
This dim-looking corner of the manau has always been a place where I can muffle all my sorrows, listening to the voices of those who chant out beautifully.. the spirit that radiated from the beautiful spies they had always made me smile, seeing this all, I felt like going back to my wonderful childhood.
I miss the good times when the Ustadzah patiently listens to me reciting verse by verse every day, but today is no longer. Ustadzah has left this manau, he has found his soul mate, and now I am the oldest person here. Occasionally the ustadzah came to approach me, not even infrequently he asked when I would get married. Yes, a question that always makes me feel claustrophobic when I hear it.
**Love and own me for the rides
Make me lawful to you.
“assalamualaikum aisyah” said ustadzah at the time
“waalaikumus salam ustadzah” replied me with a soft word. He turned his feet towards me with the sweet smile he used to point at me, I hurried up from my seat and immediately kissed his hands, as well as my students.
“there are important things I want to talk to you aisyah” said ustadzah
“well, let's go to the terrace of the house just”, we immediately rushed to the terrace of the house to immediately talk about important things as the ustadzah told me.
“please sit ustadzah”
The smile was again visible from the corner of the lips of the ustadzah, the dimples are so funny it looks more and more clear, I was so astonished by his behavior. My eyebrows started to shrivel in confusion.
“ada what yes ustadzah” tanyaku wonder
“don't you think about getting married soon? I think it's time” ustadzah speech more and more make me confused, I still do not understand
“what do wetazah mean?” ask me again
“there was someone who came to me, he asked you how you were, he said he wanted to propose. It would be nice if you immediately tell this to your abim” obviously ustadzah to me.
“who is he ustadzah, why should I find ustadzah”
“named Ali. He admires you so much, try to taaruf first. Maybe he's your soul mate” said ustdzah
“insyaAllah let me think about it” replied me
After talking about it, ustdzah went home, I went back to see my students who seemed to have been waiting for me for a long time.
This makes me confused, it has been a long time since I waited for someone who dared to ask me directly to Abi, but why after hearing all this my chest felt increasingly crowded. It feels like my heart is so heavy to accept it, somehow it all gets this complicated. I'm still confused too.
Sitting pensively gazing out the window, watching every drop of rain falling back made me remember all that, a promise someone once made to me. The promise I am still waiting for is true,.
Flashback ON
Criating…
The ringing of the phone shocked me, I immediately rushed to see it. It turned out to be Aji's phone.
“assalamualaikum”
“Waalaikumussalam” reply
“aisyah today go to the library. You want to follow”.
“aji sorry, maybe starting today stop contacting me, we better keep our distance. If aji is serious about admiring me. I wait later after that moment arrives, please do not invite sin” said I
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Slowly I sank my face between my knees, my heart and mind still heavy, my breath still so tight.
“ya Allah, give ease” said I wirih. Suddenly Umi came into my room. The veiled woman rubbed my shoulders gently. I hurried to hug her, and the clear grain could not be withstood.
“ada what is aisyah?” Ask Umi
“yesterday night ustadzah Nurul came here when umi same abi came out, he said there was someone named ali came to him and said he wanted to propose to me, and I had to immediately tell abi” I explained
“then why is Aisyah sad? Isn't this good?” looks like Umi still doesn't understand what I mean. I still don't feel satisfied hearing Umi's answer
“aisyah why are you still confused? Remember, son, your age is enough. Your S1 was finished 3 years ago, it's time you perfected your religion. Maybe this is God's answer to your prayers during this” said Umi again
“but Umi, umi know who someone who always aisyah wait, umi know who is always aisyah do’akan. He once promised Aisyah, he promised to meet abi someday. And Aisyah believes that promise until now” said me
“do not abi and umi always teach not to hope in humans, try bertaaruf first with nak” pinta umi.
I still can't think of Umi's words, which is clear until now I'm still waiting for Aji, not Ali. Yes Aji who I knew 10 years ago, she was someone who admired me so much, we were also friends so closely. But the last few years we decided to keep our distance before the demons whispered to us that was not right. Since college I never saw him again, even until now. But I have always believed in the promise he made.
A few days passed, I ventured to discuss this with Abi. I hope Abi will understand what I mean. I immediately met abi who was seen relaxing on the porch of the house with a cup of tea in his hand.
“bii..” sayku wept.
“oh aisyah, you happen to be here, sit down with abi waiting for someone” heard abi's words, I intend to postpone telling abi about this. I chose to sit down to accompany Abi alone
“good bi” replied me.
A few minutes later I saw a black car stop in my yard, I think it was a guest who had been waiting for me since. I rushed to prepare some drinks for them, but Abi prevented me, for some reason abi like this.
Seen a man with a peci down from the car, he was seen together with his father who was the same age as my brother. When he turned around I was shocked, it felt like a dream.
Subhanallah, he's Aji. The man I had been waiting for 3 years ago was now standing in front of me, what was this. And what he's here for, inside my head is full of question marks. He approached my brother and immediately kissed his hand.
“assalamualaikum aisyah” said to me
“waalaikumus salam” I replied, this time abi smiled at me. Something seems strange, and I don't know what.
“alright sir let's immediately specify the date of her wedding.”
“abiii.” sayku wonder
“aisyah, that time Aji came to abi to propose to you. He said he wanted to keep his promise to you, Abi already knew how hard he struggled to establish himself for you. Abi thinks he is a man worthy of being a priest to you. And abi also felt that he was the man you always wait for and you always do’” explained to me. After hearing everything I can no longer say anything, I can no longer say anything, I hugged Abi with my happy tears. My wait has been completely answered.
The great God who has granted all do’a-do’ me. HE has betrothed me to someone I have always done’ all this time.
Thank you Rabbi, with this incident I increasingly believe that longing does not always have to be spread in social media, love does not need to be proven by the way we must always be with him, he said, but do’ is the one who has the power over everything.
The illegitimate relationship that they have always been proud of in front of me, it feels useless compared to the faithful pledge that was said in front of parents**.