Love me, Mr. Duke
Chapters 14.Fearfulness

...~Love Me My Lord Duke~...

...~oOo0oOo~...

Although I looked calm while devouring my food, but my mind was raging. I kept wondering why Carxen came to my room. Plus the conversation between Carxen and Alfonso last night really made me misunderstand.

"What do you want to talk about?" carxen asked, making me immediately stop my activities that were cutting the steak on my plate.

'How could he keep remembering my request while in his study? I guess he doesn't care at all.'

I looked straight at Carxen cutting the steak on his plate, "Maybe for you what I'm about to say is not important. Even so I still want to hear your reason."

Carxen raised his head and looked at me. "It's about you coming to my room drunk" I said.

He looks scary on both eyebrows, "It's not natural that I sleep with you" he said.

It's true, but it's not an answer like that I want to hear. I don't know what kind of answer I want out of Carxen's mouth. For sure I feel a little disappointed to hear the answer at this time.

"It's only natural, it's just..."

"Hmm, just?.." she asked, repeating my words.

"Just in that drunken state a little-"

"I'm not drunk at all" he chanted, cutting off my words and still staring flatly at me.

My eyes widened at him, "So... You're fully aware?"

Carxen did not answer and continued to devour his food. While I was still staring at him unexpectedly, because I felt lied to.

I looked down at my breakfast, "Make people pound.." I said slowly.

"Night I came to check your room" Carxen suddenly said, which jolted me.

I immediately looked at him, waiting for him to say something further. Carxen turned his gaze and looked at me, "There were two intruders inside the house last night. One man escaped but I managed to cut off one arm" he said, to my horror.

"The other one..." Carxen turned his gaze from me in the other direction, "You take it easy I've already cleared it up" he continued.

I gulped with a huff, my stomach felt uncomfortable, my appetite suddenly disappeared. I feel like I'm gonna puke imagining what he did last night.

THE TRANGG!!!

The sound of a fork falling to the floor sounded very loud in the middle of the silent atmosphere created between the two of us.

The disdain that I slowly buried in the pit of fear, which I always tried to keep when I was reminded of reality, is now back. This time I really cannot handle it.

"Viellen...?" call Carxen, make sure I see my strange gurgle.

"... Did you... finish that guy off?" I asked, squeezing the butcher knife in my hand.

"As you can imagine. Right, I killed him."

'What do you really expect from this guy Viellen? He could kill you at any time if he wanted to. You were foolishly expecting love from her.'

I almost forgot that this man I married was a cruel man who could brandish a sword to anyone without pity or sin. I was too lulled by his face mask that showed no danger when I was around. He made my surveillance slowly decrease.

I'll stand up, "Master Duke. Excuse me now. Thank you for accompanying me to breakfast." After saying that, I immediately waltzed away.

I really didn't want to look Carxen in the eye, or wait for him to say something.

'Why is my hand shaking like this?'

Am I being scared. Or am I disappointed. I really don't understand. I flinched as she looked at me with her red eyes. I shuddered as she touched my hand with her cold hand. I was scared when he was around me. I'm afraid to face it. I'm really scared. Why am I so late to realize it.