Not the Surrogate Mother
The buried will not return

"Vin?" greet at once ask out of the lips of Kailandra.

"I'm sorry, Kai. May God give your mama the best place by His side." The figure that is none other than Kalvin was extending his hand to shake Kailandra's hand.

"Thank you, Vin." Kailandra welcomes Kalvin's hand.

"I came back just to get my work file. I happen to hear this sad news. That's why before I get back here." Kalvin explained even though Kailandra did not ask about his appearance.

Kailandra only replied with a faint smile. Then he invited Kalvin to the middle room where the casket of Love was located.

"I'm sorry for your mistake, Vin. If all this time you have been very strict and often say hurtful words, please forgive me. Say also sorry on behalf of my mother to Karina," said Kailandra with all humility he conveyed the apology sincerely.

Kalvin replied with a nod of his head. Unintentionally, the man's eyes caught the figure that recently managed to make his mind quite tormented. Not ready to meet again and do not want to say goodbye to the second time to the person who with a heavy heart left behind, Kalvin also rushed to retreat.

After Calvin left her. Thailand sits cross-legged on the right side of the coffin. The man read Surah Yasin and was very solemn. The tightness in the chest of Kailandra again spilled when the reading reached the end of the verse. The shadow of love seems to be clearly visible in plain sight. The anger of the mother this morning returned. Until the tears of Kailandra spilled again.

"Azhuu, Bang. Istighfars." Kailani, who had just positioned herself beside Kailandra, continued to try to give strength.

"I'm nyesel, Kai. Mom was right, I never made you proud. Happy mama I have not been able to," said Kailandra in between sobs. There is a sense of regret, sadness and also anger that is implied from the emphasis in every word he said.

"I don't know what to say to strengthen my brother's heart right now. I also can not string words to give comfort and proper reinforcement for Brother. Death is the only thing that will happen. We just don't know when death will come. Death can be eternal farewell. Because we ourselves cannot be sure when we meet again with those who left us first. Even when we are both lifeless once, not necessarily God will bring us to meet them there."

Kailani's words just now made Kailandra sob. The regret in his chest was so squeezing. It can be said, at the end of the age of Love, debate for the sake of debate that fills the relationship of Kailandra with women who have given birth and raised it.

Kailani rubbed the back of Kailandra's hand so gently. Ignored, several pairs of petaziah eyes were staring at him and Kailandra with a questionable gaze. The average already knows the status of Kailandra is now a widower. However, they did not expect at all if the handsome man who became their business relationship was so fast to get a new life companion.

Gaining tremendous support from Kailani, a little reassuring Kailandra's heart. Before long, the man asked Kailani to sleep or rest for a while before they would leave for the funeral. While Kailandra itself decided to return together petaziah who deliberately wanted to accompany him until the body of Kasih buried later.

Approaching the departure time to the funeral, Kenzo arrives with Keiko and the baby twins. Kailani asked her ex-husband for help to take her children there. The three are brought close to Kasih's coffin.

"Kei, forgive Oma Kasih, huh? Oma Kasih has left us. Oma was angry because Oppa often made Oma Kasih angry." Kailandra grabbed the body of Keiko's puffer, carrying the boy into his carry.

"Oppa recalcitrant, huh? Not the same Oma?" Keiko asked with her innocence.

Kailandra nodded slowly, his eyes unfocused. "Kei's a good boy, yeah. Sama nurut. Never make you cry."

Kailani approaches Kailandra and Keiko. Her cries stretched out to rub Kailandra's sturdy arms. As for what the man's heart was right now, Kailani knew exactly how it felt. He has felt the same way.

The funeral time has arrived. Considering the baby twins were still very small, they did not take part to take the Oma to the final resting place. And Keiko as well. Kailandra did not want her first daughter to see and feel her sadness any longer.

The funeral was done well. One by one the farewell leaves the wet ground now perfectly covered with a sprinkling of white roses. Leave Kailandra and Kailani who are still resting next to the center.

Kailandra's right hand continues to rub the sign engraved with the name of Kasih. A few times an apology came from his lips. Kailani chose silence. Deliberately letting Kailandra take time to shed its grief.

The sky is getting cloudy. The thick gray wisps slowly closed the blue. The wind is getting stronger. The loss of frangipani flowers around the tomb does not disturb the silence between Kailandra and Kailani.

"That is buried, will not return. As long as we are here, Ms. Love will still lie down there. His true death is a reminder to those of us who are still breathing. No one can be sure when and how death comes. Death doesn't wait until the man we're about to leave is ready." Kailani broke the silence with a soft voice.

"One day we'll be down there, Bang. And maybe the kids will take our place now. In what way death invites us, it is the full power of God. The departure of Bu Kasih makes reflection for us, how controlling the words and actions are a must. Hurting one's heart is heavier. Because people have more difficulty accepting forgiveness than to Allah" Kailani added. Then he stood up.

"Maybe you need some time alone. I'll go home first, Bang. Life does not stop here. There are children to think about. I failed at being a wife. And I don't want to fail being a mother."

Kailandra put his own face up. He looked into Kailani's eyes. "I didn't just fail at being a husband, Kai. I also failed to be a child."

"If you continue here and dissolve yourself in regret or sadness. Do not rule out the possibility, you can also fail to become a father," said Kailani. His voice was clearly trembling because Kailani herself did not speak it.