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Chapters 181. It's Not That Easy

Shinta had just arrived home in a taxi. The girl deliberately refused Jun's invitation to invite him home together, so that there were no rumors that made Jun embarrassed later.

Shinta entered the building. Climb the stairs of the elevator that will take him to the floor where he lives.

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The elevator door opened, Shinta came out of the narrow room. Just a few steps out, the girl came across a man. The man who was once his lover. The man who in recent days has not been seen the trunk of his nose, and now the man has also appeared.

"Daren," Shinta muttered in her footsteps. The man also stopped his footsteps. Staring at the woman who was currently still filling the recesses of her heart, even though their status was not like it was a few days ago.

"You just got home?" ask Daren to smile.

"I-iya," Shinta replied slightly stammering. I don't know why the awkwardness immediately attacked him. What might be because of their status that is no longer as lovers. Or because yesterday's farewell was less than pleasant.

"Can I ask you for a minute? There's something I want to talk to you about" Daren said as he rubbed his neck. Actually, he felt bad about to take time on a woman who in fact did not have the status of her lover.

Shinta nodded her head, there was no way she could just refuse Daren's invitation, when she had already made a wound to a man who sincerely loved her. Maybe, if June sees all this, of course there will be new misunderstandings. However, Shinta will explain everything in June.

Daren takes Shinta to the roof. He thought it was the right place to say what he was about to say. Although in the end, the words he was about to utter were no longer meaningful to the woman before him.

Upon arrival there, Shinta sat on a chair that was on the roof. No other place Jun expressed his feelings a few days ago, coinciding with when he broke up from Daren.

Daren sat next to Shinta, the man slightly kept his distance, because now their status had been different.

Long enough Shinta waited for what Daren would say. The man's mouth seemed locked, no matter what he was about to say to Shinta, it certainly made the woman become curious and tried to ask directly to the man beside her.

"What are you going to say?" ask Shinta.

Daren looked down, she smiled. "I don't know what to say. Saying this it feels like my tongue is twisted, my lips are locked. In fact, I have prepared for several days to say this to you," said Daren who is still trying to review the smile even though his heart was blackmailed.

"In that case, I will wait until you are ready to tell me," said Shinta who also returned Daren's smile. He did not want Daren to feel uncomfortable and ultimately abandoned his intention to say so. Shinta, try to melt the atmosphere.

Daren took a deep breath and let out slowly. Trying to calm himself so that he can say the sentence that is already at the end of his lips.

"I'm getting married" the man said suddenly.

Shinta was startled, her eyes widened with Daren's words that had just been captured by her sense of hearing.

"Married?" asked Shinta who seemed to not believe what she just heard. By asking back the main word of the sentence thrown by Daren earlier.

"Yes, because you don't want me to marry, so I'll marry someone else" Daren said, accompanied by a crisp laugh, however, it is different from his little heart that still wants Shinta to be his.

"I'm sorry. But I congratulate you. I am so happy about the news. And I hope you will find your true happiness" Shinta said.

Daren was quite sad when she saw Shinta's willing expression. It was as if there was no sad look from the girl when she heard about Daren's words about marrying someone else. It was as if Shinta had clearly shown Daren, that the man had never filled the recesses of his heart for a second.

"It's not that easy, Shin. If I could, I wouldn't have taken a path like this. Marrying someone else is the hardest thing. Honestly, right now my heart feels slashed when I see your expression that does not show any sadness at all. However, I realize. That I'm not in your heart, even for a second," Daren said with reddened eyes.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have shown this kind of facial expression. But this is what it is. I'm sorry if you feel disappointed" Shinta said.

"I shouldn't have discussed this." the man rubbed his face violently.

"I'm sorry, for getting too carried away. I shouldn't have behaved like this because we're officially separated" Daren continued.

"It's okay. I also understand how you feel. How devastated are you because I have given false hope" Shinta said.

"But ..the essence of everything I want to convey is one thing. I want us to part ways. Maybe yesterday, I was too carried away by emotions and I'm sorry for being rude and yelling at you before" explained Daren who ventured to look at the woman beside him.

"I've forgiven you. I'm also sorry for what happened yesterday" Shinta said. Damn the girl also glazed over to see Daren who looked so pitiful.

The two stared at each other, until Daren's tears fell. "This is the last time I look at you closely" said the man, hinting at his farewell. In terms of speech, Daren seems to really want to forget about Shinta.

Shinta just kept quiet, letting Daren stare at her for as long as possible. Letting the man, feel his happiness for a moment. Shinta also understands what it feels like to have love clapping one hand.

"Shinta, it's not easy for me to do this. It's not easy to forget you. However, from this second on, I try to remove your shadows from my memory. Even if it's hard, I'll try my best. Even if it hurts, I will try to let you go with the man who loves you too. Thanks for a few days. Thank you for giving me the chance to be your girlfriend. At least I already know, what it's like to be the lover of a woman named Shinta," Daren said at length.

Shinta could only nod her head. Her tears also trickled seeing the clear feathers flowing down Daren's cheeks.

"I'm sorry, maybe this sounds inappropriate. But ... May I hug you for once. Can I?" daren asked who sounded a little clear.

Shinta moved from her seat. He stretched out his arms, ready to be embraced by Daren.

Not waiting for a long time, Daren immediately got out of his seat and hugged Shinta. Daren's embrace seemed to hint at pain as well as a deep love. The man's tears grew louder, having to let go of the woman he loved so much. However, he should not be selfish, because this love only makes him happy, not with Shinta.

"After this happy Daren. You can be happy without me. You know destiny, right?" ask Shinta. Daren chimed in the girl's words with a nod.

"We were destined to be like this. And God also gives the woman you want to marry later will love you sincerely. I don't deserve sincerity from you, there's someone more worthy than me. There's something better than me. And you deserve that" Shinta said.

Daren started to let go of his embrace. He looked at Shinta closely. "You should be happy too. Promise me to always be happy" Daren said.

Shinta nodded her head, the girl smiled. So did Daren who had started trying to pull both corners of his lips.

"Tomorrow I'll hand over my resignation letter. And this afternoon, I also vacated the apartment I rented. I decided to start a new life without you. May I be strong" Daren said, chuckling.

"I'm sure you can do it" Shinta replied.

"Maybe that's all I want to say. Let's get down! After all you must want to rest," said Daren.

Shinta nodded her head. They both turned around to leave the roof. However, as the two turned around simultaneously, they were stunned to see Jun who was behind them. June, the man had seen it all.

"June, ...." Shinta stared at her lover.

"Have you finished the show?" tanya June with a hardened jaw.

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