I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
CHAPTRE 23
This is my second day of vacation at the beach with Joseph, my smile is painted seeing a sand castle lying on a stretch of beach, with the sound of swinging calm waves in the ocean. I looked around, completely deserted, perfect for relaxing and replenishing my energy after struggling with the rigors of life in the office.
“Rin, here eat first, you are not bosen-bosen from earlier mainin sand mulu what?” reproof Joseph.
Joseph was busy preparing food for our meal. Joseph didn't give me permission to cook, because I didn't have the necessary skills to carry out such troublesome activities.
“In the meantime, the cave is still not satisfied to eat *inner* *child* cave,” I replied without turning to Joseph, I still want to satisfy myself.
“There is aja, indeed fit still small you never play sand what?” abugn.
“Not ever play sand, the cave does not like the childhood of the cave, which is afraid of all the macems, which consequently the cave can not freely play on the beach because of fear of humans, though they also have their own business, will not disturb the cave,” explained me.
“Ah, why should you discuss this again, *sih*? Cave ‘kan so sad, but fortunately yes cave bring you to the beach, so you can freely play until you are satisfied, while rolling if you want,” said Joseph.
“No need *lebay*, the cave also can not accept the wrong cave childhood, like life was reluctant to die did not want. Uh, you're always complaining about the cave's past, um*inner**you're okay?” my many.
“Lu think straight cave life, so?” the answer.
“Ya, what? Story dong, cave also want to know,” my door.
Joseph caught a glimpse of me, then he resumed his activities, he was now assembling a table that he purposely bought specially for today. I was curious about the story of Joseph immediately got up and approached him, without saying much more I sat on one of the folding chairs that Joseph brought.
“*Inner* *child* cave want to be considered ordinary people,” he said.
“You mean, all this time someone thought you were Spiderman, so?” I said, a little kidding.
“Not that, it means that the cave does not like to be considered superior, the cave just want, people see the cave like children in general, normal humans, without the frills of rich children. Caves do not like them to treat caves like kings, too confusing caves. The cave does not mean for kufur delights, no, the cave just want them to be ordinary just the cave, understand?” obviously Joseph.
“Good cave, but yes, how can people take you ordinary people, when you come to school wearing a Rolex watch. Where can people think you're a commoner, Joseph,” I said.
“Elah, it does not have a cave, and again the cave can not escape the clock, it feels strange if there is nothing in the hands of the cave,” he replied.
“Ah, you how *sih*, you use the item *branded* to the school that most children there are not all your kayak, surely you are an easy target for upperclassmen, the cave will not be surprised again, everything you use and bring, *can’t relative* the same temen-men you,” I said.
“Yes! You're from the diamond house, Rin, but they're not like you, how to go to different caves?” reply Joseph.
“They are not as diverse as you, so surely you get different treatment, but yes already, now ‘kan already like that again,” I replied.
“Yes yes, already ah, hurry wash hands, eat first,” command.
I who was sitting was running to Joseph who was carrying water to wash his hands. After my hands were clean, I sat down again, this time in front of a table that had arranged food. Joseph prepared grilled meat, pre-brewed instant noodles, and ready-to-eat salads.
We ate fighting each other, sometimes Joseph who possessed me by finishing the cooked roast, until I had to wait with a pouting face. I also do not want to lose, I deliberately spilled instant noodles into his expensive shoes, but not exciting, Joseph just laughed with my behavior.
Did not feel the sun was at the end of the ocean, ready to say goodbye to us who were enjoying its beauty. We moved forward, looking more clearly at the beauty of the color, so beautiful and warm.
Joseph began strumming his guitar, chanting melodies to drive the Surya back to his birthday. I am satisfied today, my eyes are presented with an unbroken view of nature, good food that managed to make my spirit rise again, and lastly a guitar quote from Joseph's fingers that made me seem to float, and touch the sky.
