Look at me, my man!
Grumpily

How many moments passed, the doctor came out of the treatment room occupied by Bella until Tristan who was daydreaming, immediately got up from his seat. She wiped her tears and went to the doctor.

"How's my wife doing?" tristan asked, his feet as if not resting on the earth when he saw the doctor's face. Somehow from the face of the doctor alone Tristan can judge that Bella's condition is not okay.

"Your wife's condition is quite severe, even if your wife is not aware your wife will be declared in a coma" said the doctor. Tristan's body was unsteady, he almost fell. But he was lucky to control himself. What the doctor said was shocking.

Apparently, Bella had an overdose. How not, he ate all the medicine then after that he slashed his veins. Bella can still breathe it's been a miracle, let alone Bella lost a lot of blood.

"Do you mean my wife is going into a coma?" asked Tristan who was still trying to strengthen himself to ask. His heart was really not strong to hear the doctor's answer.

"We pray for the best. We will also do our best to remove toxins from your wife's body. Then we'll excuse us." The doctor immediately said goodbye to Tristan, while in the room occupied by Bella, there were still nurses and soon the sisters came out of the nursery.

"If you visit, please. The doctor will monitor once an hour" said the nurse to Tristan until Tristan nodded. Tristan did not enter. He inhaled a lot of oxygen, then the man opened the door.

As he entered, Trsitan let out a heavy sigh. Her breathing faltered as she saw Bella lying in a gurney. With super slow steps approaching his wife. He looked at Bella's face and unfortunately, he realized that now Bella's body is very thin, his wife's face is very thin and even clearly visible that Bella's body only lives in the skin.

How Bella is not thin, Bella's trials are endless, she is wrought with pain that continues to confront her that's why Bella is at the point of fatigue, Bella thinks Tristan will never come back like he once was. Tristan already loved another woman and what she did was all in vain, holding on to Tristan's side was painful but going from Tristan's side was more painful to the end doing such reckless things.

Tristan pulled out a chair, and then he grabbed Bella's hand. Even Bella's hands are only bones. "Lord." That's all Tristan can say, sorry was useless and maybe if Tristan had not just returned to the apartment, he had lost Bella. Before long, Tristan realized when someone stroked his back and it turned out to be Shelby.

Apparently after Bella was treated by a doctor, Shelby called Tristan and because Shelby kept asking, Tristan immediately said that he was in the hospital for accompanying Bella, until Shelby immediately followed to the hospital. She had no idea what had happened to Bella, but when she saw her daughter-in-law lying down like this, she was sure what had happened to her daughter-in-law must have been severe.

"Why Bella?" shelby asked in a very quiet voice. He looked at Bella, he knew Tristan and Bella were big

Tristan explained the outline of what he did and Bely understood even though Tristan only said the outline. He spoke in a soft voice with a stifled breath.

"Let's go with Mommy" invites Shelby to sit outside with Trsitan. It seems, Tristan cannot be told by violence even though he actually wants to rampage just like Darren raged on Tristan. How could his son make such a mistake?

In the end it was hard to leave Bella's ward, but Tristan immediately agreed to her mother's words to talk outside and now Tristan and Shelby were sitting in the waiting chair. No one spoke, the two children and the mother both fell silent until in the end, Shelby stroked Tristan's hair.

"Tell Mommy what's the reason? Have you ever done more with Flora?" shelby asked him, he spoke directly to her about the point.

Tristan quickly nodded. "We just hugged each other, held hands. Every now and then Flora kisses me on the cheek, that's it already" Tristan said, rubbing a rough face, remembering that, it felt like Tristan wanted to curse herself. He deliberately did not say that he was almost tempted, selling him would tell his mother. If he said that to his mother, of course, his mother would be angry, but he also did not do such a thing with Flora and he also just kissed Flora's lips once when Flora teased him.

"Why did you do this? You're doing this to Bella because you're too upset?" ask Shelby, make sure. He tries to give Tristan some advice and Tristan nods, saying Bella's words.

"I'm tired. Every day struggling with work, has not faced Bella. I also want to have entertainment, I want to have children but Bella can not be invited to work together. But I realized it wasn't Bella's fault" Tristan replied, in a soft voice.

