Gannaya, My Adore
How you!

The phone kept ringing in Ammar's pants pocket. And the man just kept staring at the twilight. Ammar did not break all the calls into his hape.

Mahendra, Alex, Bima and Denis are undaunted, they keep contacting the man. But Ammar still did not answer. It is still difficult to discuss his mood. Several times also Aurora wriggled in her arms to invite play. Ammar remained silent.

"Look yuk, Bang. It's gonna rain again" said Gana, who was sitting next to him. It had been an hour Gana accompanied her husband who wanted to just freeze like a rock.

"You go first. Brother still wants to be here." he said flat while hugging his chest because it was swept away by the cold. Though Ammar has been put on a thick jacket and scarf on the neck, after bathing Gana wearing warm water.

"No, brother, it's cold. Come in aja yuk, Bang." then Gana clasped Ammar's hand.

Ammar took off the hand and shook his head. "Just be good first."

Gana breathed heavily. His head returned. By the way, they are currently in the back of the house. Ammar still looked at the orange sky without saying much.

He looked up seriously again. Looking for the shadow of his two grandfathers who went home the same day, only intermittent hours.

Bayu Artanegara followed his brother to return to the side of Allah SWT. And Ammar had no chance to be in the last vestiges of their lives.

Mama Alika and Papa Bilmar were both devastated. Until now, they still do not want to be met by the media.

"A week like this. Just shut up, and cry occasionally. If you are talking without focus. What the hell is it, Bang? You don't always say nothing, Adek know there's something else you think, right? We're husband and wife, Bang. Already local sleeping, already fused! What the hell are you still hiding?"

Ammar's faint eyes began to shift from the sky. He looked up, looking at Gana who was looking at him. Looking at Gana's eyeballs while wanting to justify, is it time for her to be honest?

But, apparently.

Nah!

He doesn't want to give up now. All this pain was a consequence he had to accept. No, not in love with his family, but with his return now to Jakarta and then reveal everything. Of course, he will not return his two grandfathers who have gone home.

It will not bring back the disappointment of the mother, who a few days ago shouted on the phone to ask Ammar to return home to Jakarta.

"You are a bad boy, Dek! My mom is not the same as you!"

Every memory of Mama's wrath. Ammar is back in turmoil. He is weak helpless. How difficult is it to live with a wife, get freedom and reunite with her family?

Is this difficult?

"Nothing, Dek. Brother only remembers Brother's parents."

Gana stroked her husband's back. "Well, we go to his grave, Bang. If you're worried like this, it means you both need prayers from us."

It was so painful that his heart was being pierced by the tip of a knife, when he heard the words of his wife. His lie to Gana has widened. About the past, parents and their identities both. Especially at this time Gana still does not remember anything.

Can the woman accept it?

Accept what he's done now? The Gana that is now is not the Gana that was before. Gana who is now certainly afraid, if he knows Ammar is a former mobster, and is being targeted for revenge by several other bandits.

Ammar was afraid that Gana could not accept and be influenced by the Hadnan family who would surely be angry and force them to remain divorced.

As well, the man was still agitated by the shadow of the iron bars that were still not separated from his past.

"Come, Deck. We go in." take Ammar back into the house. Again, he was not focused on talking. What Gana said, the Gana rayu, the Gana pinta. This man will only respond to her with silence and flatness.

Gana breathed many times. It was eager to split Ammar's head in search of something that became the man's thought.

Why did her husband turn out like this when he was just giving birth. In moments he needs attention, more touch than Ammar.

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Gana threw a pillow at Ammar with an annoyed face. Ammar kept trying to get closer to calm Gana who was still sulking. For four months, the woman was always angry. He hated seeing Ammar. Thanks to the man, Gana is pregnant with her third child.

"Go!!" drive Gana to Ammar who is still wearing a work uniform, after returning from the factory. It was not warm tea or water that he usually received, but throw pillows and curses from Gana.

"Sorry Brother, baby. The feeling this morning that you heard asked for a kangkung rujak. Not a mango"

Ammar continued to curse himself. Maybe he bought it wrong. I don't know where his brain went, it was really that guy. Continues to drain the wife's emotions.

"Go!" Gana kept shouting.

"Yes, I'm sorry." Ammar slowly approached Gana, when the woman had run out of stock of pillows that he would throw into Ammar's body. Gana grunts a rough breath with a stomach that already looks patterned. He doesn't like.

