Love Me More!
Recognition

The sunlight that infiltrated the window managed to make me wake up from sleep, for a moment I was silent trying to collect my consciousness. I rubbed my eyes together, focusing my eyes on the clock hanging on the wall.

"Snake.."Mumamku.

Time shows at 9am, I can't believe I just slept after last night. I was fully aware that I had gotten out of bed to leave the room, but from above I saw my family gathered in the middle room. I asked him what happened, yes how not. Just this time I saw them gathering early in the morning as if talking about something serious. My thoughts drifted to Akane, has the girl told me everything?

Rather than me thinking where I ended up choosing to go down, before it came to them to say good morning. Mama has been babbling at me.

"Away awake?"He asked coldly without glancing at me. I felt bad at that moment. The people there suddenly acted cold. No one welcomes me.

Papa only focuses on the newspaper he reads while Ruby is engrossed in playing her phone.

"Yes" I nodded steadily.

Finally Mama's cold eyes glared at me sharply."Sitting"Haw shows the empty side next to him.

I looked at him in wonder but did not question anything because inevitably, ready not to be ready I had to face this situation, then I sat down as he told me. After I sat down they stopped their activities and focused on me.

"What's wrong?"I finally questioned the situation, because I felt uncomfortable being cornered.

Papa leaned in while looking at me deeply."Akane wants to cancel this match."He said firmly.

I was stunned to hear that,"Cancel this matchmaking?"I said repeating papa's statement, still not believing what I heard."Why?" Ask wonder. I know this is a silly question because I know the answer.

"That's what we want to talk about, why would Akane want to cancel it? He gave no clear reason other than not wanting to see you again." Obviously papa with an annoyed face."Throughout the hospital he didn't talk much, why was he there or whatever, so we wanted to know exactly what happened?" Papa asked for my confession.

I just lowered my head and exhaled a long breath, Mama who was beside me grasping my hand arrived.

"Aquakun, you know everything, right? You're not gonna cancel, are you? You guys are having a fight? Mama thinks you should see Akane." Said the restless mother.

I should have been happy in this situation, the thing that I wanted to finally happen was to want this matchmaking to be cancelled. But I didn't feel happy, a smile didn't appear at all after hearing Akane's wish, I instead felt annoyed that she decided after this incident, after I felt regret, I felt sorry, once I feel guilty, he might want to just run away.

"It's my fault and I'll bear it and take responsibility." I said firmly.

"What happened you haven't explained?"Ask Mama again to pressure me to reveal this incident.

I inhaled a deep breath to prepare to say it."I asked him to die and that night Akane committed suicide" I said trembling.

The atmosphere instantly turned silent as if digesting my words and her grasp of mama turned into a slap for me.

His eyes looked at me pushyly but filled with emotions of disbelief with what I had said, only the first time I saw him so. "How can you say such a cruel thing?" He screamed in front of my face."It's fitting that the girl wants to cancel this match, it's too much to put where our family's face."

papa tried to calm Mama whose emotions she had not said anything and Ruby just looked at me with an annoyed look and felt empathy, because she knew what my relationship with Akane was like.

After everything was somewhat controlled, Papa finally opened the conversation."Is it because of Taiki?" ask him calmly.

Instantly the question of papa hitting the target made my heart churn, and unconsciously my tears fell."I'm sorry, I haven't been able to accept his death." I said softly and trembled."If I can stop the time I want to continue to be in the moments with him, want to keep talking to him I don't want Oniisan to die, I want to sacrifice everything to make it back." My chest tightened as my memory returned to recall the oniisan that was always there for me.

My cry became even more after all this time I held him back and pretended to be strong, Oniisan who always strengthened me he was everything to me.

All this time I was always close to Oniisan, our parents were busy and he was like a parent to his younger brother.

Seeing my reaction, my mom hugged me."Forgive us, forgive mom, for not knowing your hurt feelings." she also sobbed. Everyone pondered on Taiki who had left us for almost half a year.

Now I'm pretty calm and can be logical." But now that I realize I'm wrong, I can't blame all this on Akane, my abusive partner for all this time, I regret it after almost killing her with my words."

"Mom knows Aquakun's a good boy." He stroked elus my back to calm me."Forgive mom and dad for always pushing you without paying attention to how you feel."

I wiped my wrinkled face."I'll take responsibility, I'll apologize for what I've done, even though this may not be redeemed by just saying sorry, I knew the oniisan also disliked my demonic attitude back then."

"I'll see him today."

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FLASHBACKS

My mind was not confused with staggered I tried to get close to the bed, my head felt dizzy and unconsciously I fell asleep.

I was in the vast meadow and there was only one tree growing there with its leafy leaves a man standing right beside the tree dressed in white with a wide smile waving at me.

Realizing it was Oniisan I ran straight towards him. I'm here as a kid maybe 7 years old.

I immediately hugged him."Niisan where have you been? Why did you leave me? I want to be with you." I whine while crying.

He patted my head." hey Aqua, you're all grown up how could you cry like that, men can't cry and have to be strong."

"I don't care, I just want to be with the niisan."

"I know Aqua's a great kid, you can continue to live your life, be independent and reliable right?" he looked at me warmly.

I just hooked a little.

"I'll continue to be with you and take care of you, so please move on with your life well."

I just stared at him."Is Niisan going to stay with me? Promise?"

He smiled and took my hand and pointed it at my chest."Yes, I will continue to be with you in your heart, I will stay there to spend the day with you, united with you Aqua. So promise me that you will live your life well, wisely in taking a good attitude?"

I nodded steadily.

The sunlight that infiltrated the window managed to make me wake up from sleep, for a moment I was silent trying to collect my consciousness.

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