"You know very well how we lost Daddy. How ruined Mommy is, don't you see? For two years Mommy was depressed, then why can't you still understand your wife's feelings? Why is it that after your wife changes, you become more and more?" cecar Shelby's trying to remind his son.

Hearing her mother's words, Tristan bowed. He did not dare to argue because what his mother said was right. Now, Tristan's world is completely darkened. He remembered about earlier, where he saw Bella covered in blood. Really, he would not forgive himself if something happened to his wife.

Time shows at two o'clock in the evening.

Tristan saw Bella's face. What she felt was only the fear of losing Bella greater than the pain she received because of her father's chastisement.

"Bella, please wake up" said Tristan, "please don't leave me." Trsitan said slowly. However, it is full of feelings.

Tristan continued to hold Bella's hand until a while passed, drowsiness immediately attacked Tristan until in the end, he fell asleep while holding his wife's hand.

Next day.

Bella blinked, the woman opened her eyes. As he opened his eyes, the pain immediately afflicted him. His head was painful, his throat was sore even he felt his whole body crumble.

For a moment, Bella did not remember anything that happened. The woman was confused as to where she was and why she was like this, why she was here.

'Wait, am I in heaven now?' because he remembers everything. She thought she had left the world because she remembered she had locked the door, ate medicine, cut her pulse and she was sure no one had found her until she now thought she was dead. Especially when there was no trsitan.

But before long, Bella turned to look at the hand that was fitted with an infusion hose. Now he realizes he's safe. A few questions swirled in the woman's brain. How is he here? Who took him to the hospital and who saved him?

Suddenly, there was a sound of the door opening until Bella immediately closed her eyes because she wanted to know who was coming. His heart beat twice as fast when he realized who was coming, because he knew very well the fragrance of the perfume used by Tristan.

'Wait, did Tristan take me?' his inner. Somehow the sense of tightness became more and more so when he realized that, even though before he did that, Tristan rebuked him all out.

Tristan, who just called, did not realize that Bella had actually realized until Bella again sat herself down next to the gurney occupied by her wife, then she clasped Bella's hand. Bella's heart felt melos when Tristan clasped his hand.

He forgot the last time Tristan held his hand like this. Maybe if he doesn't know Tristan and Flora's relationship, he'll feel very happy when Tristan wants to open his heart again, willing to forgive him. But for some reason, his heart was different. The shadow of Tristan holding the hand of another woman makes Bella feel like crying as loud as possible.

Tristan was moved when he saw water falling on the pillow, until Tristan looked at Bella's face, it turns out Bella let out tears. Until Tristan got up from his seat.

"Bella," call Tristan so Bella can't pretend anymore. The woman opened her eyes and turned to look at Tristan.

"Darling, you're sober?" tristan asked with a surprised and incredulous look.

'I miss that kind of look of you, but somehow it hurts.' Bella was deep, but she could only faintly smile. For some reason, he felt the gaze when Triztan was different.

"In a moment, I'll call the doctor" said Tristan who immediately turned to call the doctor and told him that Bella had regained consciousness.

“Wait a minute, the doctor will be here again," said Tritan when he called the doctor. An awkward feeling immediately hit Bella and Trsitan. Honestly Tristan was confused where to start to apologize.

***

The doctor finished examining Bella. Bella's condition seems to have been much better than the first day she was taken to the hospital. Doctors also managed to remove the toxins in Bella's body, the poison caused by the sedative that Bella drank until now in the room there is only Tristan and Bella.

Bella closed her eyes because she was still reluctant to talk to Tristan, and Tristan was confused where to start. Likewise with Tristan who is also confused to start talking what.

"Bella," called Tristan in a heavy tone, until he finally ventured to call his wife. Though she hesitates to talk and is afraid to see Bella's response. But he remained steadfast to speak

Bella opened her eyes and again she just smiled. Tristan forgets Bella is the type of woman who never shows anything she feels. Bella will stay like this, no matter how sick her wife is.

" Hmm, Tristan," replied Bella without a sound, of course because her throat was still sore and a second later, Tristan could not hold back her tears until she bent down and hugged Bella's body, then after that cry hugging his wife muttered as much as sorry.

