Anxietas
Maybe my patience is less

"The bastard of a forbidden relationship doesn't belong in our house." Shake his father at the young Miria.

"Mas Miria it's your son you go home on this date and we sleep together before mas go again and go home yes I've melayurkan!" Said mom.

Mama convinced her father Miria with energy and also mentally also a chaotic feeling because it was only a week giving birth to her husband accused of bad things until Maria had understood the words of adults.

"It's a lie." The father's eagle every mother explained normally and every thing that was revealed by her father, every time he was angry there must be Miria near him and the father always looked at the hate of Miria.

After Ria's eighteen years of presence Ciko. But Ciko was never scolded even just taught with a firm and gentle attitude in contrast to Ria never get the affection of her father there is only violence and the gaze should not be so weak just in the snapped and in the bludgeons.

Ria is scared of her father because his father always hits and snares when the orders he gives to Miria are never right.

Though Ria felt that nothing was wrong, it was probably a very small mistake and it was not Miria but her own father.

Sad lonely himself grew independent no friends who want to play with him until Ria keep playing trying to make friends but stay away because of the burns on his hands and the one who was angry was his mother but, but, Ria knew he was wrong but, he would not be angry at mama and play also eat using other hands that are not hurt.

Father once approached Ria because of a burn on her right hand Ria in her father's bribe.

"Ria can be a father" said little Ria with her innocent face.

It was the mother who wanted to bribe him but, little Miria insisted on eating alone.

The once-in-a-lifetime sight and the once-in-a-lifetime affection Ria got as a child was to eat in the father's bribe.

If Ciko gets the affection from the father so great and from the mother also more affection, from Damar too but, Miria did not get the same fatherly love rights as Damar and Ciko.

Miria is similar to the most powerful daughter like the first daughter mentally.

Damar actually does not like the adult Miria because it makes her an useless sister.

But, it makes Damar understand if all that is the childhood of Miria who can not develop well and dewsa before being satisfied with his playing period.

***

While asleep, Ria sometimes cried so deeply.

Shaka was initially surprised but, now he got used to it and chose to hug and calm him down then the crying stopped.

In the morning Ria wakes up and forgets that she is crying.

Shaka also did not ask about the incident in Ria's dream every time Ria slept while crying.

***

Seeing another daughter get her father's love

Very much and abundant.

Sometimes makes the soul of Ria's daughter envy big.

Inwardly always whispering, I also want to be like that girl but, can't I won't get it either.

His surrender and the hope of father's love is very meaningless and can only be stored without being realized.

"What do you want again for lunch?" Zavina asked with a sweet smile.

The rubbing on Zavina's head made Ria sad.

Ria also wants to be rubbed his head by his father but, now will not be able to.

Finished with his work preparing provisions for Shaka.

"I'm leaving first, brother, papa." He left with a greeting and kissed the oldest hand of his.

On his way to ride a car with a papa driver soon Ria finally reached the place where Shaka tongkrongan and his friend he went down and stepped in and did not see Qinan who usually turned on k-pop music or Yuki Mika sat down while dealing with her online shopping problem there was only Olva but, the item was not the person.

Where's the guy?

Alezer put on his shirt and his jacket went downstairs.

Ria does not care about Alezer he looks indifferent judes and flat.

Ria stepped up to sit near Olva's stuff before long Olva came down from the third floor.

"Eh Ria!" Sapa Olva then sat down and styled her hair and used her hoddi.

"Lo bring what Ri, tumben not the same shaka?"

Seeing as it was the smell of cooking because there was a fragrant smell of his ripe spices.

"Oh, lunch is breakfast." Shaka was looking for nothing.

Olva nodded and read the book.

"Sister?" Olva.

"Yeah? Nyari Shaka ya lo?" Guess Olva directly.

"Rome.." That heavy sound.

Looking back at the two, there was Shaka coming down from the third floor like that.

"Shaka is on the roof of the room on the roof where the guard of this building is sometimes the boy who guards Ri." Obviously Olva. Ria nodded with a small smile.

"Where are you going?" Shaka said he knew Ria had something to do with him.

"I'm sorry, brother... I'm staying." Olva nodded and chose to open her laptop and watch her favorite drama.

On the roof under a pretty shaded place a seemingly new white umbrella was replaced and a folding wooden chair.

"I brought this to you..."

"Make?" Tanya Shaka is teased.

"Yes, it doesn't have to be kept." Ria sighed in preparation and gave Shaka her provisions ready to eat.

***

It seems that having to be more patient with Ria is not easy nor is it difficult.

Shaka will wait for Ria to and Shaka can't force Ria to rush open her heart to him.

Served and welcomed as a husband and wife who attention to his sinfulness, for Shaka thankfully thank God.

If that time comes all Shaka's belongings will belong to Miria and Shaka's World which is already fully Miria will be more Miria in it.

Loving a simple female figure like Miria is not easy for today.

But Shaka is different.

Shaka will still like the woman who from the beginning met him gave a good attitude without knowing who the person was and without a face full of smiles or makeup.

Shaka admitted that he met Miria with her natural face and not even lipstick on her lips or powder and skin care.

Ria's skin was not as white as now she used to be black and the smell of garbage. Now Ria who became a student is not so good even though shaka also knows if Ria prefers the fragrance of laundry soap rather than perfume.

Such a woman is difficult to find even when with her husband she always looks naturally beautiful outside and inside the house she is better yet beautiful, because she only belongs to her husband.

However, Satuhal of Ria, Trauma and fear that had not even happened or would never happen, he was always afraid.

Shaka knows that. More patience for Shaka and the future he soon achieves must be patient.