Still In Love's
EP. 100. Overthinking

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Arriving at the coffee shop, Orange then circulated his gaze, looking for the place where Blue was sitting at the moment.

His smile expanded as his eyes caught the figure of Blue sitting not far from where he was standing at the moment. However, it did not last long as he caught another figure sitting with Blue.

Squeezing the end of the dress he wore, Orange then walked slowly to approach Blue to get closer.

His body instantly shook and his heart rumbled as he clearly heard Blue's conversation with that person, Luna.

“When we met in Surabaya, I wanted to give you this, but even forgetfulness.” Luna handed him a black gift box with a red ribbon on it. “It just so happens that we meet here, so I love you now. I wanted to be on the staff of the Front Office of the hospital.”

“And don't bother giving gifts all, Lun. That part is also past.” Blue Speech.

The orange who witnessed it could only smile bitterly. His heart was pounding and his breathing was hunting, a sign he was holding back anger.

Orange really does not believe what he hears. He hoped his hearing was problematic, but damn he heard it so clearly.

“Kakak . . .” Orange was stunned with a deathly pale face as she approached Blue who was sitting and chatting with Luna. The person who has made the connection and Blue was at a distance.

Lopsidedly smiles. So the thing that the Orange feared happened? They met in Surabaya? When Orange cries alone because it misses the man, but Blue instead meets Luna there? Tck, very funny.

“Jingga. . .” Blue who heard the sound of orange suddenly turned towards him. The man looked surprised, and so did Luna. They seem to have made a mistake.

“Now what should I do? I'm tired, brother, if you have to see you like gini keep.” Orange shook his head slowly while smiling incisively.

“Ji, you are wrong pa–”

“Misunderstand it or not. I still don't like.” Sambar Orange cut off the Blue speech, then twisted his body and took quick steps to go out of that pretty stifling place.

Orange thought, everything was over until he and Blue could live happily without the shadow of Luna again.

Does Blue not remember how difficult it was for Orange to trust him first? Orange can indeed give his love for free, but not with trust.

No, Orange does not give trust to Blue for free. But what did that man do? Wasted it? Funny, so funny, all Jingga can do is laugh with tears that began to flow on her cheeks.

Passing through the crowd, Jingga walked in a daze until occasionally she hit the shoulders of some mall visitors.

“Dengerin me first, Ji.” Blue held off the hand of Orange who nearly opened the taxi door as soon as she managed to chase him. However, Orange quickly jerked Blue's hand and re-opened the taxi door.

“Yes if I go home with me, hem?” Blue again grabs Orange's wrist to prevent him from getting into the cab.

Orange looked straight at the hand checks while smiling with teary eyes.

“Lease!” Said cold.

“Ji, don't gini. Horrified me first, you misunderstood.”

Orange tickled amusedly. I don't know, right now he doesn't want to hear anything from Blue, he just wants to go home and calm himself down for a moment.

Removing her falling tears, she again jerked Blue's hand from her wrist. “I said, lastin.”

Orange then quickly got into the taxi when Blue's hand checks on his arms came off.

Blue tried to hold back the speed of the taxi that Orange was riding. But in vain, the taxi continued to drive until it disappeared from his sight.

“Sial.” Blue ruffled her own hair with a huff. He came back to destroy himself. This is indeed his fault, wrong because he is not open when previously had promised to share all things with Orange.

If only he had told Jingga that he met Luna in Surabaya and told her everything, maybe Jingga now would not have misunderstood his accidental meeting with Luna at the coffee shop earlier.

“Bi. . .” The blue that was about to set foot towards the basement parking lot instantly turned around as Luna's voice called out to her.

“Why, Lun?” Asking sounded impatient, he had to chase after Orange now.

“Your shopping missed.” Luna then handed over some shopping bags containing pregnant clothes belonging to Orange which was accidentally left in the coffee shop because it was too panicked to pursue her.

“Sorry, Bi. . .”

“I have to go now, Lun.” Sambar Blue ignored Luna who put on a guilty face, because what was on her mind at this time was to immediately meet Orange and explain everything.

Luna herself only smiled thinly which could not be interpreted and looked at Blue's departure from before her.

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Arriving at home, Blue parked his car carelessly. Then immediately he rushed into the house, heading to the room to meet the orange that had arrived first.