Again, Bella should be happy, but it feels different. But this is Bella, never revealing what she feels to anyone, whether sad, happy, Bella will remain the same. It is too heavy to keep on its own, but too heavy to share with others.

One month later.

Not notice, it's been a month since Bella was hospitalized for one month anyway, Tristan always accompany Bella. He didn't even go to the office. He did not go anywhere, the handsome man was completely focused on taking care of his wife. You could say their problem is clear. .

Tristan has explained everything, he has apologized, he even swore that he did not lie that he and Flora had nothing to do with it, they are just friends who are comfortable with each other.

Tristan says that now he will not meet with Flora again. He won't see the woman. Tristan also convinces Bella that she is close to Flora because Flora reminds her of when Bella was still cheerful, that's why she was comfortable.

One month ago when she saw Bella lying on the floor, Tristan realized her mistake, realising that she was just not patient with Bella. He does not realize that this is not Bella's fault, but his mistake because Bella has tried to change, but he instead remains indifferent to his wife just because of the ego.

After a month of treatment, Bella was allowed to go home. Maybe for Tristan all the problems are over, Bella has forgiven him. But not for Bella. Even if you are okay, the pain is still there. Bella just wants to go through everything like water, no matter what happens in the future.

Bella, who was daydreaming, immediately regained her senses when Tristan entered the room. It seems, Tristan just took care of the administration.

we go home now" Tristan asked until Bella nodded.

Tristan reaches out her hand to Bella, until Bella immediately receives a helping hand from Tristan even though her heart thrashes to release her hand from Tristan's hand If you say, maybe Bella is a little disgusted with her husband, she said, remember that this hand was once held by another woman.

If asked if Bella believed what Tristan said, the answer is no. Bella doesn't believe, how could a man close to a woman do nothing? Moreover, Tristan often comes to Flora's apartment.

When Tristan apologized some time ago, he did not mention to Bella that he often came to Flora's apartment.. She did not intentionally say that because she was afraid that Bella would get hurt. Let Tristan not say it, as long as everything is fine, that's how the man thought.

Tristan was running his car at a slow speed. Today, he drove his car home to another apartment. He did not want to go home to the apartment they had previously occupied, as it certainly gave a lot of injuries to Bella.

"Darling, you want to buy something?" tristan asked, looking

Bella turned and shook her head. "Thank you, I just want a break" Bella replied. Tristan nodded.

Although Tristan already does not think this, Bella is fine, but Tristan also knows it is not easy for Bella to accept all. He just has to keep proving that he's really sorry.

After a long journey, finally the car driven by Tristan reached the basement of the apartment. Bella looked over Tristan.

"Where are we?" ask Bella.

Tristan clasped Bella's hand and again, Bella felt like she wanted to pull her husband's hand away.

"The apartment yesterday was too much of a wound, so I wanted to start a new atmosphere" Tristan replied.

"Oh so," replied Bella.

After that, Tristan got out of the car followed by Bella.

"Tristan, I want to rest, can I sleep first?" ask Bella. Although she has recovered, Bella's face still looks pale, not to mention while in the hospital until now, Bella really lost a lot of weight. Bella also did not want to eat heavy food, of course it was all because of the great shock she received.

"I'll take you to the room" Tristan said until Bella nodded, then after that Bella walked straight to her room.

Along with Tristan, Bella laid her body on the bed and pulled the blanket. His eyes looked straight ahead. Really, he felt alien to this situation. Tristan her husband, but somehow her feelings are much different although it is undeniable that love is still there for her husband. Bella suddenly misses her father.

'Your father will never come back to life.'

Bella closed her eyes, her tears welling up as she recalled Tristan's words back then. Even now, Bella does not dare to come to her father's grave again for fear of hearing painful things, whereas at this time Bella wants to go there to simply vent her sadness.

Next day.

Tristan turned to the door when he heard the sound of the door being knocked, so he allowed his secretary to enter.

"What's wrong?" ask Tristan.

"Sir, there's Miss Flora" said her secretary.

Tristan breathes a lot of oxygen. After Bella is admitted to the hospital, she tells Flora that she no longer wants to see her and wants to improve her relationship with Bella. I don't know why the woman is coming back now.

