Duren Mateng's
Chapters 172. Not Be Forced
"Down me!!!"
Shinta shouted loudly, making Daren immediately pull over and stop his car by braking suddenly, to make each body slightly crashed, so that the body of each, fortunately, they wear seat belts that protect their bodies.
"Sorry," Daren said a moment later, his eyes softened and slightly watery.
While Shinta, she still did not expect that Daren would behave like this. He was friends with Jun for more than a year, but despite his anger, Jun never came to him. The man just prefers to avoid it.
Shinta removed the arm belt that was twisting around her body. The girl was about to open the car door, but the car was immediately locked by Daren.
"Open the door!"
"Please listen to me first" said Daren, trying to be gentle.
"Nothing to listen to. Everything is clear" Shinta replied.
"I was proud of myself for making you my lover" Daren said.
Shinta, who initially rebelled, asked to open the door, immediately stopped her activities and chose to listen to Daren's words first.
"But .. I was sick, when it turned out that I could only win the title of being your lover. While in your mind, and also in your heart, still expecting another man." Daren's voice trembled slightly.
"I'm sorry for my treatment, but can you see me for a second, without the shadow of the man. I want you to see me as your lover, I also want to feel loved by you. Please ...."
Listening to Daren's words, made Shinta's eyes glaze over. All this time he was also wrong, because he had received Daren, but he was still expecting June.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have accepted you. We'd better ....."
"Bug ... Shinta no, don't say that!" Daren already knew the next sentence to be said by the lover, it made him unable.
"How hard we force it, then we'll hurt each other, Daren." Shinta tries to explain to Daren the real situation.
"No, Honey. We can try to start over. We can try again and it's not easy."
"Don't be forced, Daren. Hasn't it been this long, you've been feeling stuffy? I can promise myself to throw it in my head, because I wish I wanted it. I know this is a little selfish, but this is what I really feel. One day I tried to love you, the other day I felt I could not breathe, my chest cavity was tight just by thinking about it," Shinta said at length.
"When I joke around with you, the smile I've carved is a little fake. I can't deny that I hurt myself, by accepting you," Shinta said.
"I'm sure there will be good women who will accept you. Who can love you more sincerely, like the love you showed me. And slowly, you will definitely forget me," Shinta said again.
"No, Shinta. I want you. Please don't act like this. Forgive me for my mistake, I'm really happy" explained Daren, who is still trying to persuade Shinta to keep their relationship.
"Until when? How long will we continue to hurt? By maintaining this relationship, we will hurt each other. Why spend time on uncertain love? Wasting your time is only to keep me who doesn't love you in fact" Shinta said.
"I can't go on with this, I want to end it even if you don't want it. Let's get out of the circle that shackles us, that makes us hurt each other. We can make a friendship in the future by not hating each other."
Daren's body felt weak to hear the narration of the girl who had only been his lover for a few days. He also did not expect, will run aground so soon.
Daren again set his eyes on the girl next to him, looking at the girl's eyes as if asking to be released right now.
Slowly, the man opened the car key on his left side. Eventually, Shinta gets out of her vehicle. That way, everything is done. The story between Shinta and Daren no longer exists.
Daren can't hold Shinta any longer. There was no hope for him to win Shinta's heart. Daren massaged his temple, the tears that he had been holding back, dripping just like that. Suppose he is a bad guy. However, he could no longer hide everything, this was truly stifling his chest.
"Should it be so fast? You should have given me a minute. Just in a minute. Is that so small of my hope?" Daren laughed, but tears just kept dripping.
At the same time, after getting off Daren's car, Shinta stopped a taxi. The girl got into the taxi.
He also could not hold back his tears. He felt guilty, and cursed himself for not being able to accept Daren who loved him so sincerely.
The girl rolled down the windshield, letting the wind blow on her face that had been soaked by tears.
"I'm sorry for being so mean to you. I shouldn't be like this. I'm really stupid, "Shinta's mind biting her finger. Sometimes the girl wiped away the tears that were dripping, but again and again the tears were flowing.
He also felt sad, because it had hurt Daren. Wasting a man who truly loves him.
Shortly after, the taxi arrived at the skyscraper, where Shinta was scavenging for sustenance. Shinta tidied up her appearance for a moment, she did not want the person in the office to see her puffy eyes. After completion, he paid the taxi bill using cash, then got off the vehicle.
Shinta sighed, and exhaled slowly. The girl commented on the smile as she passed her co-worker.
Shinta sped up her pace, aware of the delay she had made because she had been arguing with Daren for too long. While the man ... Shinta didn't see him at all in the office. Most likely if he also did not enter for today.
Shinta stepped into the elevator. A little jostling with the people who had just entered the narrow room.
He heard a voice talking about June from behind. Shinta tried to eavesdrop on the conversation.
"Have you seen Mr June? I don't know why he looked a little different this time. He really looks cooler than before" said the 1st woman.
"Yes, I've seen it. He was much more handsome this time. I already have a husband, so can't go after him. If I don't have a husband yet, I will definitely go after Mr. June" said the other woman.
"Ssttt ... there is him in front," whispered another woman who pointed towards Shinta.
Shinta just fell silent. Didn't say anything. When the elevator door opened, he immediately walked out of the narrow room.
"I think it's better for June to look ordinary" muttered Shinta who felt jealous.
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