Due to Prohibited CBC
I have to stay alive

I argued with my mother-in-law, until it ended in a quarrel. I brought up everything I knew, starting from the mother who always gossiped telling me that when it was all not true. Let me see how mom looks at me, everything is clear and how to heart. 

Silence I was wrong, because my mother was increasingly disdainful and trampled on my pride. Until I decided to go against his words, I didn't care about being labeled as a brash daughter-in-law. But this is the fact, if silence hurts if replying is difficult, but I still do it for the sake of self-esteem that I uphold. 

Mother deliberately threw the thing in her reach towards me, I immediately avoided hitting my body. It managed to make both my children cry because the noise disrupted their sleep. I don't want to risk it if mom vents her anger at my two children, I hurriedly run into the room and calm my two children. 

I closed the door and locked it from the inside, no matter how forcefully Mom kicked at my bedroom door and chided me with a loud shout until it was heard by the neighbor next door. I could only cry carrying all these burdens alone, I thought my husband was a helper when I needed him but that was only temporary and changed since he wandered out of town. 

I'm so tired of living like this under the pressure of everyone that I can't freely enjoy life. I decided on all the steps I would take, and still filed a divorce lawsuit in the religious court, I couldn't wait until the man said the word. 

After an hour, I finally stopped screaming. I felt safe and wanted to get out of the room because I remembered that my two children had not eaten anything. As a mother, I can't bear to let them starve and take any risks. And sure enough, when I came out of the room, my mother came with a broom to hit me, but accidentally hit the lower abdomen until I felt a tremendous pain. 

The chaos of the house occurred because of the arrival of Angga mas, I was immediately rushed to the hospital by several neighbors who heard my screams for help. My mother-in-law did not want to accompany me, she felt innocent and there was no problem whatsoever about it. But my thoughts were with the King and Queen, how they were after I left to go to the hospital. 

"Hold on, honey, you and our future son will be safe." His words were so panicked. 

At first glance I smiled at his words, but the word dear was not only on me but on other women. Immediately I brushed off the roughness of his hand, I used both of my hands to hold the stomach that felt like it was burning. I kept moaning in pain and asking the sisters to save my son's life, add yet I know his gender." 

"Save my son .. Save my son!" lirihku who wiggled the sister's hand, while enduring the unbearable pain. I cried with fear, fearing that death would come my way. I have no one and think of the fate of my two young children. 

"I must live for my son! Lord ... Please don't take my life now." My inner prayer closed my eyes when I was in the ICU.