My husband is in the room of my best friend
The Past of Ariel and Luna

After Noah left, Luna had no interest in spending the ice cream that was still a little leftover, he chose to throw the ice cream into the trash. Rujak and the light of the moon he put in the refrigerator and his snacks he put on the shelf next to the refrigerator. He has no interest in spending it all.

After finishing cleaning up the collared food on the chairs and tables, Luna sat down next to Ariel. He looked at Ariel who was closing her eyes. While the phone had sounded, but Luna did not ignore it. Because he knows, the phone must be Dion.

Today, Luna is also not in the mood to pick up a phone from Dion. He just wants to be alone and reflect on his mistakes.

"Am I really wrong here?" he looked at Ariel's face.

"I should have listened to your words, right, not to take Laras to Jakarta? I should have listened to you, so that Laras would not stay one roof with us. I shouldn't have forced you, should I have accepted Laras work at our restaurant? I shouldn't have forced you either, to drive Laras to the restaurant when at that time, I knew you were uncomfortable but for my sake, you had to do it. I created that opportunity for both of you. I made your distance closer to make Laras fall in love and want to feel what I feel. I was not being assertive, so it made Laras think I would definitely accept it if she wanted a position to be a second wife. I am also the one who caused you to end up tempted with all her seduction.

I am aware of my mistake. It is not good that there is a third person among us. Just like Dion in the midst of us. You should not want me to go out often, you always ask me to wait for you to come home if you really want to go for a walk. I thought, you used to be so possessive. Until I feel in brackets in a golden cage. But after you accepted my request, you brought the driver for me, in fact I was comfortable with him. I was comfortable talking to him, going for a walk together.

In the end, I am also just like you, stuck feeling towards others. The difference is, you can't hold your breath, while I can. Well, I admit. The weakness of men lies in women, while the weakness of women is money. I don't know who's wrong here. But I feel like we are all wrong. I was wrong for presenting Laras in our midst, you are also wrong for not being strong in faith. Even when I give you a chance many times, you who already feel good, do not want to stop and instead ignore my feelings.

Laras is also wrong, already know you're my husband, but he still teases his best friend's husband. Everything is wrong and nothing is right.

I was also wrong to keep complaining, because I felt I was in brackets. I know you are taking care of me.

Even if in Islam, it is appropriate that the wife stay at home and can go out if there is a husband who accompanies her. But I who do not know myself, continue to whine, until finally you do not have the heart and grant it. Now after what I want, you do it. I was stuck with a feeling I shouldn't have. I was trapped by my own toys.

I'm confused not knowing what to do? But obviously, to give you one more chance, I can't. Because you're too deep to disappoint me. If you had stopped when I reminded him, when I gave you a chance, I might still want to. Because I assume if the previous one, maybe you are khilaf. But, the thing is, the opportunity I give you, you always ignore it. You don't seem to care about the warning I'm saying. And now that all this has happened, you're just sorry. If I had, don't embarrass you. I'm sure, you and Laras will definitely be as arbitrary as I am, you guys will definitely underestimate me. You guys will definitely continue to commit adultery or get married quietly behind my back. You'll put Laras first rather than me. You will definitely continue to ignore me and just focus on the same.

But for some reason, seeing and hearing your suffering, also can not make my heart calm. I feel guilty for Papa Ardi and Mama Ila. Because they have to be victims of my selfishness." Luna shed tears.

"I know that I have sinned, because I have hurt many people and disobeyed my husband, I have spread the disgrace of our household to become the talk of many people. And they shouldn't know about our household."

"Mas Ariel, I forgive you, I forgive all your mistakes and I hope you forgive all my mistakes. Even though we later split up, and did not become husband and wife again. I wish we could be good friends. And I hope we can be good parents for our children. We do fail in marriage, but we must not fail to be parents" said Luna, holding Ariel's hand tightly.

After Luna felt enough to talk at length, she took a small towel and water and wiped her husband's body. He bathed Ariel with the towel he was holding.

"You remember the first time we got married and I was sick. You cried so much beside me, but I only had a high fever, not to die. But you kept crying all night. I even yelled at you because the sound of your crying bothered me who was resting. When I didn't shower for two days, you wiped my body like this. You are also willing to go to the kitchen and make porridge for me, even though it tastes bland, but I am willing to eat and finish it because I do not want to disappoint you. You even fed me painstakingly. You always remind me to take medicine, even when I don't want to, you'll do everything you can to get me to take the medicine."

"I also remember when you fought with your best friend. At that time, Anton came to our house to visit you and let go of the kangen because he had almost half a year not met. But because Anton sees me constantly, you get angry and emotional. Even you and Anton bumped into each other until they ended up in the hospital. From that moment on, you didn't receive any male guests for fear that someone would take me away from you. Though I might not be interested in other guys besides you, right? You also forbid me to come out, because you're afraid I'll be taken with them. Though I am not a child, who will easily follow them or turn to other men. You are a parno and jealous of the little things. After that your attitude began to change, you were like locking me up at home. And can't be out except with you. Even to go to the market with Auntie, you won't let her."

"You also began to restrict me from connecting with others including my own family. You always live in fear, fear that I will walk away from your life. I'm not going anywhere and I'm going to be right next to you."

"Don't my family, neither your own family are you afraid, afraid that I will be close to them and forget about you. You are afraid to lose me, sometimes I want to laugh, but also sad at the same time. It turns out that being loved too deeply is also not good, because everything I do is limited and wrong."

"I was used to it at first, but over time I got bored. I want to fight but I can't either. Finally I can only obey but in my heart, I'm always a gerundel."

Luna continuously talked about the past while wiping Ariel's body. LUna hopes that with her talking about the past, Ariel will respond to her, and soon realize.