All About Missing
Ardian Diary
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If you think back. Why Miss should be overreacting like that. Ardian never liked any woman but himself. Yeah, maybe he's jealous. Heard what Agnes said carrying the surname Moriz. Also the closeness of the woman with her mother Ardian that she heard from the phone.
With a single breath, Ardian calmed himself down. He again grabbed her two hands and stroked her gently. Then Ardian cupped both cheeks of Miss with his hands. They stared at each other, Ardian clearly saw the regret of his lover's face.
"Dear, listen. I'm not angry because of what you did. But I was angry because I was afraid. If I arrive late, something worse could happen. I'm sorry I raised the voice earlier." she gently looked into Miss's eyes.
"Sorry …."
"Don't scare me. If something bad happens to you, I'm the one who's hurt a lot. I can't always be there to be next to you. Our status is also one of the barriers. Should we get married?"
Ardian's question made Miss shocked. This fast? They've only been dating for two days. Moreover, with the status of Missing a widow. What about the Ardians, will they accept with the current state of Miss? And one more thing that scared him, Miss is still traumatized by the destruction of the household that made him very disappointed some time ago.
"Ary."
"Why don't you want to marry me?" ask Ardian later.
"I'm afraid .. does it have to be this fast?"
"Why not? I love you and you also love me open?"
"Yes, but …."
They were silent for a moment. The tongue of the misses as if to answer. There are many reasons that scare him. Should he refuse? Or continue the relationship as it is now until he is completely sure.
"We're married, huh?" Ardian repeated his words. Misses still seem to think. "If you're not ready, I'll wait for you. But not for long either. I can't wait to spend my days with you."
A warm kiss landed on Miss' forehead. Then the kiss went down to the right eye and the left eye. Anxious, the man pinched the part of the chewy face that had dimples there.
"Sorry, Ardi. I can't answer yet, 'yes'."
"I will always wait until you answer, 'yes'."
"Thank you."
Even if a little disappointed. However, Ardian still gave his best smile. He understood very well, this was too soon for Miss. Maybe the woman's heart is not ready to be tied up in a marriage relationship. That's okay, Ardian must also focus first on the disease that is longing to suffer at this time. This is the main thing, the miss should be healed soon.
"I still have a job, don't you mind if I stay?" ask Ardian gently.
"Yes, you'd better get back to work," Long nodded.
"You stay here. If you are bored, read a book or play a game. Don't get into trouble again, okay?" the man ruled.
"Yes, the great and honorable Mr. Ardian," Miss replied mocking, the overprotective lover sometimes makes her want to answer the origin.
Ardian smiled happily, this woman could always keep him entertained. One kiss on the forehead is pinned again, also another kiss on the lips Miss lightning. The man left after saying goodbye.
Fifteen minutes later. Missing really feeling bored. He wanted to talk to Mira a lot. But seeing that Ardian's secretary was very busy, Missing undo her intentions.
Then Miss remembered the Ardian diary book that she had not opened earlier. Miss walked over to the table and picked up the book. Then he sat back on the long sofa with his legs straightened up.
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Longs
Today is the first time I've scratched a pen in this book, your gift book. You said, someday I'll need it. And now I really need to write down my memories with you.
Today you suddenly disappeared, you know, what is my situation now?
I'm crazy, miss, I lost you so much, why did you just leave?
I love you, I love you so much.
I haven't even had time to tell you. Miss where you went?
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Miss, I remembered what you said back then.
'Anyone should understand what love is. However, not everyone can realize what love is. Love will bring happiness and pain. Most people don't realize they're in love. Because love is unpredictable, it comes and goes without permission. True love will bind the soul, fill all thoughts, love has its own space in the heart'.
You're correct. That love has brought pain to me, it has come without me knowing, it has bound my soul and filled my mind with you. And you are in the deepest corner of my heart, no one can shift it.
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100713
How are you, Miss?
I just dreamed of you. A dream that took me to a pleasant time. We play together, have fun at the amusement park. When the night you gave me a gift. Your first and first kiss for me. I was so happy that time. I thought I we'd be together after it happened. However, I didn't expect it to turn out to be a farewell gift from you.
I woke up and regretted all my stupidity.
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Happy birthday Miss.
Today your age has grown by one. I want to celebrate this special day with you. Only prayer can I offer to the Almighty. I hope you are okay wherever you are.
I went back to seeing our memories stored in a video recording. There was our togetherness. Me, you, Dian and Dimas. We hugged each other on your 17th birthday surprise first. Everyone looks happy, including your family who witnessed our madness.
One new thing I know. I secretly kissed the top of your head at that time. And it happened without me noticing.
I miss you, my love.
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It didn't feel like we were separated for a year. The memory of you is never lost in every day. My soul and body I have given only to you, Miss.
Do you remember the promnite? You sang a song for me. A song that made me realize my true feelings. Now I write the lyrics so I can remember every time.
Shadow lover – Cakra Khan
To you is the owner of a heart I never had
Who came as part of my life story
I love you with all the feeling in my heart
I try to be as you ask
I know you actually know
But you choose as if you do not know
You're hiding my love
Behind the mask of your fake friendship
You made me a shadow lover
To accompany when you feel lonely
For years I have been living my own love story
Maybe it's true
Love is no longer valuable
It is free when you have no ties
I know you actually know
But you choose as if you do not know
You're hiding my love
Behind the mask of your fake friendship
You made me a shadow lover
To accompany when you feel lonely
For years I have been living my own love story
Love itself
Oh I know you actually know
But you choose as if you do not know
You're hiding my love
Behind the mask of your fake friendship
You made me a shadow lover
To accompany when you feel lonely
For years I have been living my own love story
Love itself
Songwriter: Anang Hermansyah
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