Gannaya, My Adore
Look at the Stars If You Miss

Hearing the speech of the most hated by Allah SWT, now sounded so sweet from the mouth of her husband, Maldava Ammar Artanegara.

The man she had never allowed to be in her heart. The man he always refused his love. Even the man he married only with capital was forced because it was squeezed by a situation.

Now, when his love begins to spread, widen and attract that man alone can dwell in his heart, soul and body. Ammar threw embers instead. Penetrate the wall of the heart and then pierced and chopped it until it was torn apart.

"I divorced you, Gana ..."

It feels soft to be heard, but it hurts so much to be accepted. Like the sky split, the earth spinning and the sea roaring. Broke Gana's heart, crushed like a scattered shard and will injure the leg and bleed.

Gana's iris eyes swayed with a stern look across her ex-husband, like a hungry lion about to pounce on a deer.

The woman's jaw tightened along with a rough breath coming out of her face. Both of Gana's hands clenched tightly. His eyes began to turn red holding the fireball that wanted to come out to hit Ammar.

Ammar and Gana sat at each other. If Ammar stares at him, Gana stares at him. Like a hungry tiger ready to prey on the flesh of a helpless human.

And.

SIR.

Gana landed a hot slap on Ammar's cheek. When Ammar turned his face to the other side, then Gana's clear water fell down from the corner of his eye. The woman pulled the upholstered cloth on Ammar's chest and stomped her until Ammar was pushed against the wall.

"Your work, Ammar! Is this how you treat me the same? After what I did for you? It's a crazy request, WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" yelled Gana tight. She looked up at her husband who was not looking at her.

"You have easily divorced me!"

"I shouldn't have to open my heart to you! Because I finally know, I'm gonna get hurt!" sobs of tears Gana broke. The woman's shoulders swayed withstanding the tightness.

Just feeling the beauty of love, enjoying the new household times he achieved, just wanted to release his honor in order to quickly have children, in fact all those desires must be melted and destroyed.

Upon hearing Gana's words, Ammar turned his head. He looked at his ex-wife's face with water condensing in a cracker. However, there is no word that can be said. Ammar's tongue is stifled.

"I'm trying to accept you. Come with you in difficult times, defend you in times when everyone doesn't care! But why did you let me go, Ammar! WHY!!!" Gana again stomped Ammar's body, then drowned his head in the man's chest and moaned in tears.

Ammar wants to lock Gana's body but shuts down. They are no longer halal, because Ammar has not referred to them.

"Pull again your words, Ammar! PULL IT!!" Gana hugged Ammar's body firmly. Jolting his feet with anxiety and asking for pity from the man.

"You said I was your life! I'm your world! You'll die if you lose me, but why did you finally let me go?" now Gana's tone changed slowly. Although Ammar was forced, at least Ammar could refuse, even though he had to be rude to his Papa.

His chest continued to tremble with a strong beating heart. Ammar could feel it, because right now their chests were fused together in an embrace.

Ammar was silent. He looked at Papa who turned to look at him. Papa moves his head as a code to keep Ammar in his decision.

Ammar forcibly removed Gana from his body. He is a man. The man whose words must be kept and whose promises must be kept. He dropped talaq. It is legal for them to separate.

"Ahh, don't want to!!!" Gana again grabbed Ammar's body, when it felt his body would be pushed away. Gana re-hugged the man with a shot as hard as she could.

"Let's go get me some hiks!" Gana was no more like an toddler who was whining. He refused to forget, if his age was older than Ammar.

Ammar breathed a heavy sigh. On the edge of his heart was not heart. He could not see Gana writhing like a snake in his arm. But he can what? The words that had come out, could not be withdrawn anymore.

Ammar stroked Gana's shoulders gently. Then whisper. "If you miss, look up at the sky. If there's the biggest star there, point and smile. That's me, Gana."

It's cliche but romantic. At the end of the separation, the man could have made Gana's heart scream.

Ammar lowered his hand from Gana's shoulder, then turned to Papa and approached the man.

"Get home, Pah." Ammar kisses Papa Galih's hand. The man remained gentle even though his heart was already on the saw.

"Be careful, kid. Forgive me, Papa." replied Papa.

Ammar nodded with a thread-thin smile. His chest was inflamed as if stoned by an indiscretion.

"Don't leave me. Take me, baby." Gana insisted on begging. But Ammar

re-release Gana's stranglehold from her arm until the woman falls.

With a staggering stride Ammar kept stepping, letting his body go with the wound. Although he could not bear to hear the cries of Gana who kept moaning her name.

Papa shuffled to grab Gana's body that was already resting on the floor. But the woman brushed off her Papa's hand and got back up to chase after Ammar.

"I'm coming, baby. I'm still your wife." exclaimed Gana.

The wind in the air alone, if they could speak, they would definitely want to hug Gana who was struggling in unstoppable sorrow.

Gana kept following Ammar's steps that continued to run slowly. Every time Gana wanted to hold Ammar's hand, the man threw him in. And made Gana fall down a few times.

