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It's heavy

I was just speechless with the decision from Angga mas so suddenly, I didn't think I had just believed him and started praising him, but now I've decided to leave me and the kids. I cried with an unlucky fate, planning my husband's departure would only complicate life afterwards. 

I let out a breath that seemed to falter, stroking my stomach very gently. There will be no one who understands or embraces me, other than myself. As soon as I wiped my tears, crying was not the solution, I believed that God was still with me. 

The door of the room opened to distract me, my gaze was immediately fixed on Mas Angga who looked at me with a sad face. 

"Dari, Mas was forced to do this for the sake of your life and future. I promise I'll be back soon after I raise a lot of money." His words convinced me. 

My tears broke again, unable to hold back the cries. "Mas, how can I fight alone here? I know for myself how mom and Lisa, as well as the kids are young, plus I'm pregnant and in a few months I'm going to give birth." 

It cannot be denied that I still need my husband at the time of delivery later. 

Mas Angga smiled as he stroked my hair, he tried to convince me that made my little heart wriggle. Don't know what's going to happen, because it's just a hunch. 

"Mas will ask mom and Lisa to take care of you, they will help you." 

"I'm not sure Mas." 

"But Mas has to go far away." I looked at the serious eyes of Angga who returned to continue his words. "Every day I would try to contact you, because the economic downturn leaves us low in the eyes of others, if we had a lot of money? Everyone must have approached and said brother. It's okay, as long as you're happy later. Oh yes, if there is a disaster or you are unable to care for children .. please do not beg and lay hands on others. If you can't make it until I get back, just drop the kids off to the orphanage." 

I was just astonished by the words of Angga mas, what does it mean to say that? Why did he suddenly say he was not coming back. 

The thread of clear liquid was getting fertilized in the eye, my heart now had a hard time digesting those words. 

"What are you trying to say? Is it not coming back?" my words raised the voice an octave, I was still shocked added with the words mas Angga very strange sounding, like the code he wanted to convey would never return.

"Just pray that Mas's work will be smooth and can send money every month, I can't bear to let you work in the kitchen in a pregnant condition, not to mention taking care of the house and everyone. I realized all this time abandoning you and the children, I'll make up for it by giving you a decent life." 

I was sobbing but helpless, trying to accept all the sudden decisions of the Angga. Not only am I against her departure, but my mother and Lisa do not want my husband to wander. 

"I just returned home, but Mas even wanted to wander. What do you want to do?" 

"Anything, both menial and fine work, Mas must have accepted." 

"Well, if that's your decision, I can't forbid or prevent you, it's useless." 

I see that Angga is also heavy hearted to leave us, but he has changed and changed the mindset of life. 

"Yes, Mom." 

"Don't forget to send Mom a lot of monthly money, don't just your wife who is given money." 

Mama can insinuate me cynically, I do not care because my mind is currently fixed on the Angga mas.