Rainbow No Color Limit
Has Changed

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Some time has passed. Without counting the time, I don't know how long it's been. Until I don't feel like anything has happened in my life. A word that makes me grumble. A reality that might awaken me to who I am.

I don't even know how I feel. I could only feel the emptiness in my heart and mind.

I remember Kana's words. The words that now only make me silent.

"I give up, brother. This relationship will never work. We're just gonna hurt a lot of people. I want to change. I want to go back to my nature as a man. Ii'm sorry. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I don't mean to, brother. Please let me understand."

Those were his words two days ago. After many times in different times recounting his admiration for Rain. Kana seems to think Rain is her hero because Rain always helps her when she is humiliated and bullied by others.

Was the change also caused by Rain? Soon Rain can change the attitude of Kana who has lived with me for years. He can change it in just a few months. I always protected and defended him.

But why don't I get angry? I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Shouldn't I be disappointed that Kana has forgotten me?

But there was only a strange feeling that I now felt.

I stood on the balcony looking at the water ripples in the pool blown by the wind. But my mind wandered somewhere. It was as if the water ripples in the pond were washing my mind.

Before long I could hear footsteps down there, near the pool. From the sound of laughter they let out, it seemed like it was Kana and Rain.

This is no longer a surprise. Kana is often with Rain. They were often together and ignored me who every saw their togetherness. Even if what they do is not a bad thing.

Even now Kana's attitude is not what it used to be. Maybe he has really become a man.

There was actually a little relief in my heart. As a big brother, of course I am happy with the good change.But, somehow I feel something else. Not to Kana. And this strange feeling makes me uncomfortable.

Although I can't see what they're doing down there, I know they're joking like always. And again, it's not a bad thing.

Finally I decided to leave the balcony, not wanting to hear the sound of their laughter which made me even more uncomfortable.

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It was a cold night but it was warm with a few guests. Kana's parents came again after a few weeks ago they first met Rain. There are also two brothers from the city of Semarang Papa who came to visit.

The plan is they will go on vacation because it happens that Papa is coming home from his service in the interior. Brother Papa came from there to pick up Papa and also visited us who had not seen them for a long time.

Kana's parents want to take Kana to their new home in Tangerang. Previously they lived in Singapore and if to Indonesia they will go to their brother's house in Surabaya. Of course, to this house too.

They had long wanted to take Kana there. But Kana is still busy with her college. So tomorrow Kana will still come even if only two days he is there.

While my parents may be up to a week in Semarang. That means my job will increase because I replaced Mama while in her office.

I don't mind their plans. They also need a vacation. Especially when Papa is rarely at home. After all, our brothers there must miss Mama and Papa very much

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I drove both of my parents to the front gate. Stare at the car that takes them slowly away from this house. Kana and her parents left first.

I breathed before I went back into my house. I walk slowly because I am not in a hurry. I want to relax today.

In the living room I passed Rain who seemed to be going to the cafe. He used to go early on Saturdays and Sundays.

Rain glanced at me while still walking. There was no emotion in his eyes. His face was flat as usual. I continued my steps towards my room.

Shortly after, I heard the sound of Rain's motorbike moving away from my yard.

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I feel lonely tonight. Just sitting watching TV alone. No one accompanied me because the workers in my house had no one to stay the night. Yeah, except Rain. But he's still at the cafe right now.

The guards did not sleep in the house. They just took turns to stand guard without entering this house. Some stand guard in front and some will walk occasionally to circle this house. That's how it usually is.

I have seen my phone a few times. No messages came in. My parents arrived this afternoon and contacted me. So right now they might be busy chatting with the people there.

No message from Cana. He didn't even tell me when he got to his house. Only her parents told me.

Kana has really changed. Is he really mad at me?

Could Rain have instigated it? Why has Kana's attitude changed so drastically?

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My morning was strange. I feel awkward because I only had breakfast together with Rain. Sometimes I lyric he who just lowered his head while eating quietly.

He wanted to sit down for breakfast here when there was no one else but me and him. Actually if he wants to, I don't mind having breakfast here myself either. I won't report it to my mom anyway.

Yep. She must be afraid of being reprimanded by Mama.

After eating, Rain took my dirty dishes. He just looked down. Is he afraid of me? Why does he look like that?

"Ekhem! I'll leave after this, "My words break this silent atmosphere. I really don't need to tell him.

Rain looked at me and replied, "Hem. " So he went back to cleaning the table.

I was a little upset by the answer. I've fixed it but the reaction is like this?

Rain went into the kitchen. But he stopped and glanced at me. "Wherever you go, be careful, "She said softly and then she continued her steps.

I was stunned by his attitude. But I unconsciously smiled because of that. Why am I feeling happy?

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People will think I'm crazy when I see me smiling to myself. I paused my intention to leave and instead sat on the balcony smiling. I don't know if I might have gone crazy.

I was happy with Rain's words. Only a few words came out of his mouth.

While I was trying to relax, I heard the chat of two women. It was Rain and Mbak Sari. Their voices echoed as they passed through the pond.

"Mbak Sari can't swim? "

"God... Can't be me. Can you not?"

"Same. I can't either. "

Then they laugh.

That simple. But why does it seem fun?

It's over seven o'clock. But why hasn't Rain gone to the cafe?

Soon I heard a car coming out of my yard. Maybe it was Mr. Hendra who delivered the shopping. Because he usually goes on Sundays.

I went down and walked around my house. Tired of it, I went to the park by the pool. But a voice made me silent.

Trying to listen if it's Rain's voice.

She teaches? Early mornings like this?

I approached his room which was not far from the garden and pond. Listen again to a voice that is not melodious but pleasant to hear.

I sat on the floor to listen. Sometimes Rain corrected his reading. I don't even know if it's true or not.

I'm getting more interested and closer. I saw the curtains of his room open. I try to look closer even though I'm afraid she's looking at me.

He stopped teaching. Does he know I'm here? My heart was beating because I was nervous. Afraid to get caught if I'm here.

But he soon taught again. I feel relieved. I looked a little from the window of his room, he was sitting down and reading the Quran, wearing a white mukena. I pulled my stride so I could see him.

But maybe I'm fucking. I did not see my steps and because of my carelessness, I slipped and fell into the pool.

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seriate...

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greetings from yuya 😉😉😘😘