Brug.

"Ah .." hiss Gana. His body staggered back.

Ammar stopped his steps and glimpsed his head, Gana was not angry. He smiled in tears, extending his hand upward for Ammar to reach him. But the man just remained silent and resumed his steps.

Ammar's face had turned cold. He does not care about Gana who is still preparing to follow him again, to the point where Papa can grab him and pull Gana away.

"Father, be with me! Bad papa! Leasin!" Gana tries to take off Papa's hand checks, which mean to drag her back into Mama's room.

"Let's go in!" Papa is forcing.

"No way, Pah!" Gana kept pushing back, as Papa continued to pull his body.

"My husband .. help me. Take me home! I'm still your wife----" Gana exclaimed loudly. Echoing the entire corridor which happened to be quiet.

Ammar kept on going without looking. His eyes were flushed looking ahead. Her tears welled up with a chest ripple that she could not let out.

It hurt a lot when Gana kept begging for mercy. Sayings, greetings, love calls that he never heard, now easily come out of Gana's mouth. And Ammar loved it, although he was sad, why he could feel the greeting of love when they were separated.

"Sister help me!" Gana tries to grab Maura's hand to help her escape Papa's hand. Maura just pecked, looked at Gana and took turns to highlight her sister's back.

After coming to his senses from the daydream, Maura rushed to run. The hijab-wearing woman caught up with Ammar who kept dragging her steps.

"GRANDCHAM!" maura exclaimed, she stopped in the middle of the corridor. Because his breath was not strong enough to continue running, through the wind and chasing after his only puppet brother.

It seemed as if the darkness had begun to disappear, replacing the light that had suddenly come. There was a very familiar voice that snuck into his earlobe.

Ammar turned his head, looking at the brother he thought would leave him too. Ammar's sobs broke, he ran over to his brother. Happy heart, it turns out not everyone is able to torture his inner.

Blase.

Maura almost staggered back because of the strong embrace of Ammar. The man wept, shedding his sorrow of heart and disappointment.

"I've taken it off, brother."

"I lost my wife ..."

"I lost My Gana!"

Ammar continues to fumble. Releasing the inner pressure that is now tormenting. He hugged the little woman who was now like someone was having trouble breathing.

Maura to tiptoe as he put his chin on the base of Ammar's shoulder. He rubbed his sister's back in an up and down motion. His face was wet.

"Refer back, Deck. Get your wife again."

Ammar shakes. "Can't, Brother. I've been guilty of his family."

"Refer again, Deck! Refer!!"

Ammar kept shaking. "I wouldn't have referred to him, if Papa and his mother hadn't given us permission to get back together. This is a sin I must pay for, brother."

Maura fell silent. Maybe her husband's family needs time.

"Please keep this a secret from Mama and Papa. Don't let them know. Adek who will talk to Mama himself later."

Maura sighed and nodded. To be honest, he had no power to help. Ammar is guilty and deserves to be punished. But he realized, making the guilty aware is not allowed by violence.

***

After being forced to act. Trying to play a show in front of a large family, if he was already khilaf had defended a husband who had reaped gaping wounds in the family.

He said he had accepted if he had to part with Ammar. He asserts Papa's words that Ammar will bring bad things into his life, if they continue to be united in the bond of marriage.

When all the family believes. So Gana took the idea for permission to go to the cafeteria, reasoned to want to buy warm sweet tea. Then he can be free from Papa, Gema and Gelfa's observation. While Gifali permission to go home because he knew his wife had left the hospital four hours ago.

Before he stepped away. Gana hugged Mama first and whispered something.

"Let Gana go first after Ammar, Mah. Gana will definitely come here again, to take care of Mama." whispered slowly, when Papa and his two sisters were sleeping soundly on the sofa.

Mama blinked her eyelids, agreeing. Knowing that if she was allowed, the woman kissed Mama's forehead with all the strings of prayer.

"Gana loves Mama. I'm sorry my husband, Mah." Mama winks again, and Gana refuses to forget that Ammar is no longer her husband. The woman thought that the talaq Ammar dropped was not legal. Forced by his father.

After coming out of the door of Mama's nursery, capitalize a hundred thousand in fists, because he did not bring a bag to go. Afraid she will be suspected. Gana looking for a taxi to penetrate the night, she darted away to the house she had been staying with her husband.

Gana keeps looking at the watch. The time has shown at 21:00 pm, usually Ammar has fallen asleep. But he knew, his arrival would definitely not be in vain. He knew that this afternoon Ammar was just tired, confused and full of emphasis and insistence.

Taxi drove fast, split the road, pierced the wind. Gana continued to call on the driver to drive the car quickly, so that Gana could get home quickly.

He left his family for Ammar. No matter who she is, everyone knows who she is married to. Even though Ammar was a mobster, it was still in his mind. That man is his little grandpa. Husband who will take care of her to the nadir point.

