I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS
THE CHAPTER 19
From above the cloud-covered air, I looked down, today Surabaya has been left, without traveling around the city, without enjoying the food, without good memories. Though only one day was there, but my heart was not accepted when the name of the city was mentioned.
Regarding trauma, I am notoriously unable to easily give up every bad memory, as well as these two days. Please understand, my control is not that strong to withstand every trigger from my own fear attack.
From every air travel, surely many people can never resist the fear of the shock of every turbulence. But for me, it was his calmness that had always been the most terrifying thing.
For everything that has ever happened in my life, turbulence is the only thing that makes me comfortable, at least, I still have the thought to survive. In the most bellowing circumstances, it is menacing circumstances that make me remember life the most.
“Rinda, the cave goes straight home, you also do not need to go to the office again, tomorrow aja,” whispered loudly Rangga from the back seat.
“Cua can't take a break?” my question, expectantly.
“Unfortunately cannot, Rin, you still have to enter tomorrow, you don't know just how the company is,” replied Rangga.
“Yeah, whereas the cave wants a break, cape cave,” I said.
“Sabar, be patient, Rin,”.
“Lu is okay?” tanyanya, it seems like Rangga still feels guilty about the incident there.
“Still not yet, but the cave can still hold, so no problem,” I replied, a faint smile that would not be seen by Rangga.
At Rangga's question, I recalled last night's incident, where Joseph actually kept his promise to continue with me, and kept me company even though I didn't talk much.
Joseph even played a melody and it helped me to calm down. I never thought his presence would be so precious, a day without him, making me worse off than usual.
The announcement from inside the plane broke my daydream, the plane was ready to land, I re-groomed the handle. Not waiting long, the plane landed beautifully, without a lack of anything, heard a thank you from the passengers.
I was finally able to open my eyes, and breathe calmly again. I prepared to get off, not forgetting my backpack, then followed the other passengers.
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“Rin, thank you, have the help of the cave, do not call the cave to take another ride,” said Rangga as soon as we arrived outside the airport.
“Not a problem, but the cave can ask for no conditions, make it later?” my reply.
“What conditions, already want to apply for work aja cave, must menuhin terms,” he replied.
“Mild, the terms of the cave do not like the details of the HRD criteria that are again looking for new employees, kok,” I said.
“Good, can be crazy cave if you see the criteria for the job vacancy, already paycheck, ask for employees who are multi-talented, crazy times the company like that,” nagelnya.
“That's great, but you realize no, we're working in a kayak company,” I said.
“Yes too,” he replied, a little thought. “Alah, even everywhere, what's the condition?” tanyakanya.
“Gua does not want to meet alone if the client is a guy,” I said.
“That's mah gampil, promise cave, which yesterday was last,” he said.
“Ya already so, cave hold your promise,” answered me.
“Your company is also it,” as I plead. “Ya already gih, long time ago your company was not stroked,” added me.
“OK deh, be careful, Rin,” part.
Rangga got into the car and left me in front of the airport alone. Even though I smiled, my heart was still worried, I don't know what would happen to me. It's sunny today, but it's what makes me suspicious, not ungrateful, but I don't know, my heart always feels that way.
I started walking, I had to go home, there was at least fifteen hours for me to rest, before continuing tomorrow's activities. Among the passengers who got off earlier, I was the only one who breezed freely without pushing the luggage. Again, in the midst of this crowd, again I felt lonely, it felt like my heart was empty.
“Rinda!” scream someone.
I immediately looked for the source of the scream, turned to the left and right sides, but I saw no one I knew. Did I hear wrong? Or maybe there's another Rinda in front of this airport?
I was curious, I glanced all over, there was still nothing I knew there, until I heard a quick step from behind. “Rin ...,” he said beside my ear and suddenly he grabbed me so quickly.
“Lu dateng from where?” many weak.
“Gua wait for you from earlier, but you turned out from the other door, sorry cave late,” he replied, he confronted my body with it. “Lu no papa?” tanyanya, holding my shoulder.
I shook my head, didn't know what to answer, I wasn't okay, I should have answered. But if so, right now I will cry in front of him, I don't want to.
“No important papa you are here, it is safe, the cave is calm,” he said.
He then looked at me, stroked my face, then pulled my body closer to him and he immediately embraced this weak body. “Joseph?” call me.
“Hhm ... why?” she asked, rubbing my hair gently.
“Cua wants to go home,” answered me in his arms.
Joseph rubbed my back, hugging it even tighter. “Lu's gone home, it's okay, you're safe, there's a cave here, don't worry, the cave won't go anywhere,” he replied, always giving me peace.
In front of the busiest airport in my city, I hugged warmly, ignoring the thousands of pairs of eyes that looked at us full of question marks, already like a long-divided couple. The loneliness that had greeted me did not know myself, finally slowly began to disappear because of the warm embrace given by Joseph. I'm starting to re-feel the atmosphere of this city and hopefully soon forget the bad memories of that city.
None of us started a conversation, I didn't want to spoil the atmosphere. I just wanted my comfort back, and with Joseph around me, I finally got it back. Along with this thought, not only was I comfortable, I also felt safe around him.
In the midst of this shahdu atmosphere, suddenly my stomach rang, interrupted, to invite Joseph to laugh, and made my cheeks warm up to hold in shame. “Lu haven't eaten?” tanyakanya.
“Not yet,” my great-grandson, looking down not daring to look into his eyes.
Joseph laughed again. “Let's eat first,” take him. “Funny the hell you are,” said Joseph, looking at my nose. “Emang on the plane not fed?” ask again.
“No lust cave,” I replied timidly, while playing my fingers.
“Yes already, there is a restaurant in front, eat there, come on,” take him.
I ventured into her eyes, and slowly released a hug from her body. “Lu not busy?” my many.
Joseph smiled. “No, the cave must have time for you mah, let's just eat first, fainted here the cave is troublesome,” he said, ignorant. “Come on, we eat,” she added again, pull my hand and take me to follow her.
After several hours of cloud cover, I hope with him I no longer feel alone, because consciously or not, my sadness slowly goes with his existence. If I wish Joseph would always be there for me, would that be selfish?