Anxietas
There is no good answer

Shaka he was waiting for Eyang's words again.

"Done." Shaka's voice is flat.

"Sheaka.. Not that means eye, you can keep the same Miria but, you try to go first with Indri sapa know fit." Eyang was still calm.

Shaka smiled lightly, Shaka looked at Eyang and Indri.

Yanuar was still silent with his position changed. Papa is here just to keep Shaka from releasing emotions on his own eyes.

Papa knows Shaka's emotions as he does, even though Shaka is not his biological son.

"God..." Papa's voice intruded on her.

Shaka did not flinch at Eyang's casual gaze that seemed hard on his jaw like holding his anger in the face instead of in both eyes.

Shaka look at that.

"Shaka apologizes to everyone for Shaka's outrageous attitude, but Shaka can't and won't change." The final has been and Shaka's recognition makes Indri not give up now is also the time Indri set how to use other ways to expel Shaka's surviving wife.

"Think Shaka, it doesn't matter that these two wives are also for the sake of the blue blood that you have?" The word eyang instantly made Shaka tired and frustrated as well as pitying.

"The responsibility of a man when married is not only the living of the world and the inner living, there are many things even the husband must also bring his wife back before God well, if Shaka fails, if Shaka fails, The demands of the afterlife Shaka heavy can even be many times as many, one alone Shaka is not too able to control what else two, two, after all, Eyang also had another grandson from Eyang's other son from another eyeang husband." The one being shunned again.

Yanuar remained calm and felt that his son was actually insinuating his mother with a nice attack, Yanuar held back his smile.

"But, instead of gibbling a lot of people into kindness is good." Said Eyang again.

"One more thing, I don't have the blue blood of the eyeang family." Papa's silent. Eyang lost his words absolutely cannot be proven and wrong.

"Eyang, it's enough here... Shaka is tired, Shaka can be impatient and even hurt his heart."

The mood was silent for a moment.

Shaka stood, Eyang Papa was also indri standing.

They looked at Shaka.

"Papa's coming out see the car's coming yet. Mama don't do anything bad anymore" Papa whispered a little loudly asking her to stay calm.

"Sad... You say calm, quiet, you see she's arrogant, she thinks she's nice, Look she'll bring bad shit to you, Eyang will not bless your life happy continue hopefully you will not get offspring before the blessing of Eyang!"

Degs...

Yanuar who was about to go to hear his mother speech fell silent in shock, feeling weak.

Shaka clenched his hand.

Indri was satisfied but, his face was sad.

Shaka's hands clenched tightly under the table.

"Mama Stop, Nyembut Mah Istighfar Mah, what mama said was bad mama is not good say it is mah." Papa looked at his mother's pity.

Eyang did not care and left with annoyance from there. Indri also had time to smile at Shaka and came out with Eyang.

Papa looked at Shaka.

"Papa Eyang, did you really say that??" Papa looked at his youngest son's pity.

"No son, you are angry again, it is not papa, You may be stressed because you do not want to do it, now you pray to God, how good it is."

Shaka looked down.

Papa came out with a limp face out of Shaka's room and Shaka's face fed up and angrily stared at his desk.

Suddenly her tears came out.

Shaka called Miria.

The new Ria will clean the vegetables feeling and call in, seeing Shaka's call.

"Pak Juki, I went to the boss's room, yes" he said.

"Oh yes." Ria went straight to Shaka's room and did not forget to wash her hands.

In the room Shaka stood staring out the glass window, heard the door knocking turned and saw Ria enter and locked it from inside. Shaka looked back out the window.

Ria approached and touched Shaka's shoulder.

"Why? Are you.." Shaka turned around to directly hug Ria. The surprised Ria slowly patted gently on Shaka's back shoulder.

"I can't tell you what you said about us to you but, I can't lie I'm sad because of the eyed talk."

Shaka said it in his arms. Miria kept silent and patted and rubbed gently.

Ria listened carefully and when Shaka finished the story.

Shaka sat in his work chair and asked Ria to sit on his lap sideways.

"Are you angry, you're disappointed with me, I'm rude to the family but, if you don't like my attitude, I'm sorry I let go earlier."

Ria smiled.

Swiping the back of Shaka's right hand with his thumb.

"I'm not angry, I'm sorry... I know it's gonna happen but, I hope it won't happen, it won't happen either. You yourself said do not respond to what they said. You said hold my hand."

Ria clasped Shaka's hand and kissed the hand that held each other.

"You're cornered, you feel sorry for me, you're the best, too great, next time," held Shaka's face with both hands by sticking her forehead slowly.

"Don't get out of control hold his emotions I won't be disappointed whatever my husband's choice, because it must be the best."

Shaka kissed both of Ria's palms which were on both sides of her face in aiding both her hands, Ria's palms were a little rough but, uh, Ria's palms were, Shaka likes hands like this and these hands that manage to dampen his emotions right now.

Every touch and swipe of the palm was gently on the shoulder of the skin up to his face.

Calm for Shaka.

Don't despair now, Shaka thought.

Shaka hugged Ria from the side still with a position on her lap.

***

Just silence and calm in the car even Miria did not sound at all she felt Shaka needed calm.

Jaln went home to a different house where would Shaka go?

At home Juan and Ethan studied in the back pavilion accompanied by his aunt and Indri in his room also accompanied by a waiter invited him to chat sometimes the waiter had to leave because the indri wanted to be alone.

In the reading room Shaka's father is not Shaka's own reading room. Grandma still doesn't like it if Shaka gets further away from her.

"Yin.. You are that... Make Shaka shepet accept this fool I tuh dapetin indri hard."

"Mama who brought indri here, Mama forgot the incident in the past where Shaka had to close the motor because of Indri's behavior and Indri's mother's behavior who said Shaka was a foreign child, Mama forgot that, Mama forgot that, Shaka should have married Miria instead of Indri."

Eyang standing.

"You love too much the woman that even the Erlangga family can't be proud of."

"Mom should understand what father says about a soul mate and even one's luck, Mama also remember with one's good karma." Eyang glanced dislike and fanned himself when there was ac in the room.

"Was... You're the one who believes too much happens to be like that, now that we need power and party connections if until Indri's grandfather knows it will be a good thing."

"Yanuar doesn't need that arrogant human, Mama also stops wishing Shaka the same Indri, Mama remembers not mah!" Word. Dad was firm.

" Mama was.. had hurt. Shaka's heart this afternoon, What mom there is no feeling at all, the boy is hard to get close to women because of his past and because of his mother's problems his mother's death is also the one who hates his mother too much."