Not the Surrogate Mother
Be married

Kailandra returned Kailani's sad gaze. "We've both failed at marriage, Kai. Whether or not a marriage, of course it all depends on who and how to live it. Getting married without love is not easy. Without me explaining, I think you'd understand that, too."

"It doesn't seem fair to get married just to save a child's status. Why go through and give them something fake? Not better, maybe later there will be new problems." Kailani's gaze seemed empty as she said it.

"Then learn to open your heart, Kai. Degrade your ego. Immerse yourself if not only children need a father figure. You also need a man as a husband, Kai. If it's hard to love now, choose a man who loves you. Let him slowly change your heart."

Kailani flinched without a word. Without warning, a clear grain dripped from the corner of his eye patch. Realizing consciously, the life he lives today is very contrary to the existing social normal. If only Kailani lived in a densely populated village, maybe he had become the lips of the community there.

Kailandra circles the lips of an empty glass on a table with its index fingers. He could understand the current turmoil of Kailani's heart. About love, he thought it was far from the woman's imagination. It wasn't easy for someone like Kailani to entrust her heart back to someone else.

"Oppa, accompany Keiko to make PR," Keiko's whine breaks the silence.

"Kei first. Oppa soon followed," replied Kailandra as he stood up.

Kailani still held on to her position. The woman supported her chin with both hands. His eyes were completely blank like a daydreaming person.

Not long after Kailandra left Kailani alone, Kekeyi showed up holding a weeping Kanaka. He quickly took Kanaka from Kekeyi's hands. Then bring back to the room to be given ASI.

Either too tired or how, while giving Kanaka and Kanaya their only food source in turn, Kailani falls asleep instead. He did not know that Kailandra had left his home.

It was only the next morning, when Kailandra picked Keiko up to leave for school, that Kailani met the father of her three children again.

"Mother why not just go with us? Kan Oppa can anter Mother to work mother." Keiko received the bag of supplies given by Kailani.

"And your workplace is further away, Kei. Not unidirectional," Kailani argued.

"Oppa doesn't mind mother." Slightly pushy, Keiko pulled Kailani's hand which hadn't even taken her own bag yet.

Kaira can only smile in her heart. Keiko's attitude was apparently not too far away from him. If you already want something-always there is sense to get his wish.

Something like that happened the next morning. Until the togetherness of Kailani and Kailandra alone is more common. However, it has not been able to tear down the awkwardness and arrogance that exist. Especially to Kailani. In fact, it is not uncommon for Kailani to choose to reply to messages with Kalvin rather than invite Kailandra to talk along their journey.

Of course it makes Kailandra not feel good. Feeling that Kailani has really closed her heart to him. Though it is not so, in the depths of the heart-Kailani is also muffling the turmoil of hearts and minds that clash with each other with different tastes.

"Kai, if you're not comfortable going out together like this every day, let me talk to Keiko. He must have understood." Kailandra glanced at Kailani at a glance then refocused on the crowded street in front of him.

"Yes, it's up to you, Kai. After this I'll take the children's birth certificate. Would you like to be taken to your home or work?" ask Kailandra.

"At home, Bang."

In fact, Kailandra can already guess the answer Kailani. Of course, the woman he loves will choose that, because indeed Kailani does not want her closeness with any man to be a gossip in her work environment. Where the caregivers and teachers there do not know the true status of Kailani.

***

As requested by Kailani, after returning home from work, Kailandra immediately delivered the birth certificate of baby twins. The sad look was so real on the man's face. What was written in the letter was not what he expected. Even the lure of the money promised by Kailandra, did not succeed in making his name written on two sheets of paper in his hand.

"This is Kanaka and Kanaya, Kai." Kailandra gave Kailani two laminated sheets of paper as soon as she opened the door for him.

"Go in, Bang." Kailani widens her door leaf while accepting Kailandra's gift.

Kailani immediately sat on the sofa of the living room. The actual sofa is very much avoided Kailandra these days. To talk, he prefers the dining room as a comfortable place. Because there his mind is not made to drift to the things he wants.

Kailani invited his eyes to accommodate the maximum to make sure what he read was not wrong. He repeated it several times to confirm what was written there. Yes, in the birthmark letter, both Kanaka and Kanaya are only recorded as children of a mother.

"I'm sorry, Kai. I've worked as hard as I could. But with the improvement of the increasingly strict bureaucratic system, we cannot do much. Without a marriage certificate, at least a serial marriage certificate, we can not put the name of the father on the deed of the child," said Kailandra, full of regrets.

Kailani clutched the two laminating papers earlier. His eyes were glazed, with just one blink, clear lips would have been able to wet his smooth cheeks. His heart felt torn. Kailani raised her face, with all her might so that the tears would not really fall. Many times he spoke Istighfar in awe.

"O Allah, forgive all my sins. You entrusted three hearts to me, but I neglected my responsibility as a real mother. Giving birth alone is not enough to make me fit to be a full-fledged woman if I am not able to raise and educate her children properly." Kailani took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly.

"Kai, I'm really sorry." Once again Kailandra said sorry. Guilt was also felt more and more by the man.

"Bang ...," call Kailani while putting the baby twins birth certificate on the table. "Married me immediately!"

Kailandra was surprised to hear Kailani's words just now. His body instantly leaned forward in order to be able to look at Kailani fixedly. He wanted to make sure the woman in front of him was not joking.

"Married me, Bang! Are my words unclear?"