Short Stories of Islamic Love
Overrated

This is what I've been afraid of all this time. Well, FALL IN LOVE. It's painful! That's the word I'm saying for now. It hurts a lot if I knew it would be like this. What is this feeling that makes me almost go crazy if I remember the events, the short events I had with you.

Every time I go to pray together in the mosque, it is unexpected that I will meet someone who is a servant of Allah SWT who is very obedient in worship. Wh dude! who would not be interested in someone so perfectly created by Allah SWT, someone who made me amazed by his obedience, his peculiarity in worship. You’ve stolen ma heart, dude!



He is the person I currently admire, a man seen from his age of about 27 years (I just guessed). He was so diligent, obedient and solemn in congregational prayer. His posture, hmmm..he is tall, his body field is in accordance with his height (medium), has white skin and clean radiant face (that's my assessment only). It was unexpected that he would be interested in such a figure that resembled a male far away there. Every morning she came to pray together in the mosque, aheem. Why not, just in the morning can get up and pray together let alone build a household, yak elah, Insyaallah barakallah (hahaha).

The eitzzz! Waitaminute! Don't mean that I really hope to get her as my future husband. IS WRONG! I was just amazed by his obedience in prayer. He was almost like a distant figure there who was currently waiting, just like me who was still waiting for him here. We were both waiting for each other, who again tried to learn to test loyalty, who would be loyal between the two of us. It is true that we do not have a special relationship, all because we are afraid to sin, so we make our relationship with the ordinary, like a friend. God willing, if Allah SWT meridhoi us, insyaaallah be a friend of the future until the end of life. Amin Allahumma Amen.

The exam! The test of love for me. The figure that resembled a man far away from me, coming here appeared before me. Allahu akhbar. Other beings that You create with perfection, Yes Robbi. Strengthen my Faith, lest I be tempted by the persuasion of Satan. That is the prayer I always pray when I meet him. I fear that I will fall in love, especially with a figure who is so obedient and fervent in worshiping congregational prayers, Allahu Akhbar, indeed You are Most Perfect O Allah. There will never be any doubt about the blessings of your paradise.

My initial meeting with him, the new man, started from a mosque not far enough from my home. PRAYING JAMAAH! Well, that's where the meeting started. I was the first to see him. It was unexpected that my heart was quite moved when I saw him coming to the mosque by sniffing a Fuu motorbike. He went to mesjd always with small children who were seen from the age of about 10 years or more. They always go together and wear men's special dress with the same color plug. I suspect it was his son. Don't know why when I see him or meet him, I'll smile at him. I don't know where it came from, but most importantly I'm quite happy to see them. Every time I saw him, the figure far away was always remembered by me. Be honest! I miss her so much that we haven't seen her in nearly 8 months, joked with laughter, and told stories together. Aye! Since I graduated from my college, I have continued my career in the world of work. Thank God, I got it. But along with the sustenance of this work, it kept me quite far away from him. I went to a town far from my hometown. Coupled with the location of my work far outside the city made me and her to split up for a while. While the figure of a man far away from me was again completing his studies at the level of lectures that God willing will soon follow, WISUDANYA! Amin Allahumma Amen.

Uh, back again with that guy story here. For 1 month I have always looked and looked at him. I don't know how about him. Does he feel the same. I don't know, only Allah SWT and he know his feelings. Be honest! Until now I still think that the teenage boy who often brought to the mosque was his son. But the answer is wrong!

That's the kind of meeting I had with them, only in the mosque. There's nothing else. Almost every day at prayer time, God willing we meet. Well, even just a quick look, or just looking at the bike is enough. I don't want to expect too much, let alone love someone else in silence. That's really painful. It hurts! That word will come out of my heart. Now only Allah SWT and Himself know my heart. Is that what I like about him or not? Or have I forgotten the distant figure there?

That question I always remember when I met him. I felt really guilty for not being able to keep that feeling to him. Honestly I am very ashamed of Allah SWT, I realize the person is not consistent. I like people easily, especially people who meet my criteria. Subhanallah, I won't be able to avoid it. Well, even though the feeling is only Allah SWT and I know it. I love them all in silence.

It is easy to fall in love and easy to forget. But not with a person far away. Thank God I still hold these feelings for him. I've had this feeling for almost 3 years. I don't know how long I'm going to hold on to this feeling. Should I close the door of my heart to others? Or do I have to learn to find or accept the certain? I don't know, maybe time will answer all this.

The distant still feels close to me. Even though we have never been in contact with each other, God willing our prayers are sent to each other. And now coupled with a new figure that began to fill the heart space that had been stored for a distant figure there. I like him, that new figure. Liked his obedience as I told you earlier. But until now I was confused about myself, what exactly do I like about him the most? Is it really his obedience, or something else. Ouch, confused! Why I like someone again. Is harboring feelings for a distant figure there not enough? Or not yet wasted? Now I want to add another new figure. O Allah, forgive your servant who likes someone easily. However, of all that though I am easy to fall in love with someone, it does not mean that I am the one who easily express feelings. No? Never? I never expressed my feelings to anyone. Especially to the people I have admired all this time. I don't know when I'll keep it. Especially now that my age is not young anymore, especially to find a partner to play around will no longer be possible. Want one person only, once met and directly so. That's what I was hoping for. God willing that Allah SWT befriended me with those I love.

Still with the same story and activities. In the mosque that meetings often occur. A new person and me. Sure is! Although only a glimpse, but there must be a chance to meet. Just like the usual thing, if I meet a new figure surely a figure far away there will ring in my mind you really make me go insane, dude.

Lately I've been trying to avoid her for some reason, avoiding a new figure. I don't know why I did that myself. Yeah! The reality is that I've learned to forget and stay away from it. Butwhat? He always showed up, even we often passed each other, even I don't know if it was intentional or not almost every meeting he always appeared in front of me, if not in the mosque it must be in the parking lot. Ah. that situation really makes me going crazy. Im sure that I cannot move on from him. Like this incident, the meeting between me and him when I again walked to the mosque, appeared in the distance Fuu motor drove and stopped there. We were only 1 meter away, he was wearing a skullcap to pray while I was still walking towards the mosque. We're facing each other. I try to be strong and not awkward to see it. Butwhat? As he turned his head towards me, my heart spontaneously trembled, breathless. Ow! What the hell! Why could? Will he be replaced by someone far away? O Allah, forgive Your servant who is still unstable. May You give the Servant the Best Choice, for Your Choice is the best in my life.

Yeah! So far my relationship with this new figure is just to meet in the mosque, see each other but do not know each other as a whole. I think there's a good side to it and the bad side of it is that I met him. Good thing, I will have someone I admire and bad I will return to harbour feelings for others whose figure I still do not know at all. Yeah! Just admirers. That's how I feel right now. If I get to know him more closely one thing will happen to me, a figure far away there will be replaced by him so the wait we have been through for 3 years is just wasted. Really am! I was so scared that it would happen. Be honest! I try to be faithful, but I will also fear that my love will be rejected and not accepted by him. Only Allah SWT and time can know and answer my questions and questions. Maybe back there he feels the same way as me or he also has a good target woman and in accordance with his criteria? I don't know what it's up to. Let time answer. Just walk!