The orange glow that slowly faded with us that was silent a thousand languages, I swallowed all the memories of my past that could not enjoy the time of my growth. It turned out that regret today began to feel, but then I slowly began to realize, maybe all this time that's what my parents thought. It was heavy and sad to see his son could only hide behind their bodies.
“Tonight we sleep in the car again?” my question, break the silence.
“Jeez, it's been said from yesterday, yesterday, yesterday again, it's called a caravan, not a car! Udah cool-cool cave make *tuh* caravan to make people envious, you always say it's a car, cave sprains ah!” snarl.
“Beda! Ah, hand over, let's sneak back to the car!” Joseph pressed the word car at the end of his sentence. “Bikin campfire, keep sleeping,” he continued.
It was night time, we went back to the caravan, I was not used to calling the caravan, throughout this holiday, I kept calling it a car. Joseph made a bonfire, which he put away from the caravan, and we sat in between. Joseph faced me, singing Ed Sheeran's *Thinking Out Loud* with his guitar, I smiled.
“Ye ... ye .. ye ... la ... la ..., cool, applause for Joseph Sheeran,” cried, when Joseph finished the song.
“Joseph Sheeran really, Rin?” candelessly.
“O yes clear,” I replied, laughing.
I enthusiastically praised him, but suddenly he fell silent and just looked at me, I was confused, even I had a chance to turn my face in the other direction.
“Rin?” call him.
“Hhm ..” I looked at him again.
“Rin, your heart is not ready yet, Rin?” tanyakanya.
“Why is this again?” my many.
“Because the cave is too sure if you end of the cave waiting so far,” he replied.
I stared hard at him. “Reason?” my question, studying his sincerity.
“There is no reason. No need for excuses, right? Cave ‘kan have said dear, sincere cave,” he replied.
“Jo, whose name is the relationship of two people, can not be sure just because you have saved the taste, you also have to start looking for reasons. Lu can not accept the cave as it is, because the cave also does not accept itself as the cave is,” I explained.
“But ‘kan it reality, Rin,” buy it.
“Cua girls, Jo, the cave not only needs certainty, not only love speech, the cave also needs validation, it takes your time. With the cave frankly like gini, are you willing to participate all want the cave? Are you willing, your time will be completely owned by the cave, because at the time of your status turned into a boyfriend or husband of people, it's a different story, Jo,” beberku.
“Kalo for example cave can menuhin all you want, how?” tanyanya, hold my hand.
“It also can not be arbitrary, there is an end that we have to travel, whether it ends in a better direction, or ends in the middle of the road. And the cave does not want to pursue a relationship without a clear purpose, so please once again, wait for the cave to be ready, wait for the cave to accept yourself first,” I replied. “Lu can ‘kan nwait cave?” tanyaku later.
“Rin, all this time the cave has been waiting for you, the cave period is bright just because you clearlyin all your points of view. The cave is ready Rin, if you ask for a reason, the cave will answer honestly, the cave is ready to be your time, the cave is ready to be your busyness, you know, the cave is ready so samsak your life pas lu again need an impingement. Monotonous cave life, can be a lot of color variations kayak gini also because you get into cave life, Rin,” he said, my heart warms and melts to hear his confession.
“Kalo gitu evidainin, cave struggle once again,” I said.
Joseph drew his face closer to me, looked me in the eye, stroking my face with his hands full of tenderness. “Gua has fallen just as you, the cave is willing to do anything, hold the promise of the cave,” he said with his low voice that shook my heart.
A gust of wind accompanied our body's reaction to the meeting of two lips that were racing with Joseph's sincerity. I'm not flinching, I'm selfish, I can't accept his feelings, but I'm enjoying the paradise of the world that Joseph gave me.
These two days, incredibly intoxicating for me, Joseph's gentle and manly treatment managed to make my energy recover. This holiday is the most impressive holiday of my life. I didn't stop yelling in my heart, saying a lot of gratitude to Joseph.
“*I am happy*,” my word is weak.
“Sleep!”