I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
CHAPTRE 12
“You're fighting the same Joseph?” ask Mama.
We were in the kitchen, preparing food, I happened to have a day off, so I could use it to take a break and help Mama. Last night I hadn't told you a story, and Mama still seemed curious about my attitude toward Joseph.
“No fight, he misunderstood me, but nyebelin,” I replied.
“Nyebelin why?” ask Mama.
“Yes that *deh*, Ma, I also do not understand, it's strange that he,” I replied, actually I do not want to talk about Joseph, every remembering his words makes me not care, angry and disappointed too.
“Oh, yes already, kept you yesterday why come home so bad, son? It's past the usual hours you go home, son,” said Mama.
“I took a job, Ma,” I replied.
“Mama know, but why until the return of the malem so bad, it's so until your face shoots again, or maybe you don't miss eating, yes?” ask Mama, full of search.
“Iya, I forgot to eat, Ma, my focus is too much, because the work is really stacked,” I replied, a little laugh.
Mama was surprised, to the point of stopping her activities from peeling onions. I just laughed, like nothing happened, and I knew Mama would be upset if she knew what was going on.
“Yes, God, Son. Mama is not wrong with this ‘kan? You didn't eat?” ask Mama, worried.
I scratched my nape that wasn't itchy. “I-iya, Ma,” I replied, smiling horse.
“Nak, do you know if it's like *tuh* danger? You know, if you work until you do not want a break will not be anything, other than tired?” mama said, a little angry.
“Tau, sorry,” I replied.
“Do not apologize to Mama, apologize to yourself, apologize to your own body, realize not *sih* you are already hurting yourself? Man *tuh* there is a limit, Son, Mama seneng you can work, out of the house, but if you are afraid, Mama so nyesel already your permission to work. If you so go on, mending at home *deh*, stop working,” explained Mama.
“Ih, Mama what *sih*, Mama sorry not so much anymore, promise *deh*, this is the last one,” my whine.
“Mama, don't want you to want more work, than your own health. Denger, Mama said this, because Mama is worried, because Mama is not willing to see Mama's child suffering out there, Mama's promise, do not repeat again, understand Rinda?” resolute Mama.
“Understanding, not repeated again, promise,” I replied, lowered my head.
“Good, better yet better cepet same Joseph,” concluded Mama, making my mouth unconsciously gaping.
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The next few days, Joseph and I were still not communicating, even the last message I sent was no reply from him. I was worried about her situation, but when I recalled her attitude towards me the other day, I thought she didn't want to see me again, I was overdoing it.
Amidst the berserk rage of my mind, there was suddenly a voice of command that I could not refute. “Rinda, I need a report today, the data I sent earlier by email. Can you finish it now?” miss label's orders.
“Can, Mom,” I replied.
“Kalo already finished putting on my table, today I have to go home quickly. So you have to quickly work on it, can ‘kan?” said again.
“Can, some of my input data just complete it, later after completion I will immediately submit the results,” reply me.
“Ya already,” concluded.
Because of the impromptu orders of my superiors, finally my work plan that I had arranged from the beginning had to be willing to change it suddenly. In accordance with the advice of Dita back then, I now prefer to put urgent work first.
I began to familiarize myself with the work system that could change at any time, now I am not too worried about my own schedule. But for the problem of discipline and neatness I still hold, this cannot be lost from my ingrained habits.
“Kalo can not stand it, do not be diligent, say aja,” chirped Dara. “Ups, is not possible? You see, you pinter, it is impossible to give up so, let alone directly from the boss who told,” he continued.
He didn't raise his face when he spoke to me, he was still busy with his cell phone. I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to be disturbed when my focus is high.
“Now can't overtime, you know. Your boss needs a cepet, kasian huh? Where is young,”.
“Yes, now also in order. Before the cave lunch can already be simple data on the table top of the cave, do not need to play HP first,” my quip to him, his eyes have not even switched from mobile phones since my boss entered the room.
“Ngot surprised anyway, you keep the destroyer working hours,” reply.
“Iya dong, proud cave,” answered I'm confident.
“No need to be proud first, you just made babu with him, kasian,” chirpnya.
