I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
CHAPTRE 14

The melodious voice of world star Chen EXO with the title track Your Moonlight accompanied me in the afternoon, I hummed word for word following her beautiful voice that came out of the audio of the phone.

The chant swept me away, from such a desolate state, I was at the end of the afternoon on Saturday, I was alone, I was lonely. The song continues according to the playlist I have arranged, all day I have no activities, I just lay myself in bed in my room.

My phone never escaped the eye, as much as I could always check the incoming notifications, occasionally I entered the chat room owned by Joseph. Until the end of this week Joseph still has no news, I have also typed a message several times in the chat room, but I never sent the messages.

Today my parents are at my brother's house, my sister is away for swimming practice from school until this afternoon she has not come home, maybe continued playing like it. Be me alone at home, from the morning my activities just silent, when it began to ache I finally went for a walk in the family room and watched television.

Suddenly the song played on the phone stopped, changing with the typical sound of incoming phone calls. I took the phone that I had thrown in lethargy, how surprised to see the name display of the person who called me.

The name that I've been waiting for is reportedly, the name that has been mysteriously lost, the name that is usually always there for me. Even though I didn't think he had any news, I still received the phone call.

“Kok, long lifted?” the question is at the end of there, but I feel something is stuck. “Hey, how come you don't have the sound?” the question came back after I didn't answer it.

I was actually excited to see the name of this caller, but when I heard his voice, there was a sense of annoyance that immediately burst into my chest, there was anger when I heard this clear voice. I felt no need to answer her words, for some reason I regretted taking her phone call.

“Lu angry?” again, I heard a breath on the other end. “Lu out, deh,” the door, I don't understand. “Lu is at home, ‘kan? come out try. The cave is in front of your house, the cave is waiting from earlier, but your house is like an empty house, want to go in fear of no one,” he explained.

I still don't flinch but faithfully listening to his voice, he's in front of the house, I can't possibly mishear, can I? I got up from my bed, stayed silent for a while to convince myself, and prepared to meet him again.

“Gua here, get out first, please. If you're at home get out first, just a minute. Lu did not miss the same cave, uh not the cave that misses you, so go out first huh. If you don't want to, open the window so that the cave can see, a very kangen cave,” the door again, sounding desperate.

I decided to get out of the room, see him, anyway I haven't seen him in a long time. I didn't miss it, just wondered what he was going to do after seeing me.

I was now standing on the porch, she smiled with a sigh looking at me, but at once her sweet smile bent again, perhaps because of seeing me who was pouting and silent a thousand languages.

“Kok pouted, anyway?” tanyakanya. “Lu still angry same cave?” ask him again, sounding whining. “Why not talk?” again questions were asked of him.

“Yes you think, Joseph Salim!” my screams.

“Wih, call him full name, this is not angry anymore, already angry big. You are beautiful when you are angry,” he said.

He smiled again, he also still had time to tease me, even though I had put on a look that was very angry with him. He looked at his phone at a glance, disconnected his phone call with me, then he put his phone in the back pocket of his pants.

“Ikut cave,” take him.

“Where?” my many.

“Just come along, cepet lock the door, no one ‘kan at home?” said.

“Cua change first,” I said.

“No need, use it, you are already beautiful,” god.

“Cua take the jacket first,” I concluded.

I went back inside, I picked up my usual jacket and sandals, I went back to face Joseph. Locking the door from the outside, and carrying the key with me, I also sent a message to my parents that I was going with Joseph.

“Udah ready?” joseph asked, I just nodded my head without replying. “Ya, come on,” take her again.

Joseph suddenly clasped my hand tightly. “Ngapain handrails anyway?” my protest.

“Fear,” said.

“Gua never says, instead of you suddenly no news,” my snatch. “Lu want to take the cave where the hell?” my question, annoyance.

“Ntar also you know,” answers.

Joseph pulled my hand, to get close to him, he led me to ride this big bike. With a man he helped me, his hand held my hand, making sure I landed on the motorcycle seat safely and comfortably.

“Udah ready? Safe no?” ask Joseph. I didn't answer him, I chose to pat him on the shoulder, telling him I was ready.

“The real handle,” the command. I'm holding her shirt, I'm still pissed.

“Kok is holding it, here is his hand,” his door.

“Nyebelin, gini already, diem lu!” my ketus.

“Sini!” His hand pulled my hand in front of his body, so that my hand was coiled around his body, I followed it with resignation.

The big motorbike also drove gallantly in the middle of the streets of this crowded city, in the afternoon the streets were indeed crowded, understand this Saturday, many young people who came out of the house.

But, I who was sitting in the back bollard sighed in anger, in the midst of the crowd I always felt afraid, I always felt that my soul would leave when the crowd came to me.

Joseph knew about my condition, he chose to drive the bike faster but not faster, he knew I would not be comfortable. My heart was pounding not because Joseph's motorbike was speeding faster, but because the atmosphere of the road that did not make me peaceful.

We got there, Joseph pulled the bike over, he turned off the engine and turned around to look at me, making sure I was okay. He took off his helmet, I was still watching him, he put his helmet in the rearview mirror, then Joseph put his hand on the helmet I was wearing, he took it off carefully, the situation was really awkward, we haven't seen each other in a long time.

“Why bring the cave here?” I asked, unable to bear the curiosity.

“Follow first, let's go down,” take her, we hold each other's hands again.

I followed him from behind with our hands clutched together, we walked on the edge. We stopped at the edge of the park, from here anyone could clearly see the view of the sky from below. I decided to stand by her side after we stopped walking, she kept holding my hand tightly.

“Mafin cave,” shriveled, suddenly. “Sorry, the cave has been too interfered,” he said.

He looked at me, bringing our eyes together looking for answers for each other. “Caves don't want you suddenly far from the view of the cave. Gua understands you work and will definitely meet many people, including meeting other men besides the cave,” he said.

Joseph pressed his hand back on my hand, his thumb gently stroking my palm. “Gua is not ready to see you with the other, so the time you get out of the building with others, the cave is careless itself, the cave even until you forget your tired taste. Sorry, but for now the cave please join the cave first, do not deket each other, please,” he admitted.

I still looked at him, right into Joseph's eyes, I saw a sincere tinge there. I was not concerned with his possessive attitude, far from feeling that I was comfortable being cared for like this. At that time my condition was unstable, that's why I couldn't properly digest the sentence, after Joseph explained the point, I was relieved.

“Still,” my word, slow down. I was at a loss for what else to say, just the words I was able to say from the series of words I wanted to express to her.

“Do not stay in the cave,” he said, he hugged me tightly as if I could fly if left alone.

“No intention ninggalin lu cave, no need lebay deh,” godaku. I returned his embrace, I felt his hand gently stroke my back.

She let go of her embrace to me, unexpectedly she also took off the jacket she was wearing. He rolled his jacket over the green grass right beside us, I was confused but not worried.

“You why?” many wonder.

“Sini, sitting next to the cave,” the door.

He had already sat down first with his jacket on, there was a little space left devoted to me sitting next to him. I followed his request, and I sat down next to Joseph.

“Sini nyender same cave,” he said, patting his shoulder.

“Modus lu mah,”

“Rin ...,” said Joseph hung up, but somehow made me flutter.

What's he gonna talk about? Why is my heart not broken? Is it what I expected? Or is something else going to hurt me more?