Nackal Duda
Tara's Request

Honestly hearing Tara's words made a speck of guilt slip into the recesses of my heart. I used to be that busy.

The showroom I have is a small showroom. Competition is getting faster but my capital is less. Want to apply for a loan has been stamped a fairly large home installment.

I survived a small showroom and was just an employee I hired. That's also the employees lift sales as well as admin and clean-up section.

I am too. Showroom owners who double as sales and employees. We both worked hard to advance my showroom.

I left early in the morning and came home late at night. I came home tired and just wanted to sleep. I work sometimes in weekends. Sales are more crowded than a normal day.

I rarely take off. After the holidays, rest and just get to have fun with Tara. That's right Tara said, I'm too busy. I've forgotten it.

I never attended his family's show. I busy. I didn't know that Tara felt so depressed being there.

"Currently, I realize. You are busy. You didn't come at a family event to defend me. You have not given me great wealth. But I feel happier living with you than with Damar. Only now do I realize, busy you first because you fight for our love. You love me in your way. That's why I feel so lost to you, Gas. I look happy but it's just a no-man's empty shell,"

"I've filed for divorce. I've been aware of my mistakes all along with you, Gas. We are both wrong and we learn from our mistakes. Can't we go back to our dream? You remember, you said if you were successful, you would buy a house with a large yard and would make a tree house? A dream that has kept me smiling to this day. Why a tree house? Why not a swimming pool? You remember that, don't you?" tara asked with a smile.

I just nodded without a smile. Flat.

"You used to say the same to me, we're going to age together while running our more and more showroom business. You will have many employees and this business will be passed down for generations for our grandchildren later. You remember, right?"

I nodded again. I just let him open an old story that I honestly still dream of until now.

"It's not too late, Gas. We can still re-knit all our dreams and ideals. I was wrong once. You also can not be separated from wrong. I realized my mistake and I want to fix everything with you. I can see from your gaze, there is still my name in your heart. And you can see too, right? I still love you as I used to. Let's start all over again from the beginning. You can leave Tari or you still have it but make me second. I don't mind, let's just say it's my consequence of leaving you" Tara said expectantly.

Had these words come out of Tara's mouth when I was down, I wouldn't have thought twice and would have agreed to her request to re-refer and knit dreams together. However, these words were actually spoken after Tara regretted that the path she took was wrong. These words were actually spoken when I was just starting to get to know the figure of Dance that has brought many changes in my life.

The path that looks smooth at the beginning but it turns out after passing it is actually more damaged than the first path. Then, Tara willingly wanted to move again to the first lane. He left the path he had been on and it was easy to think he could go back to the first.

Do you think that I am a person who is so receptive to the mistakes He has made and accepts back his presence that has inflicted so many wounds?

"Honestly, I never knew what was going on with your family. In my family also often insinuate about why we have not been awarded a child, but I never responded. All I did was prevent you from hearing it directly. It's my way of protecting you from the pain of my family's spicy words. Not that I've ever fought at all. Hiding it. I told you, if the show was so painful, don't come. But you forced. You reasoned not to want to be a talking material. What outcome? Every time you come home from there, you become more sensitive and scold me often,"

"I don't really want to talk about the past anymore. I just want to set the record straight so you know that I don't really care like that. I told you, I accept you for who you are. However, I have always been lacking in your eyes. Now, after we split up and you have a partner as well as me, you want to let go of your partner and come back with me. What about my partner? Even if you say that I still love you, I will never hurt the woman who is now beside me just for your selfishness." I said at length.

"But you don't love Dance, Gas! You just feel sorry for the village boy! Your love is only for me! If you stay with her, you just give her hope and you just hurt her constantly. I asked you, can you give me the love you gave me?" ask Tara confidently.

"Maybe in your eyes Dance is just a country girl that I will never love. Maybe you think, Dance is not my taste when compared to many of my other dates. And you're right, I still love you! However, I would never let go of Dance just for the love of me being with you -" unfinished I spoke Tara had cut off my words.

"It doesn't need to be removed. We can stay in the household even though I am no longer the first wife. You can have me and Dance at the same time. What harm? There are a lot of guys out there who do things like that. I'm sure you can do it!" tara said with excitement.

I've reached the workshop that Tara told you about. I got into the parking lot because I knew our conversation wasn't over.

"Polygamy? It never crossed my mind to do that. I can't follow all your will. I already belong to someone else even though Dance is not a perfect wife, yet I am happy to have her as my wife. When it comes to love, now I'm starting to love her. Dance is a sincere person and worthy of my love. It's only a matter of time until I can completely replace you with him." I opened the car keys. "We have arrived! You come down!"

"Gas, you think about it first. Don't make decisions so soon. Think about when you are calm. I'll assume what I heard today never existed."

"There's nothing else I need to think about. I am sure of my decision. Don't expect me anymore. I have my own family!" I said spicy and straight hit the gas after Tara came down and closed the door.

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