Short Stories of Islamic Love
The Dilemma of Love in Silence

Do you remember our conversation a year ago? That's when you said

“I don't want to date.” I'm so glad to hear that.

“Why?”

“Because I don't want to spend time with the wrong people. I want to be a real Muslim. And I don't want to get wrath from Him.”

“Alhamdulilah then. I hope you can Istiqomah do it.”

“Aminnn”

“If it is like that, will you wait for someone to pick you up?”

“God willing I will wait until a man comes to my house to pick me up. As long as it waits for that to happen, I will always improve and prepare myself.” I am proud to love you. I feel like I love the right person. The spirit to repair and prepare was burning like a blazing fire.

Until one day. I saw you alone with a man I knew named Erik. Our classmate in class X who likes to sleep in class and arrive late. My heart fretted, I couldn't focus on the lessons the teacher gave me in class. I can't calm down. Your shadow with Erik always flashed through my mind.



Finally, I decided to ask your best friend, Ayu.

“Yu, Nisa same Erik any relation? How did they get together from earlier?”

“Emang you don't know lid?”

“Tau what?”

“Nisa equals Erik was already a month dating”

“What?!” Shouted

“Why Lid?”

“Papa kok Yu's. Thanks ya”

“Iya both Lid”

Instantly an extremely strong wind blew, extinguishing the spirit flames that had been burning all along. My heart, which was broken, is now broken into pieces.

I ran towards the top floor of the school building. A place where I can spill all my feelings.

“Why!!! Why!!! Why!!” My yelling. Clear lights started coming out of my eyelids. I wept. The heartbroken cry of a man who has just felt the beauty of loving someone with all his heart, making me forget the eternal love, the love of the almighty love.

“Antum why Lid?” that familiar hoarse voice surprised me. I turned around and saw a tall man standing a few feet away from me. He is Kevin, my best friend. He knew all my stories from the beginning until now.

“Antum crying Lid? Wh why? Is it because of Nisa? Conscious Lid! Conscious! Ane has told antum that all the consequences of this love can? So why is antum crying like this?”

“Ane can't see him with another man Vin, can't. She's ane's first love. Intercourse has been one year ane fostering this love.”

“In that right love antum for Nisa?”

“Iya Vin's. She always comes to mind ane without ane want.”

“OK if antum feelings to him like that. But please same antum, do not cry like gini. If antum is like this, antum is not Khalid who is familiar. Khalid who knows it will not cry even if the woman he loves with all his heart is dating someone else. What you know is that Khalid is strong, not fragile like gini. He also immediately prayed for the woman he loved to be freed from the valley full of sin.”

“She... she.. she seems to be very happy with Vin's girlfriend. He's getting away from ane more and more. Ane always wished Him to be close to Nisa if she was the soul mate He had set for ane, and vice versa. Do’a ane already answered Vin. Ane was asked to know him. You can't be far from Nisa, Vin. Can't do.”

“Antum have heard the words of the shafi imam’i Lid?”

“About what?”

“When your heart is too hopeful for someone, God will pour out to it the pain of hope. That ye may know that Allah is full of hope besides Him. Allah prevents you from saying that you may return to hope in Him.”

“Try antum introspection yourself first Lid. Ane was afraid that antum would start to move away from him. So, He kept antum away from Nisa.”

Hearing Kevin's words, I realized that all this time I had no intention of glorifying His name.

“Astagfirullah..” lirihku.

“Why can I be like this? O Allah, forgive your weak servant for he has forgotten You.”

I held my head up to look at Kevin kneeling before me.

“Syukron Vin.”

“Afwan, it has become an ane duty as a friend. Is antum better?”

“Alhamdulilah”

“Thank God then. Prayer zuhur yuk, we are already late 15 minutes.” I just nodded my head, then got up and walked towards the mushola.

After I finished the prayer, my feelings were calmer than before. I raised both my hands while berdo’a

“Yes Allah, forgive your weak servant because until now the servant still holds a love for one of Your servants there. O God, if this love keeps me away from You then take it away. Please, meet me with those who love you above all else, who love me because of You and who I love because of You. But if this love draws me closer to You and he is the one whom you set as my soul mate, then meet us at the right time. When we are ready, meet us in the sanctity of Your love.”