Since the third child became pregnant. Gana is often angry. The mood's fucked. On the one hand, she does not want to get pregnant again anytime soon. Aidan, who was only six months on the road, was forced to drink milk, because Gana's water receded again.

Not opposed to having more children, but the time is not right. And it was Ammar who could not keep his desire. Gana is allergic to injectable KB, want to use IUD must to Doctor Speasialis Gynecologist, and of course he must go to the city. Then all he could do was consume the KB pills alone. And when he forgets to drink, that's where Ammar acts.

Be the third child. With the fourth pregnancy. Had his brother Rora not fallen, Ammar and Gana's army would have increased.

"Right deck. Ndak boyeh yah." Rora grabbed her crayon that Aidan was about to put in her mouth. The two children were playing on the carpet in the living room. Aurora is drawing in the picture book and Adian accompanies her.

Aidan muttered with a slight cry. Because the crayon was taken by his brother. "Std. Tiem. Mama cama Papa agih beyantem." Aurora placed one finger on Aidan's lips, so that the younger brother complied to be quiet.

The six-month-old baby pulled the tip of her sister's hair and put it back in her mouth.

"Nr ... Nam." muttered Aidan, enjoying his sister's hair.

"Oh dong. Just get it." Aurora grimaces. Trying to remove his fist that has grown four teeth as much as his sister.

I feel thirsty because I want milk. Aidan took off Aurora's hair, which he had been clenching strongly. The moon-cool baby who could sit up then crawled towards the door of his parents' room.

The handsome little hand stomped at the bottom door. "Ba ... Bc ... Ma." Aidan called out to his Mom and Dad who were still noisy inside.

"Mauh or cih?" asked his brother stroked his sister's hair which looks still rare.

Aidan kept stomping at the door. The boy was getting impatient and finally crying. Aurora kept trying to calm her sister down, to where her cheeks in Aidan's paws were.

"Huwaaaaaaaa ..." and the two cried at the door.

Gana who managed to get Ammar to be held on the lip of the bed in a rundown, rushed up, not when he with the sound of crying from his two children outside.

"Oh God, Unfortunately, Mama. Why, Son?" Gana wiped away the tears that made her face wet while channeling resentment to her husband.

The pregnant woman bowed, first holding Aidan and then holding Rora to stand up. He took the two children to sit on the sofa. Because at the table there is a bottle of Aidan's milk that is still there, only half.

"Crying, son? Why?" ask Ammar who followed Gana's steps. He wanted to reach Aurora, but Gana did not give him a gap.

He was still upset with the man. During the four months of pregnancy, Gana did not want to be on the touchline. Only a sour face could he give. Gana experienced severe nausea and vomiting at two months of pregnancy. Just imagine at the same time, he had to take care of his children who were small.

"here, Brother. Same Papa." Ammar waved at Rora. She sits on a single sofa. Just now Rora wanted to move, but first her hand was in check. Gana.

"Just like Mama!" gana's orders are fierce. Rora stopped crying. He chose not to approach his father. Instead of being scolded for disobedience and whiny, he better find it safe. Good this child, even though it has been scratched by Aidan, but Rora still kisses the head of Aidan who is still busy breastfeeding.

"Well, always want to do it yourself! Never understood my feelings!" gana's tears are back.

"How else to know? Kan Abang always nurutin Adek's will. Adek wants what, always brother yes-in. If you are angry about this pregnancy. Yeah, what should you do? Maybe it's time you got pregnant again."

Ammar leaned on the back of the chair while rubbing his huffed face. Already tired of working, and now his wife sulked incessantly. As if his head was about to break.

"Mama dana nanis dong. Cup-cup." the eighteen-month-old girl wiped away her Mama's tears that kept soaking her cheeks. Gana continued to sob while breastfeeding Aidan. Aidan who was breastfeeding while looking at Gana's face, then held her Mama's face.

Ammar's heart was filled, seeing his beloved wife continue to cry. "Well, we go to Jakarta next week. Brother's gonna call Mr. Mahendra so we can stay at his house."

This is what Gana has wanted since giving birth to Aidan. The woman wanted to refresh and bring her baby for a walk. Gana wanted to buy this and that for her son and husband. But Ammar has always retreated to his will. The woman was so angry. Her wish had never been fulfilled, now she was pregnant.

The twinkle in Gana's eyes was again visible. "Really, Bang?" his smile reappeared. Ammar, who was happy because Gana had stopped crying, nodded.

"Yes, for Adek's sake. Let not be angry mulu." kekehnya though in a jittery wrap. The man was afraid of getting caught by Frady's men, upon arrival in Jakarta.