"Send him in" said Tristan. It seemed like he had to affirm something to Flora, and before long Flora went inside.

"Please sit down" said Tristan.

"Tristan, why would you take my power out of working in this office? I've handled a few cases for you" Flora said.

"Flora, sorry as I said, I don't want to make Bella hurt" Tristan said.

"I'm the victim here, not you. You made me this way and you used to act like you liked me. I accepted being dumped by you, but why should I stop my work now?" asked Flora fiery.

"I'm sorry about that. Honestly because while I was with you, I never thought of you as another woman. In the sense of the word, I was like seeing Bella in the past. I miss Bella who was with you, that's why I approached you. But yesterday when Bella was in the hospital, I realized I didn't want to lose her" Tristan said.

"I told you, I don't want to make Bella suspicious. I don't want to make Bella feel any more pain, so please, please don't talk about this anymore. I'll send you a big compensation as a sign of my apology" Tristan said.

Flora got up from her seat then Flora came out of Tristan's room, making Tristan sigh violently. He got up from his seat and walked towards his study.

Tristan fiddles with her phone, intending to call Bella. But before long, Tristan remembered something that he did not have his wife's number.

"Tristan, why are you so stupid?" Tristan rubbed a rough face cursing his stupidity. Now, how'd he get his wife's number? There was no way he would ask his family, let alone Theresia since it would definitely all go back to chaos.

In the end, Tristan decided to get up from his seat and the handsome man walked out of his room. He intends to take his wife to lunch and now here Tristan is, in his apartment unit. He rushed to get out of the car and then walked quickly to his apartment unit.

As she walked, there was a sound from the kitchen until Tristan turned his head and it turned out that Bella was cooking. Tristan smiled bitterly as he recalled that time he often ignored Bella who had already cooked for him, and he never ate his wife's cooking. She misses Bella's cooking. The fragrance immediately smelled making Tristan directly forward towards his wife. Suddenly, Tristan cleared his throat making Bella immediately turn her head. He's holding his chest.

"Tristan, you surprised me" Bella said, holding her chest.

Tristan pulls out a chair and sits himself in front of Bella who is cooking.

"You only cook one serving?" ask Tristan.

"You want to?" bella asked him she hoped that Trsitan would not, because he did not share.

Although the conversation looks very normal, Tristan feels that the relationship now and Bella is full of awkwardness. If Tristan can choose, he wants Bella to be mad at him. She wants Bella to abuse her instead of Bella pretending to be okay.

Tristan thinks that Bella is fine, but after they get home from the hospital, Tristan believes his wife is still holding the wound, which is evident when Bella is never willing to look at him, always dodging when he's about to touch her and Tristan is confused as to how.

"I want to" replied Tristan.

"Yes, you can wait at the dinner table" said Bella until Tristan nodded.

Half an hour later, the cooking was over.

Bella takes him to the dining table and prepares him for Tristan. Now, he was directly eating his food.

"Is there anything less?" bella asked as Tristan fell silent after feeding a mouthful into her mouth. Tristan quickly nodded. Eating Bella's food, it was like Tristan was dying to cry. He imagined what if Bella did not survive. He no longer ate his wife's cooking.

"No, it's very tasty" Tristan replied. He immediately fed his food back.

Finally, the meal was over. Bella gets up from her seat and Tristan still has a lot of work in the office, but somehow she wants to spend her time with Bella.

"Tristan, don't you go to the office anymore?" bella asked as Tristan opened his suit and shirt, until now the man was bare-chested.

Bella is confused by what her husband will do, so before long Bella follows Tristan's steps to take her to the room and after that, Tristan goes to bed followed by Bella.

"Tristan, what are you doing?" bella asked, she's really afraid that Tristan might touch her. Bella is not ready to serve Tristan, Bella is not willing to serve her husband because of course she feels disgusted because of the imagined when Tristan touches Flora.

"No, I just wanted to hug you. It's been a long time since I've hugged you" Tristan said until Bella lay down and turned her back to Tristan, and she hugged her wife from behind.

"Darling, what if we're on vacation? It's been a long time since we've gone together" Tristan said.