"Thank you very much, sir." Gana gives taxi fare. The woman was right standing in front of a large gate that protected the tall house building almost clawing at the sky. Gana stepped closer to the security guard who was asleep at the post in front of the gate of their house.

"Assalammualaikum, sir. Let's get up, please open me the door." he said repeatedly to wake the guards to run his titahan.

The guards blinked their eyes slowly, focusing their gaze on Gana.

"Eh Mother." said one of them while rubbing his eyes.

"Please open the gate, I'm going in."

Mr. Darkim nodded with an unfilled awareness. And before long, his consciousness returned. His sleepiness suddenly disappeared. He just remembered something.

"Sorry, Mom. You told me that you'd come, don't open the door."

Gana flabbergasted.

"WHAT? Wh-you-you mean-his?" the woman stammered.

Gana long ago. Is Ammar really this good to her? Did the man indeed wear the intention when he was looking at her? An angry rout began to radiate.

"Don't listen to me. This is my home!" exclaim Gana with a tone of emotion.

Mr. Darkim and Mr. Soleh cast one another with sharp eyebrows.

This house was Ammar who bought it, but he had made a dowry for Gana. The one who is entitled to this house is himself.

"Let's open up!"

"No way, Mom. You gave me orders like this." They just did the job Ammar gave them.

"I fired you, will I?"

"Here you go, Mom. I tried to call inside."

Gana pensive. If he let the guard call inside, it's clear Ammar knows he's coming. Then the man will increasingly lock his steps so as not to enter the house.

"Yes already then. I'm home." Gana is back to acting. He tried to leave for a moment. That brave woman will not give up. He is resourceful, intelligent and genius.

Gana tried to hide behind the walls of people's houses. Looking at the guards who were back yawning from drowsiness.

"Let's go to sleep! And I'll be right inside." he murmured.

And.

Tick tick tick.

The drizzle started to arrive. Gana muttered in annoyance, why should he come when he was out on the road like this. He couldn't help but get his clothes wet. The rain kept on pouring down his body.

It had been half an hour he stood up, and finally his wait succeeded. The guards were asleep in a dream.

Gana grunted back closer to the gate area. The woman began to climb the gate that had taper bars on its top. He had no ideas other than this.

Gana began to creep on the side of the fence, with her face, body and clothes all wet, Gana still climbed the fence. No matter what thunder and lightning occasionally made him stop his climbing and close his eyes.

DARRS.

Gana spoke the name of Allah, and asked for protection from being struck by lightning. But when he reached the highest peak and was about to jump into the yard, the part of the fence trellis he was about to step on was slippery and made his body fall directly from a height of three and a half meters.

"Ahhhhh, O Allah .." his sigh. Hurriedly folding his lips in, so that his sigh of pain was not heard by the guards.

His knee was injured, as it rubbed against the asphalt. Blood was seen flowing, mixed with rainwater. Gana complains of pain, because this leg could not be used to walk a few months. Not only did his legs hurt, the rest of his body hurt.

For Ammar he continued to sacrifice. Left the family, broke through the night and now wounded. But for him, it's okay. What matters is that Ammar will take it again. He will force the man to refer to him.

Gana tried to get up with a pained hiss. He tried to walk slowly, even with broken steps. Carrying his body to get to the main door leaf.

"I miss you, baby." she said, dragging her body. Occasionally rubbed his face that had been wet because of the rain.

****

In the room. Ammar, who was still wearing a sarong after performing his prayers two hours ago, lay weakly in the belly of the bed. Her bruised face has been treated by Maura.

He turned to the side of the bed that his wife often used to sleep. Wiped that part with his hand. Then kiss the pillow that Gana used last night to put her head there.

"Still smell your hair my love .." the look was scorching. From the pelukannya menggerumun again tears. Ammar grabbed the pillow and carried it into the deck.

"I miss you, baby. I miss it." he said. Clear water that has condensed, then decays.

Shadow himself when he was still in Gana's arms, was clearly imprinted and made a tightness in the heart. The bruise he was suffering from now was nothing when he remembered the shadow of his wife who at the time he left so hysterical.

"I'm sorry, honey. I don't have any other way." she groaned. Ammar glued the pillow to his chest. She hugged Gana as usual.

Shortly thereafter, the door to his room was knocked.

"Sir, sorry. Is she asleep?" yuni's voice appeared as a knock from her hand outside the door.

Ammar wiped away the tears. And get out of bed. He hurried to the door, and opened it.

"What's up, Yun?"

"There's Mom, sir. Rainy. I want to open it, but the key is the same Father."

It's true what Ammar thinks must have happened. Gana will definitely come after him. All the keys of the door, he holds. He did not want the art to easily open the door.

"You've just gone to sleep. Don't mind Mom! I don't allow anyone in this house to open Mom's door and go inside."

Ammar still left Gana alone outside, whose body was soaked, his eyes swollen, accrued cold, his lips trembling, shivering and bleeding wounds in the knee area.

Tok to tok.

"Darling, please open the door. I'm home."

Ammar and Yuni turned back to the main door, and they heard Gana crying.

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