Love Me More!
About you
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You won't know where your life is going, so just follow the current like flowing water, Today I was shocked because papa went to the hospital and even more shocked I will be betrothed to someone in accordance with the official family plan. I can't resist it let alone the condition of papa being dying. Marine see you.
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My day is not going well, anxiety is coming my way, there are guests coming today and yes it is my future-in-law, I was a little awkward to deal with him but his mother was a nice and attractive person she did not hesitate to talk to me gently, let alone say she was a former idol,, I never thought I would be his daughter-in-law... but the journey of life no one knew my candidate had an accident and died and soon my papa died..
April 20XX
I can't say how broken I was then, my world collapsed, I felt like I was limping, for one day or two to the first week I thought everything would be fine, I became a support system for my mother who was down, my activities became chaotic, I was not excited and I felt more lost papa and now my life is not okay.
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I just want the day to end, even though my mom has risen up and started to replace my dad, I feel like my world is moving away..
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How are you doing there, huh? Is papa happy there? Why did you leave us so soon.. Miss you..
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Mama's been foaming hard, I'll also help her, sorry your son is troublesome mama.
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I'm like a Zombie living the best life I can.
May 20XX
In the midst of my sadness I am grateful to have a friend like Frill who always entertains me, he does not stop encouraging me every day.
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I feel like I'm recovering and I can live a normal life again.
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I just realized that person, Yes marine is now changing, all this time I don't pay attention to it anymore. Kira thought why?
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Once again I noticed he was moody, I wondered why he was like that, like I was then.
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Frill said she knew him but forgot his name as expected, marine must have become popular, he was quite popular at the drama club he said but quit after his nature changed.
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Gawat, I saw him with a girl, huhuhu it seems like they are close, I want to chase him but not hunt.
June 20XX
After a long time of matchmaking was not revealed anymore which I thought everything had already passed and canceled. It turns out that mom and her family are going to roll out again because they have a second son to bet on me. I am still bound by this destiny.
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Even though I slightly disagree, I can't say that it will burden my mother so I can only agree to it. Even so I feel deg degan will meet with my candidate tonight.
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Yaaaaaaaa.... You know life is full of surprises. Turns out my candidate is Marine, the guy I've been waiting for all this time... AquaMarine, I can't breathe it's like I'm happy not to refuse this matchmaking. Wow how am I so happy.. Kekekeke..
But...... Does he seem to dislike me??? I don't know if I'll ignore her attitude because it was our first meeting.
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I will try to take Aqua's heart, she looks like she wants to keep her distance from me, her sharp gaze, and her ugly words, does she hate me so much? Butwhy? I know he doesn't remember me but still treats strangers with such cruelty....
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July 20XX
I don't know why, but today Aqua took me to Disneyland, a place I really love....Kyaaaq was very fond of, I think he felt guilty for his attitude at that time.??.This is my first date I will look as attractive as possible...
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Again not as expected, he was still cold to me, there we even just sat in the park seat** but no papa I am happy to be with him there is even progress ...I had a long chat today , want to know the side about him.Sadly it rained down hyks hyks..finally he went.but I did not stay silent directly buy an umbrella for him...and trying to take her to Aishi Lake, I forgot again that I wanted to remember my childhood when she helped me...
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Shit Shit Shit, I saw Aqua With the girl of the time....Even now closer Aqua took her....Is not Aqua my caloon??? Why do we do this Aquakun...I'm sick to know.I love you so much Aqua... Why are you being cold to me? At least explain **
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It had been a few days not to meet him, and I had not known the explanation of the girl, a miracle Ruby suddenly invited me to study at her house and Aqua who would teach her....I was nervous half-dead-leafed in Aqua's room and when Ruby left us. I asked about the girl and Aqua said it was her boyfriend....my heart was so broken hearing that he was being cynical and mean to me all this time because of having a girlfriend??? And he strongly wants to cancel this match.. Worse, he'll be perverted in my room until I slap him and finally run away... I felt sick of hate and love for him.
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This night there will be a meteor shower, really beautiful and miraculous my request granted Aqua apologized to me through a message...I'm glad he had his own initiative after what happened..
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.We met again and as usual everything did not go smoothly **..
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The family meeting was held again.and we would get engaged.yeay I could not hold back my pleasure but the person in front of me was annoyed to hear that but could not refuse it...
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I should have been happy after I was engaged to her, but I was just crying and sad.The most painful thing was that when she said that I had to DIE, she would love me.. Alright Aqua, keep your word.
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I decided this was not without cause, it was because I was still alive today because of your help at that time, I should have been gone in Aishi Lake at that time. So I feel responsible if you want me dead, if my life only makes you suffer like this, maybe you chose not to save me first right? you will regret it, right? Let me live. Aqua I'm sorry for being a burden to you but thank you for letting me live for these 10 years. Now I'll go where I want to.
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To the people closest to me, especially Mama, thank you for everything, thank you for loving me. I love you guys too. I do this for my gratitude to the man who has been my hero.
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Goodbye
June 20XX
Even at the last moment of my time, I saw Aqua kissing that person.
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I was still alive and Aqua saved me.. I hate him now
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Goodbye to the past, I will end it Now and live to be a new person in a new place and will focus on my career.
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Tokyo is the road ..
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I read every single one of Akane's books, my eyes were full of feelings for Akane, I didn't know that Akane was that little girl, I saw my cruel, guilt-ridden self.
Even the petals of the time it was taped to the book, the ticket I had torn was also attached to it was tidied up again, my profile note, a photo of our fiancee, stick ice cream after a date, etc, he stuck it there, that deep Akane's eyes on me. But I'm just blinded to revenge.
If I could turn back the clock, I would very much like to correct my attitude. I'm sorry Akane.