'Because you didn't go with me, but with Flora.' Unfortunately, Bella could only say that in her heart.

"I followed you, Tristan," Bella replied, making Tristan sigh. She thought Bella would refuse, but she didn't.

One year later.

"Bella, are you pregnant?" tristan asked, he looked at Bella in surprise. Tristan's face instantly changed, tears coming out of the man's eyes. He accidentally found a testpack in the bathroom and he immediately asked his wife.

This year, nothing has changed. Their relationship is still adorned with awkwardness, but Tristan never stops to convince Bella every day with love and finally after waiting for several months, Bella wants to be touched by him even with a little coercion. Before returning to have sex with Bella, Tristan accidentally secretly inserts a fertility drug into his wife's drink. She does this to keep Bella by her side and doesn't think about leaving her side because she's afraid Bella decides to give up and walk away from her life, because it has been a year since Bella still remains the same, still serves her well, but Tristan also realizes that there is a speck of wound that is still not healed and in the end Tristan's struggle is not in vain. Now, Bella is pregnant. She hopes that if Bella is pregnant, Bella can change a little like before, Bella who is cheerful because sometimes secretly Tristan often sees her daydreaming.

But when she comes, Bella will behave as usual, no happy look including when she was pregnant. I don't know everything's so bland. He used to hope that he could have children and in the end when his marriage reached the age of eight, God has only given his trust now.

But somehow, it felt different, not the same anymore. Like something was missing. Not that Bella does not want to be pregnant at this time, it's just that her past wounds have not healed.

While Tristan is at work, Bella always thinks that maybe Tristan met Flora behind her. Sometimes if Tristan comes home late, Bella always thinks maybe Tristan is in Flora's apartment. The frightening shadow still lingers in Bella's mind until she is so hard to forgive.

Maybe if Tristan wants to leave the country or live in another country where there is no trace of Flora, Bella will be slightly healed or at least she will start to forget little by little what happened in the past, but unfortunately Tristan was not sensitive to it and Bella m also did not want to say her wish, because she was afraid that Tristan would consider it dramatizing my situation.

"You're not happy?" tristan asked when he saw Bella's seemingly ordinary expression. Bella smiled faintly.

"I'm happy" he replied. After that, Bella immediately sat on the sofa and followed by Tristan.

After being near Bella, Tristan bent his legs and then he equated himself by kneeling before his wife.

"Thank you, honey. Thank you, I'm happy we finally have a child" Tristan said

Bella did not answer, she did not even react at all, until Tristan finally straightened her body.

"You didn't go to the office?" bella asked as Tristan continued in the same position.

"No, I'm not going to the office. I want to be with you" replied Tristan.

"Tristan, just go. I promised Theresa I'd shop together" Bella said. Actually she has no promise with Theresia, only for some reason since she knew she was pregnant, she refused to be close to Tristan.

"Have you promised Theresia?" Tristan lifted her head then looked at Bella.

"I made a promise to him" said Bella.

"Yes, let me come with you" suggested Tristan.

"No, I want to go shopping with Theresia." Bella's tone of voice began to be firm, so Tristan did not wince.

"Yes already then.”

“You , don't go to the office anymore," asked Bella again.

"No, I'm going to stay here" he said, until Tristan finally straightened himself and then he got up from his knees, then after that he immediately sat down next to Bella and when Tristan was about to kiss Bella's cheek, Bella immediately got up from her seat. The beautiful woman plans to change clothes and calls Theresia, asking Theresa to pick her up.

A few moments passed.

Theresia opened the door to her sister's apartment, she happened to be in the area until when Bella called her, Theresia immediately came.

"You didn't go to the office?" teresa asked when she saw Tristan sitting on the sofa.

"No" he answered.

"Where's Bella?" ask Theresia.

"He's in the room" she said again until Theresia shook her head.

"Tell Mommy and Daddy, Bella is pregnant" Tristan said.

"What?!" Theresia was suffocated when she heard her words and before long, Bella came out of the room.

"Bella, are you pregnant?" asked Theresia enthusiastically.

Bella nodded.

"I'm pregnant" said Bella.

Suddenly, Theresia undoes her intention of going back to speak when she sees Bella's strange face. Shouldn't a pregnant person be happy? Tristan and her sister-in-law have been married for a long time. Wait, Theresia's sure something's weird.

