Rainbow No Color Limit
Not That Bad

A few moments passed. I'm now sitting with mom and bang Arka nervously. I kept staring at those who were watching TV. Whether they were aware or not of my attitude, but occasionally they looked at me with confused gazes.

Oh my...

I'm really scared. What if they don't accept all my explanations? But this makes me unable to calm down. So I have to say this before anyone else tells them.

"Mom, "call me down with sweaty hands. She looked at me with a confused face.

"Yes, what's wrong? " I looked down for a moment and then looked back at him.

"What's wrong? Look, I think you're not calm. " My mother shifted her seat and approached me. Bang Arka looked curious as well. She looked at me and Mom seriously.

I took a deep breath and threw it away slowly. I said bismillah softly and just lowered my head when I started telling them everything.

"Before, I apologize, "my words began while closing my eyes for a moment.

"I know, it's no longer possible that this would make Arka's mother and bang burdened, but I can't keep this matter up much longer. Better mom and bang Arka hear it directly from me before anyone else gets to tell. " Mom and bang Arka are getting serious looking at and listening to me. I saw for a moment, their gazes also looked alarmed.

"Mom, "call me soft. My voice was already shaking, but Arka's mother and bang were still in the same position and attitude. I'm down. With tears I couldn't stand, I told them everything. I can't keep this matter from hurting them more if it's a secret. I'm resigned. I will accept the end result.

This room would be quiet, if only there were no sound of my crying that I could not endure. Although I've said everything, but I can't feel the relief.

I feel like I'm squeezed by a big rock. It feels so cramped. Pain and fear mixed together. Moreover, looking at the mother and bang Arka who just fell silent like a statue and did not even see me at all.

"I'm sorry, ma'am. Because of me, you all suffer. Because I was also the father and bang Arka accident to make the father die. I'm sorry, mother. I'm sorry, bang, "please me with a voice that's almost gone.

"Mother." call me and rest in front of the two of them.

I could say nothing but cry. It turns out, what I was afraid of all this time really happened. They can't accept this. I was wrong. I'll take it.

"Mother, punish me for this mistake of mine. My law because I have made you suffer. Punish me for this unforgivable mistake, ma'am. "

I don't know what else to do. Apologizing to them is impossible. Do I deserve to apologize again? My mistake was huge.

I kept calling my mother while hugging her feet. I face down on my thighs and I cry there. I'm so scared. I'm afraid of losing the mother who always loved me even though I wasn't her biological child. I'm really scared.

I was stunned for a moment before seeing whose hand it belonged to. I looked up to see the face of the owner of the hand that was now crying. "Mother, "call me to her.

Mom looked at me while still stroking my head. It feels so comfortable. "Over this time, you keep all your problems to yourself." I don't know if that's a question or a statement for me. But I didn't answer anything and just stared at my mother."Do you think we are someone else? I can't imagine how you're in that position alone. You must be scared. " Mother's words stopped because she was crying. His crying voice trembled with his eyes closed.

I shook my head because I couldn't see my mother like that. What he thinks is not true. Until anytime, she was my mother. This family is my family.

"Mothers... " I called out to him while taking one of his hands and grasping it. Mom was still crying.

"I'm sorry even though my mistakes are hard to forgive. But I didn't really mean to and thought that mom was someone else. My mother is still my mother. I was scared. I'm too scared to be honest, ma'am. Because I believe that my actions were a mistake. Because i'm... "

"Ssttts. Enough, honey. Don't blame yourself. This isn't all your fault. Father died in an accident, it was God's will. Even if the accident was caused by Anih who took revenge on you, but this is not your fault. Mother was surprised. Mom was angry. But mother's anger is not what you think. "

"But, madam... "

"Rain, mother's son. Even if you paralyzed Danang, but you did not take his life. I would do the same if I was in your position. Mother will not remain silent when the mother's family is hurt. It's just that our self-control is different. So don't blame yourself anymore, yeah. I'll feel so guilty if you keep going that way. Besides, you've actually helped a lot of people by paralyzing Danang. "

I looked at my mother and then looked at the Arka bang who had been looking down. Can bang Arka be asikhlas mother?

"Bao... " I called him scared. He lifted his face and called me to hug him. "Come here... "

He and I hugged while crying. All the pain and guilt still stuck with me. Considering I was also the one who put him in this state.

"I'm sorry, bang. Sorry me..." I felt the bang Arka shook her head then tightened her embrace. Her rubbed also my head gently. Bang Arka tried to keep me quiet in the same way I did when I was a kid. Maybe to him, I was still his little naughty little brother.

Maybe I shouldn't think bad. My family is not that bad. But anyway, my fear cannot go away. I was defeated by my own fear and forgot that my family were good people. They understand how I am and what my situation really is. I am so grateful to have a family like them.

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I spent all day sitting at home. Not only because my heart is still sad, but it feels like I want to keep buying my mother. Mother was confused by my attitude but she still followed my wishes.

Bang Arka just let us be like that but she also relaxes with us. Bang Arka continued to smile when she saw me forging mother. I don't give a shit. Although a little embarrassed by her gaze, I still hugged my mother as if we were going to part away.

We ordered food for lunch and the afternoon was like that. I didn't let mom get busy and just made her sit with me. Maybe we split up for a shower and other things that we couldn't do together. Maybe I'm overreacting, but whatever...

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Seriate...

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greetings from Yuya😘😘😘