I'm the Wasted One
76. Make it valuable

Rianda chose to go back to the office when her feelings were chaotic wanted it to feel like she was laying her body on a mattress and spilling her tears.

but unfortunately, his work is not finished, he must be able to work professionally.

he threw his ass in his seat.

he looked at his face on the dead monitor screen, grinning between his tears.

"Rianda.Rianda.which man will accept you. You are dirty"

speaking to himself, he immediately cupped his palms in front of his face.

his shoulders were shaking, he was crying.

"father, mother .Rianda misses "

In a moment when his heart was fragile only he himself was trying to strengthen it.

it is not easy the steep road through Rianda he must rise alone.

"I should be able to control my feelings, so as not to get this sick"

mumbled wailing.

it was not only Eza, the man who had already expressed his feelings for Rianda. Before Eza, there were already several men who approached Rianda.

but Rianda rejected it, on the grounds that she still wanted to be alone.Ria da can not say honestly about her mass in men who rejected it. Rianda only dared to be honest with Eza.

however, for some reason when rejecting Eza his heart seemed to be in the rain of pain.

maybe it was because Rianda had the same feelings for the man.

to be honest, Rianda felt comfortable when near Eza. Since Eza's presence, Rianda felt she was no longer alone.

In Rianda's eyes, Eza is a good man even loving and gentle when treating women. That's why Rianda rejected him because she thinks Eza is inappropriate if she is with women like him.

Jemari Rianda wiped away the tears on her cheeks.she let out a heavy sigh, trying to endure the pain.

he then turned on his work computer.

"time to work is not sad"

Rianda encouraged herself, and she began to do her work again.

…

While Eza now chooses to return home, he does not even return to the office.

his feelings are difficult to calm down.he does not expect what happened to Rianda.

on the one hand he was happy to know firsthand that Rianda had the same feelings as him.

on the other hand somehow her heart could not accept Rianda because of her past.

Now Eza is sitting on the porch of his house leaning his body on a long chair on the terrace of his house.

Rianda's face filled with tears when looking at him continues to overshadow Eza's mind.

Sinta who had just finished lunch saw her son who was now sitting on the terrace.

"why is he home? "

Sinta muttered while glancing at the wall clock that still showed at 1 pm.

Sinta approached her son who looked very chaotic, even the tie Eza was wearing was not necessarily direction.

"have you gone home, Za? "

ask Sinta who chose to sit next to Eza.

"eh mother.iyah ma'am, Eza let me go home early"

eza said with a lethargic expression.

"are you sick? "

Sinta pressed her palm against Eza's forehead

"ah no ma'am"

"then? "

Sinta was still staring at Eza's face

"Eza just wants a break"

Eza hesitated to tell Sinta

"what do you have a problem with? "

ask Sinta. instinct a mother can not be lied to. just by looking at the look on the face of Eza , Sinta already knows her son is having problems.

"there's no mom"

Eza tried to smile

"so now I don't want to tell my mom anymore. hmm"

Eza was silent he slightly lowered his head, he was confused where to start.

"if you don't want to tell me"

Sinta moved from her seat to go in.

"about Rianda bu"

eza's words made Sinta undo her steps and return to sit next to Eza.

Sinta knows who Rianda is because Eza always tells her about the girl

"why Rianna? "

ask Sinta

"Rianda, reject Eza"

Eza is a typical man who always confides with his mother.any problem and life plan must always be told to Sinta.

including about her expressing feelings to Rianda.

"can we? "

"does he have a lover"

ask Sinta. Eza just shook his head.

"doesn't he love you? "

Eza shook his head again.

"then why?"

Sinta continues to shower Eza with questions .

Eza took his breath

"Rianda says she doesn't deserve Eza ma'am, because Rianda…"

eza's sentence stopped, making Sinta even more curious.

"what reasons? "

Sinta scrunched her forehead

"Cause.Ri.Ri.Rianda is no longer holy ma'am, he was once a victim of rape "

Eza squeezed the end of his tie

Sinta who heard that also understood Eza's feelings.

"that's why you're sad"

Sinta asked in a relaxed tone making Eza lift her gaze.

"yes ma'am"

eza replied uninspired

"now I ask if you love her? "

ask Sinta

Eza nodded

"does Rianda have the same feelings as you? "

Sinta asked back

"Rianda said she had the same feelings as Eza, only that she said she was self-aware that she didn't deserve Eza"

sounds like Eza always sighs heavily.

"did you give an explanation to Rianda? "

Eza shook his head

"he just left after telling me that"

"you're not after him? "

Sinta kept asking Eza questions

"no ma'am"

Eza.

Sinta smiled too

"if you love her, you should be able to accept her for who she is anyway she's good at telling you honestly"

Sinta's messing with Eza's hair

"Holy woman is not measured by that Za, after all Rianda is also a victim.you let her go without preventing it, it's wrong son. it makes Rianda worse, it makes Rianda worse, he must be sure that you don't accept it. he will lose his confidence"

say Sinta

"then Eza should how mom? "

Eza looks confused

"if you really love her you should be able to accept her many times.I'm sure Rianda is a good girl, it is proven that she dared to say it honestly even directly. because he won't let you down at the end"

"Mother's advice, if you really love Rianda then accept whatever is on her including her mass. don't be a loser just because you're erasing your feelings"

Eza was silent for a moment, what the mother said was right. If she loved Rianda she did not care how much.

Rianda can honestly say that, then why can't she accept Rianda.

"mother was right. Eza should have prevented her from leaving. Rianda dared to firmly tell Eza the truth, so why did Eza not dare to accept it "

eza said uphold his sitting position.

"chase son, I'm sure Rianda's a good girl"

Sinta gave spirit to Eza.

"well mom, Eza's gonna see him tonight"

eza's face looks sumringah make Sinta a little grand.

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Quotes by Author :

A wise man is a man who can make 1 choice and accept all the consequences that come with his choice.

The spirit for today

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