"Yes already then, go," said Bella.

"You sure you don't want me to be with you?" tristan asked until Bella shook her head.

"No, I'll just go with Theresia" she replied, and after that, Theresia and Bella came out of the apartment and now here they are, in a cafe. Theresia deliberately invites Bella to sit in the cafe, because she wants to ask more about Bella's feelings.

"Bella," call Theresia when they've ordered a dish at the cafe.

"I know that actually your relationship with Tristan is not very good, in the sense that your word is still overshadowed by the pain of behavior. Is my guess right?" ask Theresia.

Bella chuckles. "No, why should I feel that too? If I still harbored pain, I wouldn't be carrying her child" Bella replied, she didn't dare to stare at Theresa because what was said was a lie and Theresa understood that.

"Bella, sometimes if you can't be honest with yourself, you'll just get caught in the wound. You'll be a mother, if you haven't healed your trauma, then the impact will be on your child" Theresia said. What Theresia said was true, she had not been honest with herself and had not been able to come to terms with the past, of course because until now she still did not believe her husband honestly.

"Yes, I haven't forgiven Tristan yet. At first I thought Tristan was like that because of my actions which then dissolved in wounds, I had tried to reach his forgiveness, but he instead blamed me for what was done. It's okay, I was wrong but I think after we spoke that day after I apologized, Tristan would change and open up his forgiveness for me, but apparently no, he always cornered me for his mistakes. He always rebukes me when I'm sad about my father. You know Theresia, even this whole year I haven't been to my parents' graves again because I'm afraid to hear hurtful words." Bella breathed in as much oxygen as she could, she paused for a moment because her crying almost exploded.

”Maybe Tristan can say that he and Flora have nothing to do, but the meaning of the word they never do anything.

"I also caught Tristan inside Flora's apartment, do you think that's normal? Tristan is a normal guy, Flora is beautiful and sexy. They spend a lot of time together, can you believe me being me?" Bella ended her speech with tears coming down, and now Theresia understood the root point of her problem.

"So you don't believe in Tristan?" ask Theresia.

"Okay, I'm confused as to how. I just want everything to flow like water, but sometimes I can't control myself who always thinks badly of Tristan. In my mind I always thought that maybe Tristan and Flora met behind me. They might laugh over the pain I feel, and so ...." Bella stopped her speech, her voice almost sinking with a cry. For the first time he brought out all his complaints to his sister-in-law. Theresia patted her hands, then the beautiful woman immediately smiled.

"I understand everything, don't go on anymore." This time, It was Theresa who had to talk to her sister so that her brother would understand what Bella was afraid of.

***

Bella went into the apartment. She had just returned home shopping with Theresia even though she had not bought anything when she came home. The sound of Tristan's voice made Bella frown. He walked inside and it turned out that Tristan was bending over with trembling shoulders, a sign that Tristan was crying.

Apparently when Bella came down from the basement, Theresia called Tristan and said the outline of why Bella did not change when this was sago years passed.

In the end, Tristan realized that all this time he was just talking without proving. She completely changes, that she also does not tell Bella that Flora is no longer working in her office. She should have told him that if he wasn't suspicious, but Tristan was wrong. He thought that apologizing would all improve, but it didn't

"Tristan, what's wrong with you?" bella asked Tristan to wake up and she looked back.

Tristan wiped her tears and then pulled Bella's arm, until now Bella was sitting next to her husband.

"Darling," Tristan called Bella confused. Somehow her husband was like this, but before she left with Theresia, Tristan was fine. "You heard me "In the end, Tristan explained everything from her breaking up Bella, to her frequent trips to Flora's apartment.

Trish even swore' not to do anything, not even Tristan if necessary, he would ask for CCTV records in the apartment.

Theresia believed it after hearing Tristan's explanation. He's a little bit smiling. Hs, here's what Bells needs, an explanation of everything.

"Tristan you know after I got out of the hospital, my mind was just centered on what if you guys met behind my back? What if you're still spending time without my knowledge. If asked if until now I am sick, yes, the answer is I still hurt, the answer is I am still disappointed.”