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Feel most hurt

I opened my eyes slowly, looking out over the corner of the room where there was no one but medical equipment attached to my body. I was so helpless, and tried to remember what I was going through that I was lying on top of a hospital gurney. 

Immediately I held my stomach, remembering my mother-in-law thrusting the handle of the broom. I felt my stomach slightly distended back flat, the bad feeling and the dream I had made me unable to remain still. 

"Is my son okay?" I was so panicked, kept holding my stomach and hoping that bad premonitions were just bad premonitions that never happened, that I didn't even want to imagine them. 

The sisters hurriedly approached me and tried to calm me down. 

"Sus, why is my stomach back flat? Is my son still in defense?" 

The nurse's long silence made me believe there was something very bad that the medical worker had covered up. 

"Why shut up? Answer Sus!" I snapped and immediately cried. 

"I'm sorry, we couldn't save him. Strong pressure can't save his life that turns out to be dead before we take action." 

"What?" my lips are twisted, my heart and my feelings are back in the test. I couldn't accept this fact, and it made me cry hysterically. 

"It's fate." 

I didn't hear the words of the sisters, I lost my son so much. No one can accept this fact, as if the world were destroyed and more sick than the betrayal inscribed by Angga. 

I feel the most unlucky, always given the ordeal over time. I'm not that strong, losing a child is the most painful thing in my heart, I feel like failing to be a mother should be able to save my unborn child. 

I strengthened myself again, remembering my two children who became my penance medicine. Though I am no longer strong in this world, but the King and Queen I cannot leave, while they have no one who can love them sincerely. 

An hour later, I saw a man whose appearance was disheveled. I immediately turned my back because I did not want to break my heart that had been broken several times. 

"Finally, you're aware of Dance. I was worried." 

"Don't hug me, you're dirty." My words refused his embrace. 

"Don't talk like this, I'm still your husband."

"After I got out of the hospital, I took you to a religious court."

"Don't be selfish!" press Mas Angga who was looking at me full of emotion, it even aroused my emotions that were even much bigger than him. 

"I'm selfish, after what your mother did I can no longer respect her and I can't respect you either."

"Let your tone down, she's my mother. I can't accept that anyone's vilifying her."

Spontaneously I closed both my eyes, as a loud slap landed on my cheek. But I didn't feel any pain after I got used to it. 

"Heh, even I don't feel any pain when you slap me. You and your mother are the same, shameless bitch. Get out of the hospital, I'll take you to court and pack your things right away. Don't leave one behind!" 

"OK, if that's what you want. Now I'm breaking up with you, and you're no longer my wife." 

Tests 

My tears did not drip out of sadness with that parting sentence, I was happy because soon I would be released from the shame that could only trouble me. I intend in my heart and cultivate a strong determination to raise my two children, as best I can and as much as I can without the presence of the Angga period. 

"I want custody of my son!" say again. 

"Take them, I don't need you. I can still have children from other women, you'll regret having done this to me." As Angga passed away, I was shocked as he closed the door rudely. 

"Funny you are, you feel the most hurt." My mutter who wants to recover soon and get out of the hospital to take care of the divorce and also miss my two children.