Idol Nanny
Feeling Shameful,

The rays of the sun erode the cold because of the rain overnight. The sky looks bright with blue sea and white clouds that adorn. The warmth greeted the girl who was sitting in the backyard of a two-story house owned by a widower. Sunbathing while staring at the beauty of some flowers that are there.

Yes, she is Fina. After two days of lying weakly on top of the bed, he was finally able to breathe free air like this moment. Although the power had not fully recovered, he remained there to feel the warmth of the sun. Sweat sweat began to drench the long-sleeved pajamas he was wearing at the moment.

"Bak Fina wants to eat some bread?" elza asked after approaching Fina in the backyard. He showed the toast to his nanny.

"Later on, Madam Fina was still full," Fina replied in a soft voice. She developed a smile at the little attention her foster child was giving her.

The pace of someone who had just arrived, managed to make Elza and Fina avert their eyes. It was Benny who was walking to his place at the moment. The handsome widower carried a cup in his hand.

"Drink this warm honey water, Fin. He said honey can cure stomach acid. I've bought some honey bottles for you right off the farm" Benny said, handing the cup to Fina.

"I'm not feeling good about my father like this. How many more times do I apologize for bothering Mr and Mrs Ani," muttered Fina with a heavy sigh.

During these two days, Ani always came to make breakfast for Fina, considering that Dewi had not returned from her village. The middle-aged woman was very considerate of Fina to make the girl feel bad about her employer's family. Benny's sister also came to this house even though just seeing the condition.

"Already, Fin. You don't have to feel sad until you continue to apologize. You were my responsibility while I was here, so there was no need to think about anything. You have to be excited to get well soon" Benny said after sitting in the chair next to Fina.

"You haven't taken your medicine, have you?" guess Benny while looking at Fina.

"Keep, Ben knows?" Fina scrunched her forehead.

"Yes because you can sit here for a long time, if you take medicine, you must have slept, Fin," said Benny with a thin smile.

Side effects of drugs consumed Fina can indeed cause drowsiness that is unbearable. The hijab girl must have been stoned a few tens of minutes after taking the medicine. No matter if it was still early morning, he could not help his sleepiness.

"Don't be late to take medicine during the healing period, Fin, because after this we will go on vacation" said Benny without taking his eyes off Fina.

"Vacation, Sir? Same as anyone?" ask Fina curiously.

"All employees and families. Ordinary regular events to remove the stitches," jolly Benny with a sweet smile that accompanies.

"So you can be stressed? If there is something comforting. You can sing with your girlfriend" Fina said in response to Benny.

"I'm not with Renata anymore. Our relationship ended a few days ago." Benny turned his eyes away from Fina.

Unknowingly the beautiful girl developed her smile. Somehow his heart felt relieved after hearing the news. However, the smile faded after he realized what made him feel happy.

Fina chose to refrain from asking about the private matter. It seems like discussing other issues is much better than having to discuss about the relationship that has run aground.

"Oh yes, sir, how was Elza's two-day training?" asked Fina while looking at Benny who was pensive.

"The training is smooth and there are no obstacles. Yesterday Mr. Syakur came and discussed the issue of Pagar Bangsa KEJURNAS in Malang," explained Benny after remembering the conversation with the senior coach.

"How do you do it, sir? Is Elza going to fight?" ask Fina.

"Yes. Elza was chosen to represent Surabaya, regardless of what class will be followed. The game if it's not wrong next month, Fin." Benny had forgotten a little about the game time.

Until a few minutes, they both discussed the problem of the match that Elza will follow. Some advice and direction had been given by Fina, given that Elzayin's father did not understand the match.

"You better get in, Fin. Keep taking the medicine, don't be late!" benny said after seeing the sweat on the smooth face of the girl at his side, "healing quickly," added Benny with a smile that was so sweet that it made the girl become misbehaved.

Fina immediately got up from her seat and left Benny there. The handsome widower is willing not to go to his industry to keep Elza at home. After taking the medicine as usual, Fina returned to the room. He threw himself on the bed. The beautiful girl stared at the ceiling of the room with all the thoughts lodged in her head.

"Pak Ben is very considerate and kind to me. Looks like the same as ordinary Goddess. Why would ya? Is it possible just because I'm kind to Elza? But I think this Ben sir is too much, "Fina muttered softly after remembering all the good Benny did to her.

The beautiful girl was afraid to deduce something she had never experienced. He was unwilling to judge if all Benny's kindness was based on the feelings that the one-child widower had for him. Given, Fina herself had never been in a relationship with any man. He doesn't understand how a man feels about a woman.

"Kang Aris who blatantly said he wanted to marry me, his attitude was not like that. I'm so confused" Fina murmured again.

"So ... actually Ben sir how the hell is this? I'm afraid I misinterpreted his attitude. Duh, just make the head dizzy," grumbled Fina while changing her position to tilt.

The lack of experience in terms of romance actually makes Fina confused. Moreover, the figure he was facing was an experienced figure who had high flying hours. Even so he still tried to think positively, so as not to cause pain if there is one thing that makes his heart hurt.

"I cannot be swayed by Mr. Benny's attitude. I had to stick to one goal which is Kang Aris, because only she falls into the category of my dream husband. Maybe he was acting like that, because he really wanted to take care of me. He has a lot of respect for me and of course we have the same goal." Fina monologue.

"Kang Aris, kang Aris, kang Aris." Fina kept repeating the name so that her heart would remain with the one man she had committed to.

When the heart and mind are not in line, there will be a feeling of indecision present within. The time will come when the beautiful girl will be faced between two paths. Waiting for the day will give you two hard choices. Between heart and reality. Of course, the advice once delivered by his mother became a big consideration of his decision later.

"Ah stop! I'm just gonna go to bed! I'd better just go through what's in front of me" he murmured, closing his eyes.

...🌹To Be Continue 🌹...