
“Binar?” Winona smiled wryly. Seeing from the way Binar looked at him, Biantara Sasmita's daughter seemed to have guessed that there was something different with the wife of Arsenio. Winona did not dare to come closer let alone mince words. Moreover, when he saw Arsenio's eye motion that hinted for Winona to do nothing.
Winona smiled bitterly. He looks wrong. However, the woman who is a few months away will turn twenty-seven years old, soon be able to master themselves. Winona strives to remain elegant and dignified, with her body language always reflecting that she is a high-class woman. “I'm here to find Dwiki. I thought he was here. However, since he is not around, I should just go back.” Winona nodded slowly as a sign that she was going to say goodbye. “Send my regards to Om Lievin.” The woman with the knee-length span skirt also turned her body.
However, just as Winona was about to step into the exit, the sound of Binar had managed to hold her back. “Did Brother have an explanation for Dwiki? I saw that he was hit hard.”
Winona exhaled softly before turning to Binar. However, he did not want to avoid the problems he was facing. Dwiki's lover knew that even Binar must have been affected by what he had seen.
Slowly, Winona turned around. He returned with a smile that looked sincere. “I don't think Dwiki was disappointed because of what I did with Arsen. He knew it from the beginning. I also don't have to explain what or why, because it happened long before we knew each other and fell in love.” Winona was silent for a moment.
“Everybody has a past, and it doesn't always look positive. No one has the right to judge someone for what he has done. Whether it's a big or small mistake. Only God has the right to determine a person's sin, Binar.” Winona lowered her face for a moment. Arsenio was silent. He did not recognize the figure of the woman who had accompanied him for several years.
“Dwiki who always said that to me.” Winona laughed bitterly. He again raised his face with a look made as calm as possible. Without saying much, Winona rushed out of the luxurious residence of the Rainier Family while wiping the corner of her eyes. The long-haired woman immediately entered the car parked in the front yard.
After Winona, now there are only Arsenio and Binar in the living room. Silence and awkwardness enveloped the couple. Arsenio did not also take her eyes off the face of the wife who still looks sulking. While Binar did not want to return the gaze of the owner of the bright brown eyes.
Either Binar can digest what Winona said or not. However, the feelings of jealousy and resentment are still there. He regretted why he had to watch the video of the shur between the husband and his ex-fiancee. Feeling uncomfortable with the atmosphere between the two of them, Binar decided to dodge. His intention back then was the garden, where Lievin and Fabien had been waiting since a while ago.
Without saying anything, Binar immediately turned around. He didn't care about Arsenio calling his name. The young woman's feelings still felt strange. Binar has difficulty being able to control the turmoil within him. The age is still relatively young, being one of the influences of all spoiled and jealous attitudes that often make him look so childish.
“Binar, Baby. Please.” Arsenio followed and tried to line the steps of the wife who was about to go to the park. “You heard what Winona said earlier, right?” Arsenio continued to persuade him to stop sulking.
“Do not disturb me, Rain,” reject Binar without turning his head let alone to stop his steps.
“I will continue to do this until you forgive me and act normal again,” Arsenio replied.
“Why are you so annoying, Rain?” The barn doesn't smile a bit. He even bent his face. The usual thing he did if he was upset with Arsenio.
“What else should I tell you? I was confused because I always explained the same thing over and over again. Please. Come onl. We've come this far. Don't make it all in vain just because ...”
“Just because you said?” sela Binar was upset. He stopped his steps, then looked at Arsenio sharply. “What if you're in my position? What are you going to do?” ask Binar with a ketus.
“That's why God gave you to me,” replied Arsenio. “I can't imagine if you .. I'm not that strong,” Arsenio said again. He then grabbed the wife's clasped fingers, then grasped them tightly. Arsenio did not let go, even though Binar tried to pull her.
“You are the bright light in my life filled with darkness. I who used to feel comfortable living in such conditions, now feel a thousand times better after seeing the bright light that makes my eyes can see everything clearly. Are you going to send me back to the darkness I have long left behind?”
“During my life with you, have I ever done anything? I don't even want to see another beauty, other than your face. In what way should I prove all that? You know that I'm willing to leave everything behind in order to maintain our love. I even stayed away from my parents. Does that mean nothing at all?” Disappointed in Arsenio's chest. However, again the first maturity of the two brothers was tested again.
Not yet had Binar respond to Arsenio's words, the voice of Lievin who called the two of them. The man waved his hand from the garden chair. Signalling for Arsenio and Binar to join him immediately and Fabien.
