Anxietas
Healed but, the secret began to unravel

"A-a-i-I don't mean.. I'm sorry, I'm sorry Shaka.. Sorry mass I'm not I will not not be stressed. i-I just haven't come out aja yes, Asi not yet smooth, it will be smooth anyway, Sorry, I'm sorry," she said, crying and in shock at Shaka's arrival, her eyes looking left and right.

The sharp dagger that Miria possessed existed without a form slowly piercing and slashing slowly Shaka's feelings.

Miria startled Shaka suddenly behind her.

Shaka can no longer be angry but, he sometimes forgets that Miria has trauma and anger even though Miria is strong against him, sometimes when she is weak she becomes like this.

He sat on the floor so limp his feet stared at Shaka who was approaching him.

Shaka did nothing but, Miria was very scared.

"Sorry sorry..."

"No, it's not you who's wrong, I'm the one who lied I'm wrong. I'm sorry later also asi came out, don't get mad at me yes. I promise." Miria crying. His palms lay face down and begged Shaka not to get angry.

Shaka could not hold back his tears.

"Dear."

Shaka looked at both of Miria's eyes with her gentle tone. Miria fell silent and slowly looked at Shaka. A few seconds later Miria's face was flat and silent blank stare to the floor, tears streaming down.

Miria looked at Shaka with her wet eyes backward away from Shaka's hand.

Shaka kneels down and holds Miria's shoulder helping her get up and leads her to sit on Shaka's chair kneeling again on the floor with both hands on Ria's lap.

"Sorry sorry, maas I'm wrong sorry I'm not honest sorry I don't know why the milk doesn't come out. sorry..."

"Heh. uh... Calm down, I'm not angry I don't hate it I just want to see you see you, you don't be that sweetie, you're scared..." Shaka was all patient and held back his tears.

Shaka pulls Miria into his arms without cue making her cry right away hugging Shaka.

"Crying.nangis is not papa..." Shaka doesn't know that Miria who is frightened by her anger can be like this and this makes Shaka confused.

Shaka initially did not see Miria again like this after her hijab was forced off.

But why did he see her again.

"For mercy.. Forgive me. I won't lie again, sorry..."

Shaka surprised.

Rubbed Miria's shoulders and back.

Since Shaka left Miria could only cry. Can't imagine being the reason for Miria's trauma to recur.

Unable to calm down Shaka pulled Miria into his embrace.

"Sorry darling I have to apologize."

Crying, crying is all Maria can do.

He could not say anything he was very afraid of the anger and hatred of others or those closest to him.

Even though he had tried to stay strong still he could not forget the sound when something solid he pressed it would explode instantly at a time he could not predict at all,

and whatever trauma it was, the angry look that he didn't like the most could be seen on Shaka's face this morning.

Forced Zavina to find the best formula for the twins.

Because Shaka makes Miria stressed and her milk does not come out at all even Miria does not want to eat much.

Three days passed, when there was no one. Miria got up and looked out the window.

"It was said that marriage was not easy. Now why does it feel uncomfortable."

"I'm wrong, I'm wrong, now there's no kids I can give milk to, I'm a useless mom.."

"Miriah..." Pull and close the window.

"I want to die, just die," he said as Shaka held his arm holding his two hands against him and asked Miria to calm down.

Shaka doesn't like it like this.

"Hey. look, I, I'm healed because of you, I'm healed so you have to heal for them, our son Arzen Janendra is the same Abian, yes you love them just as much as they are your mother, your mother, your daughter, you've got to be healed, you should be there for them, now I'm sure you're cured don't have negative thingking anymore."

Miria looked at shaka nodding.

***

Even the blessing is there, the milk of Miria's mother is abundant.

Even the twins look fatter.

"I'm sorry, I promise I won't stress you anymore, I can't control my emotions at that time sorry me," shaka said as Miria fell asleep in her arms after breastfeeding the twins and now only sleeps to relieve the mind and body.

This sunny morning Miria woke up and prepared with her super busy activities even Shaka now began to take care of a lot of Papa's business and also the business of his friends who are in the chairman of Shaka.

The gang headed by Shaka was indeed closed about the name because of the sensitivity of the name, wrong mention at the wrong time can have no good effect so there is no gang name, no gang name, consider it all his friends.

Shakabangun from his sleep saw Miria providing her work suit and also preparing for her college needs.

Miria is also getting ready with her online lectures.

Yes, since giving birth, Miria has been at home and even while on maternity leave, Shaka slowly asked her to go online.

"Why is it so hard!" Annoyed after taking a shower and well-dressed, Shaka could not tie his shoelaces properly.

"You're wrong here.." Take over and tie tight.

"Loh. I usually do that but, don't date me, thanks my dear."

"Hum..." Reply Miria.

"What is hem!"

"Jude, go there!"

"Do not want anything to go there, your husband is disobedient later!"

"His. males, I'm going to the twins.."

"Well, look at the twins..."

Miria looked fiercely.

"What.ungiin what, you want to start again, I'm healthy loh ink, ntar you carelessly I like that time!"

"Dear is not..."

Shaka gives her hand and gives a kiss on Miria's forehead as Miria finishes kissing her hand.

In the third room of his son.

"Mr.pappa.." Janendra.

"Well..pah!" Shouted arzen.

"Beah.. Mamamam hehe."

"Abi..call papa Lah bi, Mama mulu you mah!"

"It's too late there." Shaka joked and approached his three sons giving kisses on both cheeks each.

"Papa set out baby, would like to pick up a living for you to be a rich man's son."

Miria shook her head.

"Sengklek brain papa you sometimes for mama not to think, honey here play what," said Miria calling arzen in the corner.

Miria who went to the supermarket with her aunt and three children in the care of papa and the housemaid.

Originally Miria did not want to but, papa kekeh asked Miria to go shopping even she was given the credit card handle in-laws, Astagfirullah.

How not.

Out there many who fondly give it to this daughter-in-law even told to spend it.

"Bi. want to buy clothes no, I buy it with papa money, calm not cut salary."

Aunty bothered in shame, can't neng all aunt's grandchildren."

"Ok we buy bi."

Shocked Cakra sees Shaka's house aunt can go with Miria. Didn't he see wrong.