The traffic density on Sunday night made Blue arrive at his parents' house almost late. Ten o'clock at night.

Blue grabbed the handle of the room door, then pushed it, but he did not find the orange there to make him panic in fear. Afraid that the wife left him as before, but he breathed a sigh of relief as soon as he saw the peach-colored bag that had been worn by Orange lying on the bed.

Then after that, Blue's eyes were fixed on the cabinet rack that connected with his secret room. He remembered that when he was married, Orange had hidden there.

Blue was grateful that her guess was correct because as soon as she entered her secret room, she found Orange lying on her side on a folding mattress with a blanket covering her neck.

“Sayang.” The orange that had just eased his cry and was barely asleep, reopened its eyes when it felt a hand grab it.

“You're angry, yes, same me?” Blue asked after a while did not get the approval from his wife. “Sorry.” Continue while kissing the old Orange temple.

The orange who heard him smiled amusedly, should Blue ask like that? Isn't it obvious? The orange is not only angry, but disappointed.

Always like this, Blue let him down, apologized, and then finished. Orang sangsi if Blue had once thought of his feelings. Seems not.

“You lied again to me.” Tears that had initially subsided, now fell back flowing through the corner of his eye.

“You misunderstood, please horrify me first.” Pinta Briu welcomes her while trying to make her body turn to face her. But quickly Orange brushed off his hand.

“Try if you open with me. Maybe now I will not misunderstand and think strangely with you.” Snatch it with a stifled voice.

“I request ma–”

“You know, no, what I thought when I heard you met in Surabaya?” Sambar Orange who still reluctantly turned to look at Blue.

“Till I–”

“What are you doing with him? Do you see him every day right there? Are you really avoiding Luna as you promised? Are you guys diem-diem still in touch behind my back? Is the mutation just a distraction to keep me calm?”

The orange wiped away the tears flowing in the corner of his eyes. Smiling again, Orange felt that Blue had fooled him. Or maybe he was stupid, because he always believed in this man who was holding him.

*“*Sorry to me.”

“I won't miss this opportunity.”

“I won't do that again.”

“I promise. . .”

Such words always make it melt until finally Orange again trust Blue. But what's the payoff? The orange never expected to be let down again like this.

“No, Ji. . .”

“Why? You alone, really, that made me wonder like gini.” Sambar Orange turned to face Blue until their eyes met.

Blue sculpted, his lips became mute instantly as if what was said to be orange was indeed true and there was no resistance to it.

Blue look at the sad face, his hands then outstretched rubbing tears in both corners of the orange eye using his thumb. As soon as his heart ached, he really felt guilty for making the orange shed tears again.

“I know, you and Luna might just be friends, but I can't accept that. From the beginning I always said, but you keep ignoring it.” Said Orange with a choked voice.

Let's say he's selfish for not wanting Blue to have a girl friend other than him. While the Orange itself still has the Sky on its side. But, according to him Sky and Luna are two different people. Orange can't see Blue befriending Luna.

“I'm sorry, Ji, sorry.” Said Blue with a raucous voice, trying to withstand the pain in his chest after seeing the look of a sad face of Orange. “I'm sorry I fucked you again until you're sad like gini.”

“I'm still bosen denger you're sorry.” Exciting Orange, making Blue heart more slashed. “Ngapain you're sorry if the edges of me again like gini?”

“I always try not to fuss with you, but I think my efforts are still lacking. Again, please forgive me for that.” Blue is with a bitter expression.

“But, I hope you want to hear this.” Blue stroked soft orange cheeks that felt moist. “I met Luna in Surabaya at that time, once. But I'm just as he doesn't admit to anything as you thought.”

“I don't know if I should trust you or not.” Sahut Orange while releasing Blue hands from his cheeks.

Blue shook his head quickly and re-cupped both sides of his orange face. “Please, horrify me first. I did meet him, but just had a little chat in the hospital cafeteria, and he's sorry. That was aja.”

Blue then recounted his meeting with Luna some time ago.

Luna contacted Blue and asked her to meet when she found out the man was in Surabaya. Blue always ignored her, but when she accidentally met in the hospital, Luna kept begging her to give Blue a minute to talk.

