I'm the Wasted One
100 Can't express feelings

Zahra squeezed her fingers now sitting on the bench in front of the room where Zahira was being examined.

Bagas stroked Zahra's shoulder as if he was saying "all will be well "

Many questions arise in Zahra's head.he still imagines the state of Zahira .

"sister"

"would we go tell Dad? "

zahra

"well, you'd better call me, 'cause she needs to know"

bagas.

Zahra took her cell phone in the bag she was holding.

he also tried to call his father.

"Dad's assalamualaikum"

"the father of Zahra is now in the city of B. and Zahra is in the hospital of the Star of Hope. "

"Zahra ain't no father, Zahra would have made it clear if dad was here.let Zahra call brother Eza to anterin dad here "

"dad dad. dad be careful "

Zahra hung up her phone.

"how? "

tanya Bagas who is now standing beside Zahra.

"Zahra try to call Eza's sister for daddy's anterin"

Zahra is still struggling with her phone.

about 20 minutes passed the doctor who handled Zahira finally came out of the room, where Zahira was treated.

Zahra moved from her seat

"how is my brother doc? "

"your brother is bleeding, his condition is still weak and the patient is unconscious"

said the beautiful doctor who handled Zahira

"may I come in the dock? "

zahra asked with a huffed expression.

"can, please "

Zahra rushed in, seeing Zahira lying down with an infusion hose adorning her hand.

his face looks pale. Zahra was constantly looking at Zahira's growing belly.

"what happened to you brother? "

zahra lirih.

Bagas only watched Zahra without saying a word.

Zahra sat beside Zahira's bed, her hand slowly stroking Zahira's hand.

there is a sense of worry, anger, sadness mixed into one in Zahra, until he does not know how to express the feelings that have been mixed.

…

The clock showed Bramantio had just returned from the office with a lethargic face.

"just got home? "

sapa Sinta's

"yes, mah"

"Zahra came here today ga mah? "

Bramantio asked curiously because Zahra's phone was hard to call even when Bramantio went to the restaurant, Zahra wasn't there.

"Zahra ain't here pah? "

"why pah? "

Sinta looked at her husband

"heard of Zahra this week, the papah to Zahra restaurant also no mah"

"yes, pah, mama also thought so"

As the two were thinking about Zahra, Bramantio's phone suddenly rang

it's on her phone screen Eza's name.

"hello Za"

"Huh in the hospital? "

"what about Adam? "

"yes, Iyah papah sama mamah will be there soon"

Sinta who heard her husband's conversation was also curious.

"what is pah? "

"Zahira entered the hospital he was bleeding. "

Bramantio

"Zahira's? "

I was amazed to hear that name

"yes Zahira, Eza says Zahra met Zahira now Zahira in hospital in town B"

bramantio

"means Zahra is in town B? "

"yeah mah, let's get ready there papah worried about Zahra"

Bramantio immediately got ready to leave while Sinta just followed him

…

"Darling, aren't you hungry?"

"you haven't had dinner yet"

bagas.

"Zahra ain't hungry, brother, "

Zahra did not look

"you have to eat, you're sick"

"Yaudah you wait here brother look for food yah"

Bagas tried to persuade Zahra but Zahra just nodded.

Bagas left Zahra in the room with Zahira.

While Zahra's mind was raging thinking about Zahira, he was still confused and worried about Zahira's state.

suddenly Zahira's index finger slowly moved.

"Mother "

he said slowly, barely even audible.

"sister"

zahra said he slowly rose from his seat when I heard Zahira's voice calling for mother.

"Zahra, where am I? "

zahira asked as she looked at Zahra with a slightly blurred vision, but she believed it was Zahra even though her vision was not clear.

Zahira again opened her eyes.

"Sister in the hospital, brother passed out"

said Zahra

"fainted? "

Zahira tried to remember the incident.

"yes, brother"

"Ra, where's mom and dad? "

at once Zahira asked both of his parents, his hand holding Zahra's hand.

there was anger in Zahra's heart when she saw Zahira asking about her mother, but she was also sad when she knew Zahira had not known that their mother was dead.

"father now lives with me brother in City A, and ib.ibu"

the words of Zahra's lips stopped he could not speak the truth.

"mom where's Ra? "

Zahira shook Zahra's hand

"mom is gone, mother has left us"

zahra said softly without looking at Zahira.

"mother is dead, Ra? "

"ga might be Ra, you're lying I'm Ra"

"serious Zahra mother where? "

Zahira could not believe what Zahra said.

"I'm not lying, I'm not probably joking about my mother dying in an accident. "

Zahra raised her tone, she was annoyed that Zahira did not believe her.

"accident? "

"ba...how can Ra? "

zahira's tears spilled upon hearing the news.

"maybe my mother died on the way to the airport.that night my mother and father chased you …"

Zahra recounted all the events of the night, her tears spilling as her mind flashed back.

Pilu, of course. Anyone will feel devastated when someone who is very valuable to us, leaves us for good.

even the most painful longing is to miss someone who has already left this world.

even Zahra did not think about Zahira's new state of consciousness he continued to tell Zahira everything.

maybe the thing that happened to his mother was fate but after all it happened because of the selfishness of Zahira.

"Ra. I killed Ra's mother"

"i made my mother die Ra"

Zahira shouted hysterically as her tears drenched her white face

"I'm not sorry about myself Ra"

"momuu"

"Zahira's sorry mom, Zahira's mean to momuu"

he screamed non-stop.

Zahra pulls Zahira into her arms .

"So much enough! "

"even brother yells until the sound of brother is gone, it can't change the situation"

Zahra calmed Zahira, and her tears were also impervious.

"Ra, I've killed the man who risked his life for me Ra"

"God won't forgive me Ra"

slowly Zahira's voice weakened, but the sound of her stuffing still sounded even more poignant.

"i'm evil Ra"

Zahira never stopped cursing herself.

While Bagas, he saw it but he chose to remain standing in the doorway.

he did not want to disturb the two brothers without realizing that his tears were dripping.

"Lantas sister will do what? "

zahra shouted as Zahira did not stop lamenting about her life.

"Sorry it won't be useful either" brother"

"I'm also angry with my brother, if it wasn't for my father I wouldn't be looking for him either"

Zahra was crying instead she didn't even know how to shed her heartache .

thankfully Zahra still had faith and remembered the father who continued to grieve even almost every night calling Zahira's name in his sleep.

zahra had to look for Zahira.

zahira's body slowly went back limp. Zahira returned unconscious in Zahra's arms.

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