
“You should understand what I mean, right? I just want to know. Not necessarily intending to hurt Appa. Is it wrong if I ask about my origin?”
The adults in the room looked at each other. They exchanged opinions in silence. It was true that Han Byeol would forever be a child for them, but Han Byeol was also growing up. There will be many things that happen and he must understand in the process of self-maturity. Not forever he will be a submissive child who only follows orders according to the instinct given.
The inner upheaval that Han Byeol was experiencing was commonplace. He must be very curious about what really happened and his young soul that began to tempest that might make him unable to hold back.
Both Aleya and San Hyuk are learning to understand child development. Isn't this their first time being parents?
“Sit...” Aleya held the shoulder of San Hyuk and Jagad with both hands. He had already decided to answer all the questions that Han Byeol was going to ask. It would be best if the two grown men were to sit down so that they were much calmer.
“There is nothing wrong Byeol-a, you are right, you deserve to know about your origins. Ask what you want to know, Mom will answer,” Aleya said after she also sat down beside Han Byeol. He clasped Han Byeol's hand tightly to give his son courage.
“I. I just..” Han Byeol hesitantly looked at San Hyuk who was sitting opposite him.
“It's okay, Appa will listen to him,” San Hyuk reassures Han Byeol once again.
Silent.
Han Byeol was deep in thought. He put together what words and sentences he would ask them. This is not an easy thing. There is curiosity but there is also fear that grips the conscience. He's afraid of getting hurt. There is a reality that he wants to deny that his presence is not a hope of people who love each other. The doubt was evident from the look on the young man's face.
“What person is still alive?” the first question just came out as an opening.
“Yes, he is alive,” Aleya replied briefly.
“Why has it never come? Was he a bad man until he abandoned me and Mom?” this was the thing that made Han Byeol curious the most. It didn't matter how she was in Aleya's womb, but why her mother had to endure everything herself was the most important thing. This part that determined Han Byeol's attitude should be if he met what his birth was someday.
“There is no chance for him to come and the most important thing is..he..that person does not know that Mom is pregnant with you.” honestly Aleya answered him. He also had time to think, with Robin's nature like that maybe the man will never let Aleya suffer alone. But going back to the beginning, Aleya also had no idea that Han Byeol's father was Robin. The assumption he believed was the child he was in was the son of Jagad. The scenario that Jagad wants is perfectly imprinted in everyone's mind as expected.
“How is it possible? Why didn't Mom tell him? If he wasn't a bad guy, he wouldn't let Mom fight on her own right?” Han Byeol did not understand her mother's attitude. Why did he choose to suffer alone?
“Not..not that I mean Mom..” Han Byeol felt unwell as Aleya apologized to him.
“If you want to know what your real father is like, he is a person who has a very soft heart. He's not a bad guy just a little stubborn. That person also loved your mother very much. If you ask why he's not with you two it's because he doesn't know where you are,” Jagad said Aleya. He stared fixedly at Han Byeol to convince the boy.
“Uncle knows him?”
“Yes, he is my friend,” Jagad locked his gaze on Aleya before continuing.
“If you're looking for who the bad guy is here. That easy. I'll answer it. That guy is me. I was the one who made your mother suffer during her teenage years until she conceived you. Just blame me. If it wasn't for me, your mother wouldn't have intended to leave Indonesia. I'm the one who caused all your mother's suffering,” Sharp Jagad looked at Han Byeol. It doesn't matter he's hated by the boy, but he doesn't want Robin to be hated by him.
“What does Uncle mean?” Han Byeol did not understand.
“Your sound is not wrong. Just as you heard and you understood, that's exactly what happened,” Jagad didn't lie over his sentence.
“Kakak..” Aleya imagined this part should be told by Jagad. Although Aleya did not expect Jagad to confess the sins he had made in the past but hearing it himself like that made Aleya's heart feel a chest-stifling novelty. Never did he think that this kind of situation would come and that all the wounds in the past would heal slowly.
“Tell me Al, that's the real fact. He may be my man, but you know whose heart belongs to whom. I just don't want your son to remember him as a bad guy. I am the bad guy here,” firmly Jagad once again.
“Mom..” Han Byeol was suddenly in doubt. He wanted to confirm it to Aleya once again.
“What your Uncle said was right, Mom was so scared of him that Mom ran away. Do you remember when I locked you in an apartment room? That's because your uncle came there looking for Mom,” Han Byeol's memory was instantly fixed that night. A night where he felt helpless because he was unable to protect his mother.
“If Uncle is a bad guy, how can I trust his every word? What can prove that the person is also not a bad person like uncle? Obviously Uncle said that person was Uncle's friend!” suddenly there was a point of anger that fell on Han Byeol. He did not expect that Jagad could casually admit that he was the one who made Aleya suffer. But then why is he here with his mother?
“No need for you to trust Uncle. You've seen for yourself how willing that person is to sacrifice his life even when he just found out about you!”