Anxietas
The saddest day of mourning

miria went to her father's house alone tana in accompanied shaka and Olva jug busy with his business shaka also already know and forced to permit it when entering the alleyway of his house all the neighbors who saw Miria mlai say hello kdang glanced in envy and started gossiping unkindly.

"ria," said Liala after finishing drying her clothes and invite ria into the house and when the masu ternya niece of Lila and damar immediately welcomed her.

"ontyy.." because of them. Lil picked up Miria's innards and took out a ciko with his wheelchair.

" jeez brother sorry yes, sister Lila so hard and caape nguus ciko sorry brother let Miria aja later. Lila looked amusedly.

"heeh, you are saying what the hell, just as I am the brother of ciko do not be that I am also not a spoiled woman calm down, oh yes ri, you want to drink tea or want syrup?"

" i just plain water I also can not drink too many colored drinks other than milk equally ir white.

" okay ya a minute." ontyy I play here huh,

" yes, dear."

Ciko looked at Miria in embarrassment.

" sorry sister I'm so gini but, I can still school even at home." miria looked at her sister softly.

" yes, the time is not school, later also healed and you also have to obey brother lila as father is now father and better."

Ciko interrupts when she stands up Ciko prevents her brother, where are you going?"

dad where you gonna see me for a minute."

Ciko let go Miria felt confused. Why CCiko forbade him from seeing his father. Step into the room Miria's father knocked on the door and entered .

Hukes.. Grandpa...

dad's sick. Closer and suddenly my father looked.

You come." said dad. Miria was shocked and opened her eyes.

Everyone gathered in black clothes and Lilah was alone.

"The ciko? Ask her.

You forgot ria you fainted when dad...

"dad! tanya confused my father dimna, ask again..

"dad ain't no deck, daddy."

So cramped it feels so pure. Why did his father go what he remembered why he was tudur in his old kqmar now.

"Disky !" enter and and hear Ria directly calling him Shaa saw Liladan Damar.

" "which father is the ciko why all wear clothes items why I'm here.

" your father died his heart tia suddenly stopped beating when tidu yah not dad when you in his room you again chatted with your father fainted Lila said you slept with dad but Lila anh why is it that I look like the shoots turned out you fainted in smaping the father who was lifeless.

" "no way dad can't go how dad went was still talking to me ayha.."

It's all gone and lost again then what should not be this khwtir is all happening how not to say what makes me calm, no? No kan!

Everything is gone hope also happiness who is expected in this world.

Ended from the beginning for mom and dad then Ciko now who?

"father... Dad" cried as he walked out.

"Riaa.." shaka held him down.

"i want to see you, Dad.

I want to see Shaka's father for a moment." I can't bear to see him like this Shaka let him and accompanied him. Miria was crying next to her lifeless father.

After the funeral Shaka did not allow Ria to get out of the car to wipe the amber and to go home.

" Dek, take care of your health in a moment you want the flow of not sters .." damar approached and rubbed the epala ria kewat jendea car that was open. Shaka goes up and over.

" be careful."

Shaka nodded.

***

Miria Pov.

There is no perfect hope for me even everything that is with me will soon go asking them forever by my side will never be.

I'm stupid and innocent au don't know if the world is that cruel and trite. What parts are missing will be lost and will not be treated.

Getting the best after the ugliness and misfortune of being strong and staying healthy to survive so far is not so easy to be confident to be the middle daughter with all I can without asking for help from people others ask to be strong and patient to see mam who was sentenced to severe thirst in the rwat and dialysis every day dizzy with rations of food and rice. Abjected for every thing in the neighbor only when the memnag can begin to rise up people as it approaches give it a little strength.

I do not regret being Miria anpa father's affection that much I also do not regret without the excess mother's affection all enough I dawatkan but, their death can not be au hidari. I was most useless all this time my uncle wished me to be the best but instead I made my mom and dad go forever ciko accident because of me and live in a simple house and college with my ass, I said, I should have made it a comfortable place.

I'm wrong here I know I won't keep forever I know and I know. And what searang.

What father should I be able to be a miria or I should see who my heart breaks dad why dad used to be so far away from me maama sick and I alone bang dmar not so because I feel foreign and afraid of his wife, I'm afraid to be a destroyer of his family father, I am a lot of why his race I am so sorry.

Pain destroyed dark kenpa father no more lma alive why aayah go first.

I can't be alone all this time I know life because I remember my father I remember mom and I remember my last word. I want you to know that I'm married not the guardian's father now I'm with haka forever we want to have a father's child.

**

Shaka gave tissue.

" don't be sad, continue to be,"

"dad left you a letter before you went home.