NUMBNESS
Part 75 Throwing Out All Memories

Alea was currently on the balcony of her room. It had been many years since she married Bian, only today, Alea had set foot back in her own room.

After being persuaded continuously by his father and mother, Alea finally returned home, meeting with Mama and his father. It was not that Alea was not kangen, it was just that, this house reminded him of that man, Bian.

Alea let out a long breath, looking at the starless black sky, while enjoying the cold night breeze that hit his body and waving his long hair. His memory returned during his meeting with Bian two days ago.

That man, it's been two years Alea's never seen him. His handsome face looks different, compared to the last time he saw her in the hospital.

Alea closed her eyes as a sudden tightness squeezed her heart.

'Bian, I don't know whether I should be happy or sad when I meet you.'

'The deepest corner of my heart, has slowly begun to erode your name, there is no more love there, only hatred continues to seep into my soul.'

'These two years, I've always convinced my heart that I hate you so much, and hate you so much. But ....'

Alea took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly. He did so many times when the memory of Bian re-emerged. In the past, Alea would have cried out hysterically when her memory of Bian tormenting her flashed. But this time no, Alea was already able to control her emotions.

Her past memories of Bian filled her mind. It was this room, the silent witness where Alea often complained alone, complaining about her falling in love with Bian.

Laughing, crying, upset, angry, and whether or not the feeling he felt at the time, and everything, was about Bian. Bian, Bian and Bian ....

Alea exhaled a rough breath. He squeezed his hair, feeling frustrated with all the memories of his past that suddenly popped into his head.

His net was staring at the two-story house building not far in front of him. In the past, Alea loved to stand on the balcony of this room, then both eyes would shine with a smile fluffy when the object she wanted to see was clearly visible at the end there, inside the house.

The room's window facing exactly towards the balcony of her room made Alea more free to look in that direction.

Almost every day he saw her there, with a million charms that made him fall in love.

The house, the window of the room, was hers, a charming figure who had always filled her heart for so many years, Bian!

'I shouldn't have agreed to their desire to come here.'

Alea was still staring at the house, looking at the closed window of the room. Alea let out a heavy sigh, then went inside her room.

Inside the room, Alea stared at everything inside the room. Before she contemplated on the balcony earlier, Alea was immediately discouraged when she saw the state of her room. Mama and her father actually obeyed her desire not to change any room conditions, even though she was married to Bian.

But now, he deeply regrets his decision. Supposedly, before he came, the people in this house immediately packed or threw away all the items that would remind him of Bian.

Photos, pictures, items, even all about his past when he was so infatuated with the man, are still neatly stored here.

"Basar Nope!" alea's annoyance in heart.

Alea forgot, which parents would want to understand these kinds of things. Although they both love him very much, but they always solve it with money, heart problems later. That's how things are, Alea came to a conclusion about both her parents.

They always fulfill all their desires without reproach, but only to fulfill them with money. Even when they secretly fulfill his request and also his dream to have Bian, they use money. Using money to get Bian to marry her.

A dream marriage that ended up being a disaster for Alea.

Alea breathed out softly. His two hands began to grab onto the items that reminded him of Bian in the room.

In the past, Alea would forbid anyone to touch those memorabilia. Even as her housemaid was about to clean her room, Alea was willing to wait faithfully for her aunt to clean all the things in her room.

'What a ridiculous and shameful act!'

Alea went downstairs to call the housekeeper who worked at her house. Alea asked the aunt who worked at her house to look for some large cardboard boxes.

"Bi, find some big cardboard, keep bringing it to my room huh, Bi."

"Well Non," Bi Marni replied politely.

Alea went straight back upstairs to her room.

Photos of Bian with various styles were displayed almost all over the walls of his room. For Alea, Bian is like an idol artist, until almost in all parts of this room is plastered Bian's handsome face there.

'Stupid me, loving someone who has never loved me for years.'

Alea quickly took all the photos of Bian that were displayed on the wall of her room.

Not long after, Bi Marni came with a frenzy into the room while carrying three large boxes.

The middle-aged woman looked dumbly at me. Maybe he was surprised by my actions.

"Bi, help me clean up all the stuff that Bian's been involved in. I want to throw it all away." Bi Marni almost cried out in shock that she did not immediately cover her mouth with her hands. Because usually the photos are like sacred objects that should not be touched at all by anyone other than myself.

"All this stuff, Non?" Bi Marni looked at Alea in disbelief.

"Yes, Bi, get everything together, and throw it away! Before I should have come here, these things were no longer in my room. Were they intentional in order for me to keep remembering her?" Alea grunted in annoyance, while throwing with origin all the items of her past memories.

Alea found her diary. He opened it for a while, before finally closing it back and throwing it roughly into the cardboard that Bi Marni had prepared.

"Non, is this going to be thrown away too?" Bi Marni shows a photo of Alea with Bian. In the photo, Alea was still wearing a school uniform. Alea was seen smiling cutely as she hugged Bian's arm. The photo was taken by Alea as Bian passed by in front of his house early in the morning after the sport. Meanwhile Alea wanted to go to school. While the one who took his picture at that time was Bi Marni herself.

"Down, Bi, everyone in this room is concerned with him, throw away the tree!" said Alea firmly.

"Non Good!"

Bi Marni did not ask again. He began to help Alea clean up all the photos and items related to Bian.

"Ohhhhh!"

Alea breathed a sigh of relief while patting her hands as if a lot of dust was stuck there. Though he knew very well, if the room was clean well maintained, even the photo displayed on the wall was so clean not dust in the slightest.

"Already, Bi. Now, Bi Marni just put this cardboard box in front of my room, tomorrow have the driver help you dump all these things."

"Okay, Non, I'm sorry." Bi Marni lowered her head politely before finally exiting Alea's room.

Before leaving, Bi Marni stared at the large boxes.

"Hopefully this is a good start for you, Non, Non Alea has been loving the man for too long, it is time for Non Alea to rise up and achieve all the happiness of Non Alea, ", said Bi Marni.

Bi Marni is the housekeeper who takes care of Alea from the baby. She was the household assistant and confidant of Alea's parents. Hence, he knew Alea's state of affairs very well during these two years, as both of Alea's parents told him.

Alea looked at every corner of her room that looked empty. All the photos of Bian on the wall of his room this time no longer exist, making him smile with satisfaction.

"This is true. Throwing away anything that reminds me of Bian is a good first step, and it feels really good." Alea smiled then stepped towards the bathroom.

Alea had just intended to close the balcony door when her net accidentally caught the pair of eyes that were currently staring at her from the house. Two-story house located not far from his house.

The window of the room opened, and the figure stood on the balcony of his room as he continued to stare at him.

Alea was glued for a moment while holding the door, before she quickly closed the wide-glazed door, then closed the curtains until the whole glass was covered and the figure there did not see it anymore.

'Goodbye to the past. This time, I won't look back to look at you, let alone back at you ....'

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