Gana just wanted to say thank you. Rora interrupted. "That word or cih, Mah?" ask the beautiful woman to her mother. Ammar smiled as he stroked Aurora's long unraveled hair.

"Jakarta, Son. We will go for a walk." replied Gana while peeping Aurora's cheek.

"Yey yey yey .. talan-talan." exclaimed the boy in delight.

"Thank you, brother." said Gana.

"Yes, Dek." Gana finally got to see the world, after almost three more years confined to this island.

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Ammar sneaked into the yard to call Mama in Jakarta, while he confirmed that his wife and children were asleep.

The current time has shown ten o'clock at night when Indonesia is in the middle. And in Jakarta only nine p.m., west Indonesia time. The mother who for six months did not want to pick up her phone, must have not slept.

Mama Alika had to freeze to Ammar. So that his son would come home soon. And Ammar remains ignorant until now. He misses that woman. With him to Jakarta. He could hide out to meet his mother there.

Mama's contact on her device was pressed, then the black flat object she put in the ear, there was only the sound of the usual continuous tone.

And when Ammar had repeated several times the call was finally willing to give up. His eyeballs looked at the sky with a smile, knowing that the connecting tone had changed with the sigh of someone there.

"Assalammualaikum, Mama" said Ammar. She felt that Mama would be happy if she knew she would return to Jakarta for a while.

Silent. Mute. Only the wind was heard and the breath went up and down.

"May? The mama? Still mad at Adek, Mah?" he said it again in a clear tone. While forcing her heart to answer her whining.

Across there, Maura was mute with her eyes glaring sharply at the wall. As his mother's phone continued to vibrate nearby, he was inspired to lift even with the caller's name 'Jeung Dina'. He stayed at his mother and father's house for two days.

"May? Mama, just shut up, Mah? Sariawan huh, Mah?" Ammar chuckled.

Clear water swarming in Maura's eye pelupuk. He shook his head as if he did not believe. The voice of the brother he had longed for, he heard again. The younger brother who he considered to be dead in public, but still lives in the heart.

"You lied to us, Ammar!!"

DEG.

The straightforward tone he heard and he believed was not the voice of his mother. Made Ammar's breath hunt and his heart churned chronically.

"Kaaa-sister." Ammar screamed but was restrained. His hands were shaking with his phone. He was shocked half to death, why was this woman the one who lifted up. The woman he wanted to hug to shed tears, sorry and ready to be maki-maki.

"How are you, Ammar! HOW YOU!!" henk Maura in his solitude.

"Nr ...." Ammar lirih's. His sobs appeared.

"GO HOME, AMMAR! GO HOME!" Maura kept on fuming.

Here Ammar is silent. He looked down at the ground. His sobs are still there, and Maura is very memorized if her sister has cried like that her mind must be very tormented. The man was already unable to pretend to be strong if it was Maura who had already spoken. It will surely be destroyed.

Ammar was the scared little brother of his brother in childhood.

Hicks ... Hixes.

It is men who are not to cry. But at the moment, the quote is just a past wind. Ammar continued to sob, spilling the burden he had been carrying.

"You're depressed, Ammar! Come home! You where? With who? Why hide? Let's go home, Deck. Papa's sick."

DEG.

His chest is back in pain. His heart was squeezed. The man he longed for was lying there weak, and he did not know.

"Saa-sick, Brother? How's Papa doing now?" ask Ammar restlessly.

"Jawab first question Brother just now!" Maura again jerked in an emotional tone but was full of gratitude. He was not ceaselessly worshiping God, because it turned out his sister was still safe.

"Sister, please. Papa hurts what?" isak Ammar is getting heavier.

"Jawab first my question!"

Ammar took a long breath. Never mind, there is no other choice. In addition to confessing, he was caught off guard.

"I'm in Makassar, Kak. With my wife and children."

"WHAT??" Ammar moved the phone away as his sister screamed loudly.

"You remarried Ammar? Already have children? Sii-sii-who's woman? Then why leave? Why hide?"

"GANAYA, Brother." Ammar loudly confessed.

Maura's iris eyes widened again with a sharp shot. The brother-in-law who was considered dead by the extended family was still alive.

"Don't joke you, Dek! It's dead."

"I'm not kidding, brother. We're both still alive." his sobs disappeared, replaced with baritone tones from his throat. As if to explain that this guy is not playing around.

"IT'S ALSO TONIGHT!" shouted Maura.

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