“Papa call us. Please don't show your anger in front of him. That's also if you still think of us as people who are valuable to you,” Arsenio's message while reaching for Binar's hand. He clasped the fingers of the wife who did not refuse at all when, as Arsenio led him to Lievin. “What is this event? It looks very exciting,” asked Arsenio in pleasantries. Quickly, the man's attitude and facial features turned cheerful in front of his father and sister.
“Nothing special. Papa just wants to invite Binar to tea in the afternoon. It turns out you also come,” said Lievin who already looks much calmer than the previous days.
“Gosh. Has it been since Binar, that I was not considered a child by Papa?” Arsenio tried to throw a joke. While Binar was silent. He's learning how to pretend.
“I've crossed off from the family tree you must be back. The Rainier family should be proud to have a son like you, Arsen,”, said Lievin. He poured tea on Arsenio's cup and also Binar's.
“You heard that, Honey?” Arsenio glanced at Binar who was looking at him. “Papa flattering me.” Arsenio laughed crisply. While Binar only responded with a forced smile, making Arsenio have to re.mas the wife's thigh as a gesture.
Binar who was about to protest, had glared sharply at the handsome brown-haired man. However, after seeing Arsenio smiling calmly while winking one eye, the young pregnant woman immediately undoes her intentions. How not? Arsenio looks very handsome. “You are indeed very proud, Rain,” Binar said with a big smile.
“Because then immediately find a partner, then invite him to marry. However, remember one thing, Fabien. Do not let your wife later know the bad habits that you keep secret from her,” said Binar half insinuated Arsenio.
“I have no bad habits whatsoever ...”
“You always wear the same underwear for days,” sidelines Arsenio.
“Where did you know that, Arsen?” Fabien raised a look of protest to the older brother. “It was only in desperate condition,” us.
“In one month, how many times have you been in a desperate condition?” Arsenio won't lose.
“Sometimes Papa should take Fabien to see a doctor,” Arsenio said again while directing his attention to Lievin who only listened.
“Sorry. I don't want to interfere in your problems. Don't involve me,” reject Lievin while sipping tea that looks still puffing smoke.
The afternoon was followed by tea in the park. One thing that became a habit while Anggraini still exists. Lievin just wants to continue the favorite of the wife, so that the memory of her remains and is always awake.
By evening, Lievin bailed to the room. Similarly, Fabien looks a little more cheerful than yesterday. Now there are only Binar and Arsenio who are still sitting side by side, but are silent to each other.
“Do you not want to enter, Honey?” ask Arsenio carefully.
“I still want to be here. I have been locked up in my room for a few days, ” replied Binar in a cold and flat tone.
“Good. I'll accompany you,” break up Arsenio. He quietly placed his hand on the back of the chair, right behind the back of Binar. “What do you think?” he asked again when he noticed the gloomy face of his wife.
“Looks like I can't,” said Binar lirih while looking down deeply.
“Can't do why?” Suddenly Arsenio's feelings became alarmed.
“It turns out I haven't fully accepted your past yet, Rain,”. “Every time I see you, I always picture you in that video. You fuck with sister Wini. Your expression, your smile, your voice, it makes no difference at all when making love to me.”
The light covered her beautiful face with both hands. Issues that initially sounded slow are now getting louder.
“Yes, God. My dear.” Without thinking twice, Arsenio inched from her seat, then sat down in front of Binar. Both hands he put on the lap of the wife. Arsenio could not even count anymore, how many times she knelt before the woman.
“Can you forget everything you saw? What way should you not imagine it constantly?” The voice of the beautiful man sounded so desperate. “I did not expect at all if the impact would be this big, Binar.”
“Somewhat do you feel for me actually, Rain. What is your purpose when touching and enjoying my body. I don't understand anymore.” Binar muttered softly as he continued to hide his face.
“Should you ask that? I even lost everything to be with you. What else am I supposed to prove? Iloveyou! More than everything! Unlike Wini, because I never loved her!” firmly Arsenio with a slightly elevated intonation.
“This is how I am this jerk, Binar. I used to be able to hook up with any woman I wanted. Without the slightest feeling of love!” arsenio said with great emphasis. “However, ever since knowing you I have thrown away that bad attitude all the way.”
Slowly, Binar put away the hand. It shows its increasingly beautiful face. Seeing that, Arsenio felt a little relieved. However, the feeling did not last long, when Binar suddenly took off the dolphin-eyed wedding ring. He then gave the ring to his husband.
“What does this mean, Binar?” hiss Arsenio with a trembling voice.
“I'll give you back this ring, Rain. Looks like I want us to part ways first until I'm ready and confident in my feelings,” replied Binar.
The simple words that came out of the wife's lips were like a sharp sword piercing through Arsenio's heart. Arsenio's world collapsed for the second time.