MySam
Confession Feelings

"Mom, Am wants pizza.." Whimper the Ocean.

"Pizza--? Am mamam at his cafe mommy how?"

The ocean shook rapidly and sulked. "Wouldn't...! I want pizza...!" whining again.

"But it's too far from here."

"No...!! Am anyway want pizza, mommy.." whine the boy again.

Maya took a deep breath, and finally nodded her head at Ocean's request.

"Sir Kardi, back to Pizza Hut." Instructions from Maya.

Mr. Kardi nodded obediently. "Non good."

The silver sedan also turned the direction and drove back amid the hustle and bustle of Jakarta that afternoon.

....

Once they have arrived at the sprawling parking lot of a fast food restaurant building, Maya and Samudra come out of a futuristic-shaped sports sedan.

The ocean as usual walked by tightly holding Maya's arm.

It really looks like a bodyguard to his adoptive mother.

"Moms be careful the way," said Samudra, then replied by a nod and a smile from Maya.

Once the two entered the main door of the largest pizza restaurant in Jakarta, spontaneously only a few pairs of eyes were fixed on the funny figure of Samudra.

It was as if they looked anxious at what the boy was doing.

The ocean even slowly shifts the restaurant chair to Maya, so her mommy can sit down.

"What pizza would I want?" ask Maya while putting down her matcha-colored wallet.

"Am wants a big box, beef pizza with a lot of mozarela, mommy.." replied the Ocean of spirit.

"Okey, I'm waiting here."

Maya stood up and grabbed her long wallet.

Just now he was standing and turning around, suddenly the figure of a burly man complete with formal clothes and smelling fragrant, standing right in front of him holding both shoulders Maya.

Less than an inch of Maya's face touched the chest of the field clad in a light gray shirt with a balzzer that was also matching color but slightly darker in color.

"You sit here, let me order for you" said the owner of the very distinctive heavy voice.

Maya looked up, raising her face to find out who owned the heavy voice that sounded like opium.

Although inwardly, Maya could already guess who the man who was blocking her body was at the moment.

"S.....?"

The two Maya netra glared as if thinking, why do they always meet accidentally like this.

"Why are you here?" ask Maya spontaneously. Stupid question, Maya inner later.

"Eating pizza...." Dean pulled both of his eyebrows while answering a question from Maya. The slightly gray lips also attracted a slight small smile. Maybe it feels very funny when you hear the question of the beautiful woman who is two-bodied.

"Owh-iya hehehe sorry I forgot this pizza place, hehehe." Maya chuckles small.

"Hi Am....!" greet Dean.

The ocean sitting behind the table smiled and waved at Dean.

"Om Dean.." she answered.

"You guys sit down, let me order it for Am." Dean repeated the sentence.

"No, let me just Dean. It's not too crowded anyway."

Dean looked towards Maya with a serious expression. "Let me, you sit guard Am. Okay?" dean's toilet.

Maya finally complied, she simply nodded slowly and sat back down on the chair that was in front of the Ocean.

"Mommy-mommy.." exclaimed the Ocean when Dean had stepped away from them.

"Yes Am?"

"Om Dean's good, huh? Am feeling if Om Dean millip(similar) same daddy."

Maya was silent for a moment.

"If there are others who are good with Am, how should Am try?"

"Say thanks....?" reply Samudra.

"Printers....."

Maya stroked the top of Ocean's fist on the restaurant table.

...

After a few minutes, Dean stepped back to the table Maya and Samudra while carrying a tray containing two glasses of cold and warm drinks.

"It's orange cold juice for Am. Om deliberately not pesenin coke, Am can not drink soft drinks," said Dean while putting orange juice glass towards the Ocean.

"Thank you Dean...."

"Yes, baby." Dean answered.

"And warm chocolate for you, May." Dean this time thrust toward Maya a ceramic cup filled with warm chocolate that was so creamy.

"Thanks." -."

"With my pleasure." Dean nodded.

"You shouldn't bother like this, Dean."

Dean looked at Maya for a moment, then smiled slightly and turned his gaze towards the cool Ocean enjoying the pizza slice that a few minutes ago was delivered by a restaurant employee.

"How many times have I told you that I never felt you bothered."

Maya again felt bad, as if what she had in mind was inversely proportional to what Dean had said just now.

"Love Dean."

"Yes, you don't have to worry about Maya. Anyway I'll never ask for anything in return for what I did for you."

Maya heard it. All of Dean's words and deeds were exactly the same as Samuel's treatment of him.

"Oh-yes Dean, I heard that you're also working with Papa Permana's company?"

Dean nodded.

