I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
CHAPTRE 25

Mr. Chandra looked at me, looking like he was considering something, he was also playing his drinking glass. Suddenly, Mr. Chandra straightened his sitting position, making my voice growl. “Hm ... I was right ‘kan, you have long worked here?” tanyakanya.

Honestly, my mind is very messed up, I stammered hearing Mr. Chandra's question, what exactly does Mr. Chandra want from me? The chair I was sitting in, it was getting uncomfortable, and it felt so hot. “Be-yet, Sir. I have only seven months of work here,” I replied.

Mr. Chandra smiled, but I saw him a little scared, I thought too much about bad things, so that his smile could intimidate me. “You don't have to be afraid of me, just relax,” he said, his eyes dropped, looking at my hands that started squeezing the bottom of the shirt I was wearing.

“I-iya, sir, sorry,” I said, still excited.

How can I be calm, if not done everything, for others it may be easy everything is taken casually, but for me, it is impossible. The only thing I want now is to hear everything Mr. Chandra wants to say and get out of this room which is starting to suffocate me.

“I think you've been working here too long,” he said, leaving me stunned. “It's time to stop being a special staff,” he continued, relax.

I was shocked, panicked, and tried to dig up everything I had done in this company, afraid to ever make a fatal mistake. But, in his sense, I have never done anything wrong, and my work has been done as it should, so what is the point of all this?

“Eh, m-meaning how, sir?” my many.

“You don't have to pretend you don't know,” he replied, further confusing me.

“S-I don't understand ..” lirihku.

“I have seen how you work, you are also diligent, and there have never been any complaints from *client* about how you work, even meeting in Surabaya, you managed to convince *client* the famous fussy,” clear. “So, I've considered, I have to appoint you as a manager in my company, you can't possibly mind about this, right?” continued.

I was pensive, honestly there was not a single word that I managed to digest from Mr. Chandra's explanation. I was too shocked by the opening line, so I didn't really hear the sentence after.

“How, Rinda, want?” ask again.

After a little awakening, I then thought, how could I be a manager, how would other employees respond, not to mention that I still counted new employees. “What's not wrong, you asked me to be a manager, I'm still new, sir,” I said. I do not refuse, who does not want to rise, only I am confused and afraid.

“No, no, it's my decision, I don't choose either, I like the way you work, I know how you've been disciplined all along, so what's wrong with you being the manager,” details.

I'm not relieved at all to hear Mr. Chandra's reason, because I think about a lot of things. “My current job how, Sir?” I ask, I do not want any regrets later, I also do not want to leave the burden of such work.

“Let's relax, there will be someone to replace you, you don't have to worry, I have planned this carefully. You can also still help them, before the person who replaces you can do a good job. So you can complete your tasks first, after that I will call back, do not be a burden, Rinda, you are safe working in my company,” he explained.

Mr. Chandra gave me the best solution, and assured me, although I'm sure Mr. Chandra won't care about people's response to me later. Those thoughts still remain, should I agree to Mr. Chandra's request, but what about the others? They will definitely not accept it. “Alright, Sir, I agree,” I said. Stupid with people thinking, this is my story, so it all depends on me.

Mr. Chandra smiled broadly, heard my approval, and clapped, puzzling me for a moment, whether Mr. Chandra was indeed happy with my decision, or was there some other reason, I don't know. “Good, I like your decision, don't brood much, because from now on, all the decisions about this company, are in your hands. Thank you for accepting my offer, I am very happy, sometime go with me, I am interested in you, Rinda,” he said, enthusiastically.

“No, I have to thank you, thank you for giving me such incredible confidence in my performance. I will try to do my best for your company, once again thank you very much, Sir,” I said, bowing respectfully.

“That should be, it is also a gift from your hard work, do not hesitate,” he said.

“One more time, thank you, Sir,” I said.

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This afternoon is darker than usual, black clouds cover the orange sky which usually looks beautiful in the hours of work. A cold wind pierced my body, it just so happened that my clothes were thin today, the weather like this always made me anxious, I don't know why. This day, after coming out of Mr. Chandra's room, my thoughts remained uncertain.

I stepped out, Joseph was already outside, waiting for me to come home. As soon as I walked out of the company building, Joseph smiled, his face bright, inversely proportional to me.

“Lu hurts?” tanyanya, gently.

“Hah? No, really, why?” I asked back.

“Why not that spirit, not as usual?” joseph came up to me, took off the jacket he was wearing, and put it on me. “What was the meeting, smoothly?” ask again, while helping me raise the jacket zipper, and wipe my hand channeling a warm feeling in my body.

“Currently,” I replied, still in the same tone.

