Mr Love Love
Admire You

Mas Araf's car sped up quickly, through a fairly quiet road. Ever since she sat in the steering chair and I sat next to her there was no meaningful conversation that came out from the oral of the two of us.

We just talk potluck. When Araf asked, I answered with a short and uncomplicated answer. Just this time I feel irritated to talk, usually I am always enthusiastic in everything. I acted like this because I was not used to the awkward conditions.

"Did Mama know you started wearing a hijab? What do you think if he's against it?" Asked Araf without looking at me, his eyes straight ahead.

I looked at Araf with a look of wonder, my forehead wrinkled. I think the question is a little strange.

"I am sure that no one will oppose, closing the law is the commandment of Allah in the Qur'an. I never thought about using it before.

Thanks to Fazila I began to realize that closing the aurat had to be done. There is no compulsion from anyone, the choice of closing the pure aurat comes from the heart as a form of my obedience to the Power, not because I consider myself better than anyone, the truth is I have to improve my quality and the quality of my worship.

I never said anything to Mom and Dad. I just told Fatimah's sister-in-law. He supported me, and that was enough for me." My words were long and wide, Mas Araf who heard my words could only nod his head.

I don't know what her little brain thinks until her handsome face carves a smile. Should I ask why she looks happy? Hmmm, I guess I'll never be able to do that.

"Today all the family and close neighbors will gather at Mama's house, I tell you, in our big family there are some people who might just be tough on you. If he says anything bad about you, then I can't defend you because you're not with you, you can either reply with a scorn or with a slap."

"Damnox? A slap? That's so overrated! I'm not that bad. I admit my emotions can sometimes explode, but I wouldn't act that way on an older person." I said while staring at the beautiful face of Araf.

Instead of returning my words, again he could only smile in silence. I'm not a fortune teller, I don't know his future nor the meaning behind his beautiful smile. I don't know what Araf's mind is, whatever it is I hope it's not a bad thing.

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The car I was driving was speeding away without any interruption. Thank goodness I didn't get stuck in a long traffic jam like normal days.

A middle-aged Security man quickly opened the iron gates of the magnificent residence where my family lived, Mama, Papa, and my two sisters, Nilam and Rey.

"Good morning Mas Araf, how are you?"

"My news is good, Mr. Gus. After a long time of not seeing each other, Mr. Gus is getting handsome." My Guyon without taking off the gaze of the middle-aged man who had already devoted half his life to my family. There was no reply from him other than the sound of laughter. He knows I like to joke.

It turned out that Sabina was not a spoiled girl. He even gently refused when Gus wanted to open the car door for him, which led to my smile. Although it looks simple, but I can capture the meaning contained in it.

"Welcome Miss, everyone is waiting for you." Said as soon as he appeared out of nowhere.

"Sorry kang, I didn't accidentally." Reply bi Isah while holding the shoulder of his cousin's sister.

"Sir Gus will definitely forgive aunt, now let's go in!" Pinta Sabina while holding Isah's arm.

I can't take my eyes off the two women of different generations who are currently walking away from me. Somehow I feel proud of Sabina, they are in different leprosy but she does not feel at all uncomfortable about the existence of the maid she holds her hand. Really, this situation is very different compared to the people I knew. I don't know how she is, I hope she's okay. Since that night there was no communication between the two of us.

A second later I walked in Sabina's footsteps from behind her, watching from toe to head. He looks foreign to me, probably because I've never seen him wear loose clothing like the one he uses today, I'm sure over time I'll get used to him.

"Hay baby... Welcome!" Mama walked over to Sabina then hugged her.

"Mama how are you?"

"Good, baby. Since yesterday Mama wanted to see you, but your Papa always forbade Mama. He said we shouldn't bother the newlyweds." Babe Mama patting my arm. A second later he started walking without taking his hand off Sabina's fingers. Walk towards the sofa.

"Since last night your mother couldn't sleep because she was waiting for your arrival. To Papa's surprise, the hotel manager said you didn't sleep in the bridal room. Where'd you go?"

Glekkk!

I swallowed the saliva while looking at Papa's astonished face. Every letter he strung together into words sounded very frightening in my sense of hearing.

I'm not afraid of Papa, whom I fear Mama will start asking with bullying questions. Where the hell am I going? What the hell am I doing? Don't do this! Don't be! I don't know what other questions Mama will ask, if she finds out I'm back home then I won't survive her anger.

For the time being I can only look at Sabina with a pleading gaze. It was as if my gaze was saying 'Please save me from Mama's anger'

The Sabina I was looking at only gave a casual response. I felt like I wanted to stroke my chest, vent my frustration by leaving the house like I used to. I'm ready to go. But I stopped my urge when I heard Sabina start to open her voice between the silence of the air.

"Mr... Sabina asked Mas Araf not to return to the hotel. Tired of all the processions we went through, Sabina asked Araf to go out into the open with the Stars and the Moon as her light."

"Waw baby, it turns out we're not much different. Mama is like that too. Mom pulled your dad so he wouldn't go to the hotel. We went to the beach to enjoy the fresh air, we slept in the car. The next morning we went back to the hotel and slept all day." Babe Mama full of passion. It turns out that the reason Sabina managed to bring Mama back to a beautiful memory that she might have forgotten.

There is still a distance between the two of us, but I admit my admiration is growing for you. What will be our next story I also do not know it, I can not just guess. I murmured in my heart while looking at Sabina's face filled with a smile, maybe it was just a smile of pretense or it could be a smile that came from the heart, I don't know that and I don't want to know either. All I want is to see my mom happy.

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