Anxietas
The fear still exists

They cannot know you well even those who live years with you are sometimes still confused by what you like and dislike.

Understanding and caring also understand each other, important!

Right now Ria can only sit quietly looking at Shaka who is taking care of all the reports in his office the hour is about to close and Ria is still here waiting for the busy Shaka.

If Ria notices Shaka it's not too bad this marriage is better and not too bad.

"What are you looking at?" Shaka asked Ria who immediately blinked her eyes. He cleared his throat and turned his face.

"I'm not afraid to see you." His words are ashamed.

Shaka chuckled and continued his work again.

"Shaka I'm sorry if for example yesterday there was no anu. The bride I belom seiap."

Shaka closed his recollection sighing.

Ria plays her fingers when she rubs each other's hands not because of cold but fear, sometimes her feet and hands are frozen unable to move.

As of now Ria was afraid that Shaka would come after her with many questions.

Even Ria's shadow is she's denigrated in an outrageous shy dwarf.

"Yes, no problem."

Answers are in the quartet of expectations and estimates Ria.

Is.deg...

His heart feels warm tapo, he should not be happy just yet.

He was afraid that Shaka would intentionally say that because he had to.

Shaka must have wanted that too but, Ria couldn't give it to him.

""somehow why you think it's Ri. I also know you are the same I am but, I also don't mean you if you want now if you still don't want to be same whenever I wait."

Ria understands that Shaka will wait for him but, Ria is afraid that for example, Shaka will not be given to play outside.

"You're thinking macem-macem.I was also able to wait a long time just wait you are ready it doesn't matter to me. I promise you, too, I told you once that if you agreed to marry me, I would keep all my promises, you suck it!"

Ria nodded at Shaka's panjanh speech. Shaka smiled looking at Ria's plain and confused face.

"but you said that year?"

Shaka was silent and got up and walked to the sofa of his room sitting next to Ria suddenly put his head on Ria's lap which was soft and comfortable even Shaka could never feel his mother's lap because he was embarrassed now with Ria he immediately put his head down just like that.

Ria felt like she wanted to scream in shock in her mind.

Shaka chuckles.

Shaka closed his eyes and felt a gentle swipe of Ria's hand as well as a swab on her forehead.

"You're still afraid of me. Same marriage..we?" Shaka asked suddenly.

Ria was silent for a long time then quietly replied.

"Yes, afraid.I'm afraid that you if you're assertive again just as flat as you found your voice this morning asked it like an angry person, I can't hold emotions...I'm often disturbed they diem but now I don't want to be cuddled, what else later if I diem I become weak.fear to be a burden you."

Shaka took one of Ria's hands and kissed the back of her hand.

"Son. I'm not angry unless you're outrageous and once this is not papa."

" You don't have anything else to burden me, I'm glad you're depending on me... You're also not weak you're tough girl Ria."

At that instant Ria's heart warmed.

But, he still can't believe Shaka is afraid of Shaka as much as the cruel husband out there and the marriage relationship is prone to conflict no matter how strong the relationship.

Because the temptation is greater when not married.

It was silent at once.

Shaka opens his eyes and Ria plays her phone while sleeping.

Shaka wakes up and puts Ria on the sofa by comfortably turning off the phone and keeping her phone on the table.

His decision has not touched Ria because this marriage relationship is even very scary and real for Shaka. He was afraid that he would be tempted on the outside and make Ria's heart break.

He chose not to be close to any woman because Shaka knew her heart was fragile.

Shaka can't see his mother crying, and he's better off staying away when he sees his girlfriend crying because of their problems that have nothing to do with Shaka.

Shaka's heart can be upset if Shaka makes women cry. As long as her mother lives Shaka tries hard to make her mother smile now that she already has a Wife, Shaka also has to make Ria keep smiling. Women's tears in her life were like bullets that kept getting shot into her chest her pain was almost indescribable.

Now Shaka really must know how to make Ria forget her trauma slowly.

Ria is strong but, can't be as strong as Shaka. The Ria kept the trauma instead of closing the meeting and kept it very well.

It is only stored and can be remembered at any time.

Shaka was lucky to know Ria back then.

If it wasn't Ria, Shaka wouldn't want to get married even if Ria wasn't the perfect one. Shaka still wants something like Miria.

Living a stressful and mentally unhealthy life, advice sounds like a bulyan plus a neighborhood of friends and family that is not always good.

The middle daughter should act like the first daughter.

There are so many things Shaka saw when he knew Miria. Even Shaka's friends know Miria from Shaka's story.