I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
CHAPTRE 16
“*Rin, you tomorrow join the cave*,” said Rangga on the other end of the phone.
There was no wind, no rain, suddenly Rangga took me away with him, making me suddenly stop typing. Know roundly, losing his impromptu compared to Rangga's invitation.
“Hah? To where? Want Why?” I was amazed and surprised too.
“*Tomorrow must check the material, same signature of the same new contract company in Surabaya, so the cave needs you to clarify all the procedures, the company representatives are fussy, so the cave needs you to make clear all the procedures, if same you ‘kan tasty cave appeal price*,” he explained.
“Surabaya? So, you just told me today? What crazy are you? The cave has not prepared anything, continue the work of the cave here how, Rangga?!” my protest, a little scream, thankfully in my quiet room.
Rangga laughed at my protest cry.“*Easy, delay your work first, this is more urgent, all accommodations have been arranged, tickets, hotels, and your needs have been sorted out, you stay bring yourself, documents, and, same personal stuff you doang, okay? Cave pick you up tomorrow at 10 in the office*,” he said, relax once.
“Gosh, you ready everything without cave approval? And this cave sure, you do not want cave nolak, ‘kan? Emang lu crazy, do not understand the cave, ah bodo lah, later discuss again, the cave would like to digerjain first cave work,” concluded me.
“*OK, tomorrow must be ready everything, and yes, the cave does not accept rejection, the cave needs really, anyway you have to come, do not want to know gua*,” he said.
“Terdenah,” I replied, turning off phone calls unilaterally.
After ending the call with Rangga, I did not continue my work, I pondered. This will be my first trip without anyone else (read: Joseph) and be the farthest first trip I've ever had in my life without anyone else.
I kept thinking about what was going to happen, nothing, I knew my condition, I was afraid of being a burden to others. I stared at the monitor screen with a page display of data that was like shouting to be done immediately, but please understand, I am not focused right now.
I lowered my head, closed my eyes for a while, and slowly adjusted my breathing, I must not be weak, I must fight this agonizing feeling. “Caves certainly can, take a breath Rinda, you can, do not worry, inget many people who want to work your kayak, this is a good opportunity for you, Rin .. you can,” my mummy, he said, trying to motivate yourself.
After my breathing calmed down again, I opened my eyes slowly, and refocused my eyes on the monitor screen in front of me again. “Okay, work first, just think tomorrow,” I said, holding *mouse*, and start continuing my pending activities earlier.
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“Lu ready everything? Was safe? Or is there still a need for a buyin cave?” ask Joseph.
Today, I left for Surabaya for the first time, Joseph as usual drove me to the company. Yesterday after returning home from work, I immediately told Joseph about my work trip to Surabaya. I don't want Joseph to misunderstand me anymore, even though I really shouldn't be like this, but I don't know, I have to be like this, for my convenience.
Joseph and I were still waiting for Rangga in the lobby waiting room. Rangga asked me not to go up first, because the company and our boss already knew too, so this is where I waited for Rangga to pick up.
“Udah all, the cave has entered everything, not too long anyway, Rangga said just two days, so it does not need much,” I replied.
“Documents are ready? Presentation material, already exist, ‘kan?” ask Joseph.
“Udah elah, why so you are the bring-up, anyway?” my protest.
“This is because of you too, who whines all the friends? Where can the cave not bawelin lu, let alone this cave far from you, just can go through HP doang, where can the cave calm down,” reply. “What's the cave come to, Rin?” he offered himself.
“Gua ‘kan surprised, already, you don't have to be that way, the cave can be, semalem cave want to say aja, the cave is afraid you misunderstand again, ntar crab again, like that time, like that time,” answered me, insinuating Joseph for the incident the other day. “And, you do not need to come this time, the cave can be alone, believe the same cave,” added me, reassuring.
I said confidently, unconsciously shaking my hand, Joseph realized that, suddenly he brought my hand to grasp. “Ya is good,” he said. “Kalo already bye, you guys cave, people house, do not forget to eat, the cave will check you once every two hours, anyway,” he added, stroking my hand with his thumb.
“Guava—“
“Rin, are you ready?” shouted someone outside the lobby, cutting off our chatter.
“Tuh has come, the cave is leaving now,” I said to Joseph, smiling widely.
“Ya be careful,” said.
Before taking off my hand, Joseph tightened his grip, channeled energy to me, this is Joseph, he does not need to be asked, he will act immediately, he understands very well my situation. After that, Joseph rubbed my head, put on prayers like, I don't know, but he rubbed the top of my head for a long time.
I felt everything was ready, I went out with Joseph, and approached the car Rangga was riding in.
“Bring you just that?” rangga asked, looking at my backpack.
“Yes, quiet documents are in the cave laptop bag,” I replied, while patting the laptop bag in my hand.
“Away, login,” said.
I didn't say much anymore, I just went in, I said goodbye to Joseph. I had to save my energy, let alone this air travel that took me about two hours.
“Rin, the cave tell you from now on, after we land, the cave directly to the project site, you get ready first at the hotel, the client asks to see you at five in the afternoon. Abis met the client, there are no other activities, you are free to go anywhere, as long as tomorrow is already in the hotel. Then, early in the morning, you are ready to continue to sign a new contract, already from there we continue to go home, the cave can not be long, here a lot of work is also waiting,” he explained, in a moving car.
“Buset, Bang, our marathon race, rapet very schedule,” said.
Rangga laughing. “Sorry, yes, you must be surprised by how the cave works, the cave can not be set detailed from far away, because if in the field everything can change, you make the schedule even free, because, but as an illustration, it will be the same cave lakain in Surabaya, just relax, will not be stiff also meeting, this is just a formality,” he replied.
“Yes already, how else, the cave has agreed too,” I said. “Eh, but, our hotel room is different, ‘kan?” my question, make sure.
Rangga suddenly turned his head, staring at me in wonder. “Lu sure it's ginian? It's crazy, why? You can't ask for payment, ‘kan? Sorry, Rin, if it's a nolak cave, a cave afraid of release, we have to have different rooms, Rin,” he replied, excited.
“Who asked to be cemented?” myrag. “Gua just aja, good if it is different room,” added me.
Rangga laughed again, I just threw my face away, embarrassed to ask such a ridiculous question.
“Udah, you are calm, be ready just everyone, the rest you are free,” he concluded.
Car drove across the city road to the airport, Rangga deliberately took a day flight. I regained my composure, controlled my heart and mind, it was like war preparation for me, and it was like that. I was as strong as I could, having to fight my fear, so as not to burden many parties.
The direction of my gaze did go out the window, but my heart and mind were either bouncing to where, I was afraid? Evidently. I keep worrying about what will happen in Surabaya, what I will face there, to how I should meet new people.
Have I been overreacting? Is it natural to be afraid like this? I don't know, I can't control those bad thoughts either, but hopefully things go well while I'm there.