“Why?” ask Joseph. “Lu enter the car first *deh*, this is very cold, soon also testing, the story is in aja, the cave has already bought food as well, make an oddball,” he said, opening the car door for me.

Without answering his words, I obeyed him, and got into the car, with Joseph's hand blocking the roof with his hand, making sure I didn't get hit. She glanced at me, and held my face, puffed my cheeks together, and made my lips shape funny. “Ih, what's *sih*!” my protest.

“Gemes,” answers, chuckles.

Joseph looked at me in front of his wheel, Joseph cupped my cheeks with both hands, and positioned my face to face him. “You want a story?” he asked, sounding soft and soothing.

“By while walking, no?” my door.

“Boleh, what did not make you,” he said, took his hand off my face, then turned on the car and rushed away. “Gua closed the window, huh? The wind was tight, it was cold,” he said, I did not answer, but after all the car windows he tightened.

Inside the oncoming car, my mind raged, like the wind this afternoon, flying whatever it was through. Joseph did not ask any more, he was driving quietly with one hand, while the other he used to hold my hand.

“After there is a burger, take it, fill your stomach first,” he said.

“No want, no laper either,” I replied.

“What's up?” tanyakanya.

“Caves, cave requested create ...” I hung up my answer, it suddenly felt tight, talking about this. “Gua ... Mr. Chandra, ask the cave to be a manager,” I said, in the end.

Joseph turned to me, stopped his car suddenly, making me flinch. “Lu what *sih*, why stop in the middle of the road?” scold me, frowning.

“Lu what? Mr Chandra said what?” yells.

“Street!” my snapping.

Joseph came to his senses, and then drove back to his car, I was silent again, my heart was in turmoil and also upset. Joseph seemed to rush to drive his car, like a man being chased by criminals, I was astonished and ended up looking at him with a dislike gaze.

Joseph suddenly turned a corner, entering the city park that was being closed because of repairs. “Ngapain get here? Jeez, we can be caught, it's still closed, you don't mind *deh*, come out!” I cried, but Joseph kept driving his car. “Stop, or cave down here,” threatened me.

“Tanggung bertakar again, just calm, no one will know, the cave knows the manager,” he replied, ignoring my warning.

Upon entering the garden, I fell silent, angry at Joseph, I folded my arms. Joseph finally stopped his car, right in front of a quiet and quiet lake.

Joseph took my hand again. “Rin, why?” tanyakanya.

“Diem ah!” I shook off his hand, I was not in the mood to cause any trouble, and now I am in a state that will definitely cause trouble, if my words come out.

“Rin, gua tau you again not good, same story cave, Mr Chandra said what was it? Rin, *please*, justin gua tau,” his whine.

I exhaled a rough breath. “Fearful Cave .. Mr. Chandra lifts the cave as manager,” I said, in the end.

“Heh, nice dong!” suddenly, he poked his head out the window. “Rinda cave so manager!” his yell. “Denger aren't you on?! Rinda cave so manager, Rinda cave great!” shouted again.

Jesus, I'm ashamed, what Joseph is doing, what's wrong with him, I'm pulling his body, forcing him to re-enter. “What *sih*? Shame, don't scream!” my nag. “Pick in again,” my door, begging.

Without answering my nagging, Joseph turned his back and hugged me tightly, to the point of making me claustrophobic. “Cua seneng, Rinda cave is great, you are cool, you are beautiful, you are sweet, you are funny, you are manager,” he said, while kissing my whole face brutally.

“Lu *lebay*, *deh*, cave release!” I patted his back. “Seek Joseph!” myrag.

After I pushed his body, he finally broke away from me as well. Joseph looked me in the eye, his gaze warm, successful in making me melt. Joseph brought his face closer to me, gently he kissed my lips, sweeping his lips with my silenced ranum. “Lu is great,” he said in a row.

“Fearful cave ...,” says I, shrivelled.

Joseph played both of my cheeks. “No need to fear, *backingan* lu Mr. Chandra, you've been trusted with him, don't think of others, you just work as usual. Proven as they are, you can carry the trust of your superiors, no need to be afraid, okay?” said.

“OK,” my answer is short.

“Good, beautiful cave great, here hug first,” he said, pulling my hand, hugged my body tightly, he rubbed also my hair, clutched full of attention.

I'm happy, he didn't ask me much after I told him, he always understood what I was worried about without having to bother me to explain. This story will be longer, I'm sure, it is not yet official, but I am sure, after this my journey will be more complicated.

I was afraid of the name of life, but if Joseph was there, I wouldn't mind, even though the road to what I wanted had to go through many obstacles, because I believe there must be happiness ahead of there.