I'm the Wasted One
75 honesty Rianda

Tonight Rianda looked riled up. he was confused how his fate in the future.

"do I have to be honest, but what if she keeps away from me. I love her too"

Rianda massaged her throbbing forehead thinking about that.

Rianda thought of the answer to the phrase from Eza. On the one hand Rianda has a sad past on the other hand she also loves Eza.

Rianda looked at the night sky, as soon as her mind recalled all the mass events in her life.

flashback off

At that time Rianda was 10 years old, he was the only child of a coal businessman.

both of his parents are famous but unfortunately, Rianda's father has a very cunning younger brother.

he wanted to take possession of Rianda's father's treasure. However he pretended well in front of both of Rianda's parents to cover up his rot.

until finally both of Rianda's parents were declared dead after experiencing poisoning.

according to the uncle's confession, Rianda's parents accidentally ate an expired meal which caused both of Rianda's parents to die of poisoning.

Uncle Rianda even did anything to get what he wanted. At that time the family asked to do an autopsy on the bodies of both parents Rianda.

however, it was Rianda's uncle who strongly rejected the autopsy on the grounds that he was the younger brother of Rianda's father and all had to be approved.

he also testified that both of Rianda's parents were really poisoned. Of course he was helped by a paid doctor.

though his uncle was the one who put poison in a fast food before eating his parents.

at that time Rianda saw for himself, when the uncle sowed a powder into the food.

because at that time Rianda was a child, even his testimony was not trusted by his family.

Since both of Rianda's parents died he also lived with his uncle. Of course all the treasures of his parents in bequeath to Rianda.

but because Rianda is still very small and does not understand anything, the uncle who said he would take care of and manage all the company of Rianda's father until Rianda mature.

Rianda hates her uncle so much. She knows it was her uncle who took the lives of her parents.

even during his stay with his uncle Rianda was treated harshly both with his uncle and the wife of his uncle. whereas all facilities in Rianda's name but the uncle considered all the property his.

until one day Rianda was taken to a small town that was very far away, it took hours to get to the city.

when he was in a small town, his uncle dropped him from the car and threw a Rianda backpack containing Rianda clothes.

Rianda remembers what her uncle said.

"i'm going to throw you out because you're just a parasite, I'm going to make a false report on your disappearance, so that all of your parents' possessions are absolutely mine"

rianda's uncle's words were still clearly sculpted in his mind to this day.

this makes Rianda to live on the streets not necessarily direction.

before Rianda lived in the orphanage she also experienced sad things.she became a victim of rape when she lived on the streets.

the incident made Rianda experience a deep trauma to date.

Fortunately there were still good people who helped her and took her to the orphanage, but the rape was still firmly on her mind.

it took months for Rianda to recover from her fear and of course her mental health was also compromised.

the caretaker was the one who played an important role in Rianda's recovery.

until finally Rianda can be cheerful again.

The Flasback

Rianda wiped away her tears, the incident again disturbed her feelings.

"father ever said whatever happens in this life all must be realized with honesty.I have to be honest to mas Eza"

Rianda wiped her tears and grabbed her phone and called Eza.

"hallo"

"sister Eza"

"tomorrow we meet well, just after lunch in the city park"

"okay mas, I'm waiting"

Rianda cut off her phone.

he again sighed heavily. Anyone who was in the position of Rianda will feel very bad.

Rianda decided to go inside the house because the night wind was getting cold as if piercing to the bone.

...........

his feelings are not because he is afraid if Eza hates him but he must tell the truth before it is too late.

"Rianda? "

greet Eza

made Rianda turn to the source of the voice.

"uh mas"

Rianda shifted her seat so that Eza could sit beside her.

"have you had lunch? "

eza asked, Rianda just nodded

Eza who saw Rianda's change was astonished, but he ignored his intention to ask.

"gold"

Rianda looked at Eza's bead of eyes, she should be ready to say the truth.

"yes"

Eza also looked at Rianda

"sir.I want to give you an answer "

Rianda lowered her gaze

while Eza understood the answer that Rianda meant, because Eza was waiting for it.

"sir.I can't mas"

rianda looked down, her fingers squeezing the end of her shirt.

"why? "

eza asked spontaneously as Rianda said a rejection sentence.

"i can't mas, I don't deserve the same mas"

rianda's words further confused Eza

"what do you mean Rianda? "

"you deserve me, I know you love me too"

Eza is aware of Rianda's gentle treatment to Eza, Eza including the sensitive men he can feel if Rianda also has the same feelings for him.

Rianda was just speechless she was confused as to how to explain to Eza

"do you have a lover? "

ask Eza full of questions

"no"

said Rianda

"then? "

" give me an explanation Rianda? "

Eza did not understand the reason Rianda rejected him.

"i'm not holy, I don't deserve you. I love you too but I'm self-conscious"

Rianda shed tears while Eza rounded her eyes of disbelief.

"mas even knew I was living on the streets and I was once a rape victim.that's why I never had a boyfriend . because I'm afraid I'm gonna get dumped after I know how I got along"

Rianda got up from her seat she could not continue everything.for him a piece of explanation given has made Eza understand.

let it be if that's what's gonna keep Eza away from him.

Eza was just speechless he was confused even he did not know what to do even Rianda went Eza did not call let alone prevent it.

that made Rianda even more convinced that Eza did not want to accept it.

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