“Bodo very, the important useful cave is here, not like other people who can just be busy maen HP,” reply me.
I continued my work, the break was two hours away, the report requested by my superior was almost done, just checked the completeness. After completing the report back then, my superior asked me for more help when he needed an urgent report.
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Before the lunch break, I had already finished the report that Miss Labil requested, I had also finished the other report. I immediately brought the report straight to his room.
“This is Mom, I have also completed another report,” I said. I kept the stack of reports in front of her, Miss Labil was focusing on looking at the monitor screen in front of her.
“Oh, okay. Here I try to see first,” the door. I got closer to the report I had kept on his desk.
Miss Labil flipped through the pages I had been working on. “This is complete, as I want, yes already, I take this all I go home,” he said.
“Kalo so, I beg permission for lunch, Mom. Excuse me,” pamitku.
“Iya, please. I also go home now,”.
After I got my permission to leave my boss' room, and I went back to my cubicle table. Today I had my lunch break on time, the work has been done for almost half.
Usually Dita who met me first when I entered the lunch break, this time I met him early. I needed a diversion to calm my void, I decided to go to Dita's room across from mine.
I looked at my phone a few times, hoping for a notification from Joseph, I wasn't waiting for him I was just curious. Never has a Joseph allowed me to calm down a day, but this time he is completely gone.
I was in front of Dita's room, I looked into her room, there Dita was cleaning her things, seemed to be coming to see me. I went into Dita's room, approached her who was still busy with cleaning her desk.
“Udah ready?” my many.
Surprised in shock because I said suddenly without warning, he turned his body looking at me. “Ngagetin ah, jail. Tumben is wild, where are you going?” said, astonished.
“Cave work has been done, you want your nyamperin to come here, may?” my many.
“No one can forbid you, neither entitled nor cave ngelarang lu. Want to eat out or up?” ask Dita.
“Kafe aja, cave males motion far,” I replied.
“Yeu, your nursing base,” candles.
“Not, the cave just wants to save energy, there is still much to do, so let us live with consideration,” I explained.
“Saking a lot, you do not realize your heart is not lu tinmumbangin, until your heart so come close so,” he said.
“Means you?” my many.
“Lu is not as usual, the cave sure you are again chaotic, but denial mulu. Try you open equally your own heart,” he explained.
“Kok, so take heart? Why do you know, eldest brother,” my ledek.
It seems that Dita is aware of my unusual attitude. I tend to be too quiet, but I can still respond to everything cheerfully. But this time, I just smiled as I could, and was quieter than my daily life.
Since my last meeting with Joseph, my feelings have always been tight, and unpleasant, there was a sense of emptiness when I was alone. Do I miss Joseph? But impossible, all I felt when I remembered his name was a sense of annoyance and anger.
“We continue the story in the cafe, so it is more free. Cepet us upstairs now,” take him.
“After,” answered me, I was still standing by when Dita passed me.
“Come, even diem,” reprimand Dita, resuscitate me.
I followed him, and we walked side by side. “Where do you work, who find that data, already done?” ask Dita
“Udah, cave until nyari to the archive room, continue to go back and forth nanya Rangga, a huge cave effort for this company,”, I replied, enthusiastically. My interest is back again, it is indeed this kind of talk that I wish could divert me from the shadow of Joseph.
“Keren lu, so cute dong should be, why even glue gini?” ask Dita, worry.
“Because of the work that made the cave so much trouble,” lirihku.
“What's the problem?” ask again.
“Let's cave story at aja cafe. Yuk cepet ah, cave suddenly laper,” invite me.
We continued to walk to the cafe on the top floor, I had resolved to tell my problem and Joseph to Dita, I had lost the idea of responding to Joseph's attitude.
We were already at the cafe, looking around it was not so crowded, it seemed like they preferred to eat out of the office. Those who are bored with the menu provided by the company cafe usually choose to eat out, all while washing your eyes. I from my first time working at the company, never once had a lunch break outside, it was too waste of time.
In the distance there was a man waving his hand at us, the man smiled, I looked at him from top to bottom, in disbelief.