able to tell you about it. At first I thought the guy only liked me for a quick glance, but I didn't know he was getting obsessed with me. He was the same guy I beat up in the campus parking lot back then. Didn't I tell you about that?

The matter of the incident in the cafeteria, I did intend to tell you while at home, since there was no way I would have told you over the phone. I know your nature is easily ignited when jealous, so I hold her back from telling stories until we meet at home. But since you came along to gather, so I let you know first about this and explain it at home.

But it turns out that I missed the estimate, you're angry that you feel I'm not going to tell you this, right? I don't mind it if you're angry, it's natural. To be honest, I felt sick, when I tried to explain you were just being ignorant and not giving me a chance to explain everything.

My trauma problem is relapsing, there's no need to worry because it's just a coincidence. So do not blame yourself because this is not your fault" said Xena staring at Ray who was bowing his head.

"We're married, Ray. What else are you afraid of? Have I not chosen you and become all yours? Then what doubts have bothered you not to believe me?" ask Xena

Hearing the words of his wife who used my word you and did not call him mas as usual, made Ray feel pinched. He knew his wife was still angry or just upset with him.

"I'm sorry, the jealousy and fear of losing you made me unable to think clearly. I love you so much, baby" Ray said

"I know, and don't you know that I feel the same way as you do? If I'm the only one who believes but you don't, then what are we doing together? What does marriage mean?" said Xena

Xena said it wasn't because she was angry, but she wanted her husband to understand. In marriage, there is not only love. But there must be mutual trust and respect for each other.

He wants Ray and himself to learn to organize the household for the better. Act and think more maturely, because marriage is complementary, sharing, loving and protective.

"I'm sorry, please don't be like that. I promise I won't do it again in the future" Ray said

"I don't need an appointment but proof, I hope it's me or you. We both learn to trust and respect each other more. I want a marriage once in a lifetime, indeed in a relationship either dating or married. There must be problems and exams, but can there be problems we solve with a cold head?" said Xena

"Mas will prove it, you want to give mas a chance and forgive mas ?" ray asked looking expectantly.

"Yes, I'm sorry too. Because everyone has mistakes. So let's both improve, I will also tell you everything and nothing will be covered again" said Xena.

"Dear, I won't let you down a second time" Ray said, clutching his wife's body and kissing her entire face.

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