Rainbow No Color Limit
Take Zee away

This morning I woke up in my house, yes because I did not return to the house of Miss Intan yesterday. I purposely spent the night at my house so that in the morning I could go to the dormitory. I want to see Zee there. I think I miss him a lot. I hope he misses me too.

I am more relaxed because it is also Sunday. Besides, I've asked Intan's mom for a two-day work holiday. I hope, I can also linger with Zee later. There's something I have to tell him. Yeah, same thing with something I told Mom.

Zee is more sensitive. Sometimes he is also more temperamental than usual. Her attitude is not like that of my mother. I'm afraid that if I keep this from him, he'll hate me. Actually, I don't want what I'm saying to overload her and make her learning process interrupted. But, it would be more disturbing not if he knew himself someday? Yes, if after he graduated, if in the time before that how?

Maybe I was selfish, but not necessarily he can be faced when I have saved away this problem. I don't want to lie. I don't want to cover up a lie and I'm lying again. It is up to me to be considered too excessive in addressing this matter.

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Time passed and now I was standing in front of the dormitory. My nose is not as big as it was. Now I'm confused how to deal with Zee. I was confused as to how to start it all. I'm afraid he's disappointed.

In my confusion, someone came up to me and surprised me. It turned out to be the owner of the dorm. His presence has given me a new spirit.

I talked for a long time with a woman whose age was not far from my mother. Not just a casual conversation, but I also asked her permission to take Zee away all day. The hostel owner allowed me for the reason I made it so fitting and I don't think he can resist it either.

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I took Zee out of the dorm after Zee finished his job and job. Not to forget, I say goodbye to the hostel owner. Zee was confused at first, but after I explained where I was going, my sister was silent.

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We arrived at a public funeral. Just standing around, that's what we do. We were silent for a long time in silence. There was no conversation between us and no one passed through this place.

After a long time, I finally invited Zee to approach the father's grave. We walked slowly and quietly. But I know, Zee's mind is not as calm as his current attitude.

We were sitting next to my father's grave. Praying as always as when we came. This time it was different than usual. Zee looked glum and I was thinking a lot myself. We kept quiet after we finished praying.

Long enough we were silent until I intended to start a conversation with Zee while wiping my father's headstone. I don't think I can say this. Seeing the sad looking Zee made me even more confused.

"Sister, if there's anything to talk about, sister says, "said Zee suddenly. I glanced at him briefly and then went back to see the father's headstone.

Zee must have known about my anxiety. But does he know what I'm going to say? Can't be if he knows? I feel like I've become a selfish sister. Huh... How'this?

"Sister... " Zee called me softly while rubbing the back of my hand.

I looked down and I felt like I wanted to cry. My sister is even more understanding than me. I think my attitude is immature. I think Zee is more mature than me right now.

"If harboring something is uncomfortable and unsettling, it may be better if something is expressed. I don't know if it could be good or bad. Importantly, there is no bad intention with what we want to express. "

I was stunned to hear his words. Didn't his words sound like he knew this?

"There is no bad intention but if we know there will be a possibility of bad things, is not it the same? "

Zee laughed softly then looked towards the clear sky. "Not all the things we want to go well can be as good as we expect. I think it's like that with bad things. I don't know..."

Meanin?

"Zee, is there something? " I think he's keeping something, too.

"much? "

"Yes, and it's not quiet. "

"Can you hear that? "

Zee looked at me a little surprised. Then he stared at it with this long face of mine. He also looked like he wanted to cry.

"I don't know, brother, "he answered and lowered his head.

"Can't you share it with your sister?"

Zee shook his head with a smile. "I don't know. " So he took a deep breath. "I don't know if it's good or not when I say it to my sister. "

"What's wrong? " I'm obviously very curious.

"Maybe you better tell me first. As I set my breath, "he said and laughed softly.

Now I am confused. Should I say it now?

"So don't be afraid to talk. As bad as it is, I'll try to accept it. "

I looked at him with my chaotic mind. Isn't he like my brother now? He's trying to calm me down. Maybe he also knew that something I wanted to talk about was something that had a bad possibility.

"We'll find some shade first. The weather will make us hot if we stay here longer, "my words and say goodbye to my father even though I know there is no way there will be an answer from him. In my heart, I apologized to him a lot. Maybe I let her down.

I stood next to Zee who stood up with a gontai. We walked out and out of the cemetery.

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I drove my bike slowly when we got to a crowded place. I circled my eyes to find a cafe that was suitable for me and Zee to rest.

I clapped my bike when I found the right place. We went in there and ordered food and drinks accordingly.

I see Zee is still moody. I tried to calm her down with various chats. Until he asked me again about something he thought I might want to talk about. I was silent too. I'm not sure Zee can accept this now. Though I don't know when he'll accept if I say.

"Maybe next time. You don't want to get more thoughts. "

"I'd have more thoughts if you didn't say it now. Especially if it's something important. Maybe I'll feel disappointed because my brother didn't talk right away. "

Well...

Is this not what I thought?

"alright. But forgive brother for talking about this matter. " Zee just nodded.

I started with the Anih and Danang case. Continued with problems that seemed to terrorize my family. It was also my experience that seemed to be stalked by someone, and it was in fact not just as if.

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seriate...

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greetings from Yuya😁😁