"Hm-iya. My company with the Permana company, Sam's father is indeed in stock cooperation."

"Have you ever been to their house?" ask Maya.

Dean shook his head in response. And for a moment there was only silence, while the Ocean was still cool to enjoy another menu in the big box pizza.

"Desa....."

"Hmm?"

"How do you know about Elano?" ask Maya later.

"Yesterday at dinner, you called Elano and when Samudra went to the hospital-you also called Am-eem-not my son and Sam?" Maya whispered a little.

"Honestly, Dean, you're not planning anything bad against us, are you?" Maya this time to the point. He asked all the questions he had in mind.

Maya throws both eyes when she hears Dean's confession.

"I told you that time, right, dinner at your house-if I like you."

Dean spoke seriously, staring fixedly at Maya.

"I don't care if you're pregnant. I've loved you since the first time we met on my dinner invitation." Dean continued, as if he did not give Maya a chance to speak.

"I saw you walking with Samuel, your husband. And you know how I felt at that time?" Dean paused for a second. Back staring at the soft black slices of Maya's pitch.

"I was like seeing a goddess walking towards me May. But damn it---"

Dean's back paused.

"His luck, the woman has become someone else's."

"Please don't keep going again...."

"No Maya, I have to be frank with you. I can no longer bear this feeling anymore. You know what drives me crazy with this heart?"

Maya speechless.

"Please Dean, there's an ocean here. I don't want him to hear anything wrong." Maya interrupts.

Making Dean glance briefly at the Ocean who was still seen enjoying the food in front of him.

Dean sighed for a moment.

Without Maya noticing, Dean stood up and grabbed her hand.

"I want to talk to you with four eyes."

"I can't."

"I beg you for a moment." Dean stared intently as if requiring Maya to obey what Dean had said.

"I promise I won't hurt you, please....."

Maya doesn't want Dean standing there holding tightly to one hand, she really doesn't want to be the center of attention by the people at the restaurant.

"Just five minutes, nothing more." Maya answered at last.

Dean nodded and took off his grip.

"I'll wait there." Dean pointed in one direction, an empty chair in the corner of the restaurant, close to the restaurant's large window. Dean walked out first to leave Maya.

"Am, mommy wants to talk to Dean for a second, okay? I'll just eat the pizza."

"Mommy doesn't want pizza?"

Maya shakes. "Habisin Am. Mommy's not far, Am not going anywhere."

The ocean nodded. "Yes mommy..."

Maya smiles briefly at the Ocean and strokes the top of her head.

A short time later, Maya walks to the end of the room to meet Dean who is sitting waiting for her.

"What do you want to talk about?" ask Maya who then sits right in front of Dean.

"I want you to be my wife, May."

"Don't be crazy, Dean."

"I'm sorry but you're right, I'm crazy about you."

Look Dean's eyes are weakening.

"Dean, I'm married to Samuel and I love my husband. You seen? It's the fruit of our love." Maya pauses for a while while pointing towards her distended stomach.

"Fruit of love we've been waiting for Dean for so long. And I can't be that stupid to let go of everything I've had all this time" Maya continued.

"I know...."

"Then....?"

"I don't care. I can give you anything you want. What Sam can't do, I can give you everything."

"Son, I don't want to."

"Your face even the one that always appears in my wild fantasies May. And-- when I do her with the other women-your faces are always showing up."

Dean's voice weakened.

Maya even threw her face the other way. She doesn't want to see the two men Maya knows if what she's saying is the truth.

"Dean--" Maya pauses for a while.

"You know if Sam has an older brother?" tanya Maya tried to divert Dean's conversation.

Dean nodded slowly and made Maya come back in wonder.

"You're also investigating the Permana family?" ask Maya spontaneously.

Dean nodded back.

"I was curious about them, I felt like a Dejavu when I saw Permana and his wife."

Netra Maya.

"I also felt the same way when I saw their old house." Dean continued.

"And did you feel that feeling when you were with Sam?"

Dean did not reply, he just took a heavy breath.

"I don't know...."

Maya also breathed.

"Sorry Dean, it's been too long. I have to get back to the Ocean."

"But May...."

"Meet me at my cafe tomorrow. There's still something I want to talk about the Permana family and you."

"Then....What about how I feel about you?"

Maya took a long breath.

"We'll also talk about it tomorrow" Maya replied.

"All right," nodded Dean.

"Excuse me, I have to go."

Dean stood up as the woman who became his opium got up from her seat.

"Thank you for the pizza."

Dean nodded slowly in response.

He could not even prevent Maya's departure. Dean just looked at the back nanar in a peach color.

I don't know why I'm this crazy, May.

to be continue....