Love Me More!
Eros&Thanatos

The warm atmosphere of the gathering of two families is decorated with joking happiness and laughter between them, except for a man who is not at all comfortable in this situation, yes I can see from the expression of his face that immediately wanted to go home, he just stirred his food indistinctly.

A wide variety of delicious dishes are served on the table, which is made special by Mama and Ai-san for our family. After enjoying it we finally came to a serious chat.

"Aqua and Akane are happy next week you're getting engaged." Hikaru-san said at the end of the table there.

Aqua who had been stirring her food immediately burst out in disbelief hearing that. I'm the same, but on the other hand, I'm happy to hear that.

Aqua finally opened her mouth to prevent this engagement."Isn't this too fast? We're still in school.." Ask to try to give consideration.

"We've thought about this carefully, the sooner the better you'll just get engaged instead of getting married." Hikaru san replied reassuringly.

Aqua snickered at me probably because I didn't make a sound and didn't refuse the engagement, her face looked irritated. Therefore I also tried to open my mouth, I bit my lower lip for a moment because I was hesitant to say it.

"It seems we're not ready yet.." I said quietly, to which everyone was looking straight at me.

Aisan and mama immediately asked."Why?"

Before answering Aisan immediately interrupted."Your relationship is okay, right? So just follow the advice of parents, yes, we know what is best for both of you, and also the family of course."

Hearing that I could only look down and nod not knowing what to reason, Aqua was also the same she was still confused about how to undo all this and did not dare to face her parents and finally agreed. But I saw him clenching his hands like he was angry and upset. And when our eyes met he looked at me sharply.

I feel bad because I'm the only one who feels happy we're getting engaged while my candidate doesn't feel that. Am I a selfish person? Or is he selfish? Or is our family selfish? Who is wrong and who is right? I don't know at all.

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A week later the official fiancee event was done but the only family present, this is still closed for fear of disturbing us at school just for the intersection of two families.

CUPS

A light kiss landed on my lips

Before long cheers and loud applause rang out, warm laughter and happy expressions emanated from the direction of these two great families. The long-awaited engagement.

Looking around, a faint smile flashed on my lips, yet upon looking to the side, my expression changed.

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"Don't smile, don't be happy!" he told me while turning his back on me.

"Why should this show take place?! I know you're happy? your wish is realized." he continued.

"Aqua-kun, do you still hate me?" I asked somewhat tremblingly, as my voice suddenly choked, my throat hurt, a pool of clear liquid gathered in my eyes.

"EVERYTHING" he said short.

"What should I do? so that Aqua-kun doesn't hate me, I honestly don't understand why Aqua-kun is like this?" cannot be held back these tears turned out to flow as well.

"How much do you like me?"she turned around while looking at me sharply, holding my shoulder. "You want to know? what should you do Akane?".

I looked at her pushyly, then nodded.I honestly held back the urgent cry of wanting to be let out immediately, so that my mouth could not make a sound and just bit the lower lip.

"So what if you disappear from this world??!"

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That night Aquakun told me how he could love me, that is, by the way I died. And he'll be able to love me. Looking at the look in his eyes at that moment he said it solemnly.

I gulped a hard spit, actually now I am still alive in this world because of it too. If at that time I die this match will also not be done and Aquakun can be happy and I will not be in his life. From the beginning where I wasn't here, Mama I'm sorry that I should have died back then. And now that person wants me dead, lost from this world, selfish if I choose night to live, and with this I want to thank you for ten years of my life.

My eyes suddenly felt sore and tears flowing on my cheeks, my heart felt hit by something heavy so I was difficult to breathe.

"Aquakun I love you, thank you for saving me time and sorry to trouble you for living." I muttered as I looked at a photograph of us when we got engaged.

I got out of bed lazily and wanted to say goodbye to the people closest to me, it felt like my time was up in the world.

There are two types of people in this world: those who are driven by life (eros) and those who are driven by death (thanatos) and for me Aqua is my eros and thanatos, if he wants me dead now then fine I will.