Mr Love Love
Parsing the Past (Part2)

Unraveling the Past!

I think it's the right title if I'm asked what I'm doing right now. I tried to be careful that every hurup I would string into words would not hurt Sabina. But still, no matter how good I try bad things will still leave a wound.

I tried to take a deep breath and then exhale it rough from the lips, hoping that after this my courage would be gathered perfectly.

"Sir Aleta fell in love with an ordinary man, their love was not a day or two. Their love is so deep that they can sacrifice the lives of one and the other. Papa rejected the man on the grounds that he was not a good man.

That night for the first time I saw Aleta's sister angry. He left home in a sad state.

While Mama? Mama could only cry seeing Aleta suffer. Maybe Mama thought her calm daughter changed in a matter of seconds and it affected her soul." My words are stuck in my throat. I tried to control the breathing that was starting to feel heavy.

Sabina increasingly linked her lentic finger to my finger, occasionally patting my arm, trying to calm down.

"Mas Araf is crying again? I'm sorry. If it feels heavy, get here." Sabina said as tears landed on her beautiful face.

"It's okay. Even if it hurts, I promise to hold it. You being by my side tonight alone has given me the greatest power of my life."

"alright. Do whatever Mas Araf wants, if it's hard promise me you'll stop."

"Yes, I will. I'll stop if I can't help it!" I said as I stared at the shady Netra Sabina. Without me asking Sabina to immediately wipe the corner of my eye with her tapered fingers.

"There are no tears, and there is no need to be sad anymore. Mas Araf got it?"

I nodded as I pinched Sabina's nose, she looked even more beautiful since she decided to close her Aurat, I think her little niece Meyda Noviana Fazila has given a new color to my Sabin life, and I'm grateful for that.

"Sir Aleta left the house with her swollen eyes. I remember that night Aleta asked me to take care of Mama and Papa, two hours after she left the house four men in medical clothes came to our house while carrying the body of Aleta's sister, one of the men said Kak Aleta's car had an accident and hit a roadblock. Her lover died at the scene, and Aleta's sister died on the way to the hospital with serious injuries to her head.

Mama hysterical. Even after two months of her departure, Aleta Mama still looks like an undead. I blame the departure of Aleta because of Papa's selfish behavior, I even dared to talk rudely to Papa. Like any other parent, Papa slapped me, I fell down and the corner of my lips bled."

I shed tears again considering Mama's condition at that time.

"I thought being a submissive son would be useless, that moment I turned into a dissident and grumpy son. Because Papa forbade Aleta from dating the person she loves, then I swore I would date any woman as a form of protest and annoyance to Papa."

Hhmmm!

Sabina let out a rough sigh, but it made me turn to look at her with a curious look.

"Why are you breathing out? Did my words upset you?"

"Yes, I'm upset!" Reply Sabina ketus.

"Don't I tell you you're going to be upset, have we just finished this pointless talk?" I asked while holding Sabina's chin. Beyond my expectations, Sabina shook her head instead, a sign that she disagreed.

"I was upset with my father-in-law, because he Araf I turned into a hot-tempered, dissident and a playboy. Just look at it later, I will definitely return the favor!" Sabina said with a furious voice. His face looks upset.

Honestly, hearing Sabina's words gave me goosebumps. I never thought angry words would come out of her thin lips.

"W-what? How can you say that? How can you repay Papa? Didn't you say you loved Mama and Papa very much?" I asked as I lifted Sabina's head from my lap, helping her to sit down.

"Now tell me, how are you going to repay Papa?" I asked again out of curiosity.

"I'll put salt in the tea!"

"What's? Salt!" My eyes were round in disbelief, I wanted to laugh.

"When are you gonna do that?"

"What's? Tonight then? We're here while Papa's at his house, how are you gonna do it?"

"Dreams! I'll do it in my dreams." Sabina's chirps while clenching both of her hands.

Ahaha!

Instead of being angry, I chuckled at Sabina's sweet words. Somehow he could make such a strange joke. My night feels colorful hearing his short speech. I admire him more, love him, and respect him more.

Is this what is called the paradise of love? I wonder in my heart, a question that won't get an answer.

It is strange this feeling of love, in just a few seconds I realized I was filled with love, love that grew, grew and continued to grow.

"You know you're very, very, very adorable!" I pinched Sabina's nose again without removing the smile from my thin lips.

"iiihh! Mas Araf is naughty!" Sabina tried to take my hand off her nose.

"Thank you for choosing me to be a part of your life! Just by looking at your face the calmness began to fill my chest cavity. Without a doubt I say I love you so much!" I cupped Sabina's face with both hands, floating a kiss on the top of her head. For a long time I was in that position until I could feel my blood flowing ten times faster.

A second later Sabina started to lean her head on my shoulder.

"Can I ask you a question?" Sabina again opened her voice between the silence of the air.

"Ask whatever you want, I'll answer your question without any lies." My reply was short, I tightened my arms around Sabina's slender body, while my sprained legs were placed on the table.

"Mas Araf said Mas Araf dated a lot of women, how did Mas Araf cut ties with the girls?"

I want to rub my chest to hear Sabina's question, I don't think I want to reveal my ugliness in front of her. With a heavy heart I began to reveal everything.

"I dumped the girl by dating the other girl in front of her, making out in front of her while pretending not to see her!"

Hmmmmm!

Sabina again let out a rough sigh, and this is why I don't want to talk. For me the past is just the past and I don't want to turn back. I know that remembering the past is foolish and futile.

"If I asked how many girls Mas Araf was dating, I'm sure Mas Araf wouldn't remember how many. The last question is, did any of those girls manage to steal your peace every night? Did any of them manage to make you sad while away from her?" Sabina asked with a heavy voice. This time we fought each other.

Sabina was waiting for an answer. While me? I don't want to say anything. I'm speechless. I did not dare to stare at Sabina for too long, I got up from the sofa and stood by the table.

"Say, Mas Araf! I'm waiting for your answer!" Babe Sabina is impatient.

"A-there. Sa-tu!" I said nervously.

"Tell me about him! I want to hear it. From Mas Araf I am sure she must be an amazing girl! Even though I never saw or knew him I was very jealous of him." Sabina said with a heavy voice.

"I hate Papa so much, my hatred for him cannot be expressed in words. Every day I'm getting riotous, fighting, racing wild, playing with women. I even burned the principal's car.

Papa was very angry, without my permission Papa put me in medical school. Of course I revolted, though I was angry I lasted a year. But, after that without Papa's permission I enrolled in the campus of the University Of Oxford. Mama refused my wish, I decided to keep going because I was fed up with all the things I met." I paused for a moment, took a deep breath and then exhaled it roughly from my lips.

Sabina was still silent, I'm sure she was still listening to me. Out of curiosity I turned towards him, and it was true that he sat down while looking at my back.

"Are you sure you still want to hear my story? I'm sure after this you'll definitely hate me, I don't want to see my moody Sabina." I tried to convince Sabina, approached her, sat down next to her and then clasped her clasped fingers, looking at her lovingly. Wishing he'd say 'enough to get here' was actually just my imagination.

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