NUMBNESS
Part 66 If only ...

Bian just got home from the funeral. That morning, Amara's body was buried. Kenzo and his family take Amara to her final resting place. However much Bian hated Amara, he could not deny that Amara was his wife.

After cleansing her body, Bian approached the tiny baby who had just two days of seeing this world. Bian hires a nurse to take care of the baby Amara was born with. Although Bian was not sure if the baby was his child, but what Andre said was true. If he also participates in the existence of this baby.

"He had just fallen asleep, after drinking milk," the nurse explained, as Bian asked her.

"Was she crying?"

"No sir, he's not crying." The nurse smiled at Bian.

"Well, you take care of him, if you need anything, you can tell me right away, or both of my parents."

"Good Sir." The nurse nodded, then stared at Bian's departure.

"Great pity, still young has become a widower. The widower left his wife dead anyway, "the nurse's mind looked at Bian's back with pity.

The nurse heard from the waiter who was working in the kitchen that the master had just lost his wife. His wife died while giving birth to the baby he is currently caring for.

Bian stepped his foot into his room. It had been a long time since he had married Alea, just this time, he had again set foot into his room. Because after Alea's parents kicked Bian out of the mansion, Bian immediately moved in and lived in his apartment.

For several months Bian stayed in the apartment after Alea's departure. Bian spent time there just to think of Alea.

Blaming himself to depression and making him determined to end his life. Luckily, my mom and dad arrived on time. If only they had not come, his fate would have been like that of Amara. To leave this world forever.

Bian let out a long sigh while staring at the ceiling of the room. His sadness is increasing now. Losing Alea, and also losing Amara.

Although he hates Amara now, but that woman has been with him. It was the woman he had been fighting for until he finally abandoned Alea and hurt her nonstop.

Bian closed his eyes, as suddenly the shadow of Alea's agonizing cry flashed again. The shadow kept swirling around in his head, making Bian sigh in frustration.

Bian grabbed her hair, Alea's screams of pain flashed again, her shadows hitting Alea flashed again.

'Fuck! I really am a jerk! What kind of man am I, who would beat his own wife?'

Bian hit his head. Feelings of guilt, feelings of sadness, also feelings of loss haunt him. Regret that comes too late adds to Bian's pain.

That morning, if only Amara had not provoked him, surely the violent incident would not have happened to Alea. It was impossible to hurt Alea to make Alea lose her baby.

Bian shouted while crying. Every time he remembered everything, Bian seemed to lose his sanity. The pain and regret that Bian felt made Bian lose control.

"Name ...!" Bian shouted loudly. The sound of her screams until it sounded out of the room, making Laras and her husband who had just sat in the living room immediately rush towards Bian's room.

Laras shouted at Bian's state that looked so pitiful.

"Dian!" Laras and her husband immediately approached Bian who was on a rampage. All the items in his room had already been shattered, including the cracked glass of the cupboard and even shattered into small fragments scattered on the floor.

The barrel screamed, as it looked at the blood flowing in both of Bian's hands that was still clenching his fists.

"Dian!"

Laras and her husband immediately hugged Bian so that the man would not do unwanted things.

Papa Bian held the arm of his son who continued to rebel.

"I want to meet Alea Pa, I meet her. Papa must find the man who has already taken Alea away, Papa must find her Pa!" Bian yelled at his Papa.

"Ma, find Alea, Ma, find Alea .. I beg ...."

"The man took Alea away, Ma, find the man, and have him return Alea to me, Ma .. I want to meet Alea ...." Bian crying in Laras' arms.

The pain and regret in his heart, made Bian continue to blame himself.

"If only I had more faith in Alea, she would definitely not have left me Ma, right now it is certain that Alea and I are happily awaiting the birth of our child." Bian blurted out in his tears.

"Had I never brought Amara home and married her, I and Alea would still be together right now."

"If only from the beginning I had learned to love Alea like Alea who loved me so much, we would both be happy now."

"If Amara had not pretended to fall down the stairs that morning, I would have never been so cruel as to beat Alea, that Alea would have to lose our future baby."

"If I had realized earlier, if I loved her so much, we would both be happy now."

"If ...."

"Enough Bian is enough!" Baras really can't stand to hear all Bian's words. The old woman hugged her son while crying. While Papa Bian also joined in glass.

"I was wrong, Ma, I was wrong .. I caused Alea to leave me."

"But I love Alea, Ma, love her so much .. I would love to meet her and say thousands of words of forgiveness to her. I'm guilty of her, I'm really sorry."

"Myan ...."

Laras could only cry to see the state of his son. Regrets always come too late. All this time, Laras never knew the state of the Bian household. He thought Bian would be happy with Alea, even if he didn't love her.

He had no idea that Bian was bringing another woman into his household life. Because after Bian got married, Laras only often exchanged news with Bian over the phone. It can also be counted with the finger, several times he called his son.

While calling Bian, Laras was never allowed to talk to Alea, arguing that Alea was busy.

Now, he finally understood why Bian would not let him talk to Alea. The reason must be because Bian was afraid, afraid that Alea would tell him all about her household life.

Bian was afraid that Alea would reveal her secret for bringing another woman into her house. Alea's family's home for Bian, after Bian agrees to marry Alea.

"Bian ... relax! Later we find Alea together yes, you do not give up like this Bian," comfort Laras.

"I've been looking for her everywhere, Ma, but until now I haven't been able to find her."

"Prophe Bian, if you are a match, one day you will definitely meet again." Papa Bian chimed in.

Bian hugged his parents while crying.

'Alea .. wherever you are, I hope you're okay. Come home baby, I miss you, miss you so much ....'

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