As a result, Blue agreed and they spoke in the hospital cafeteria. Blue is getting ready with the threat of firing Luna if the girl acts crazy, vilifying Orange, or asking Blue to accept her love again.

Blue is wrong. What Luna did turned out to be beyond her expectations. The girl apologized to him for all the mistakes he had made.

Initially Blue is skeptical and says that Luna is trying to trick her. But after Luna kept pleading and Blue saw her earnestness, she finally believed and forgave Luna.

But even so, Blue says that her relationship with Luna can't be what it used to be, and Luna says it's okay that being forgiven alone is enough for her. Luna even congratulated her on the Blue and Orange wedding, and prayed for their happiness before ending the conversation.

“So you're sorry he did? Sure he's not lying anymore?” Ask Orange does not believe.

“Yes, Ji. Good intentions people want to apologize, yes I am not sorry. I believe really, he did not lie.” Sahut Blue. The orange that heard it immediately swerved.

“Yes, you must believe. He is, right, your beloved friend.” Excite Orange jutek with full emphasis on the word beloved friend.

“No, Ji. What's wrong with forgiving people?” Blue Reply. “You also always say sorry, right, if I make a mistake continue to apologize?”

Orange was speechless with a wry grimacing face. Although the reality is like that, but still Orange is upset and disappointed because previously Blue was not honest.

“Keep because you've been forgiven, you moved him back here?” Ask orange cynically, making Blue furrow his eyebrows do not understand the meaning of the question Orange.

“Move? Move how do you mean?”

“Yes you moved Luna again to the hospital here, right? You should, well, be aware, maybe that's the purpose he's apologizing for.” The light of the orange murmured.

Blue who heard that only sighed deeply, to keep himself patient. It's so strange, why is Orange so thin like this?

“It's time someone realized his mistake, Ji. You don't nethink that, dong, not good.” Beware Blue careful, while Orange just twists his lazy eyeball. Tck, sok advising, but himself also like that.

“As of you, deh.” Speak Lazy orange.

Blue chuckles small, then returns to speech. “Partially I don't have to move him, kok.”

“Keep, why is he here? You made a deal with him?” Sahut Orange still with a cynical tone, then moved from his sleep and chose to sit while bending the knees. Blue followed.

“I, tuh, just accidentally met him at the coffee shop.” Feeling grumpy, Blue then pulled the right cheek of Orange to make the girl more upset made.

“Aaan, hell, sick, know?” Kesal Orange brushed Blue's hand off her cheek.

Blue snorted, trying to be patient with the orange jutek attitude. “He came to Bandung for a pilgrimage to his father's tomb, all taking care of the letters moved because he will forever settle in Surabaya.”

“Ciee, know very well. That's why, tuh, whose name is a close friend.”

The sentence of the orange satire makes Blue more frustrated. My God, Blue wants to faint right now. Wasn't it just Orange who asked the reason for Luna's existence here? Why is he still being blamed?

“Know it, did you have a chance to chat for a while.” Blue is a little upset.

“Ciee, chat. Must have wanted a long time ago, only I hunted to come.” Cebik Orange makes Blue increasingly irritated and anxious at once. I swear by anything, he's never seen an orange this thick.

“Ji, try madep here, deh.” Blue Decree. However, the orange only spread its shoulders no matter what. “Just a minute, try here.”

Clucking, Orange then turned his head towards Blue. His eyes widened as Blue suddenly grabbed the nape, then kissed his lips quickly as he turned his head.

“Rese really, hell, my wife.” Blue said after she removed her lips from her orange lips.

“Ihh, you are what-ap–”

Not letting Orange speak, Blue again silenced the girl's mouth with her lips. No matter if the Orange is in contact, Blue still kisses it with a feeling of anxiety.

“Ngeselin.” Grunts Orange with a breath of breath while rubbing his wet lips using the back of the hand.

“Yang ngeselin it's you. I'm clear, but still overthinking the same me.” Reply Blue with the same breath hunting her.

“One of you, why don't you tell me the same story before?” The orange face was disappointed again.

Sighing, Blue took Orange into his arms. “Because I don't want you to think.”

Actually Blue had intended to tell Orange after his return from Surabaya, but he instead found Orange sick, and he increasingly did not have the right moment to know the pregnancy of Orange, and even more, eventually, he chose not to say it.

“And we promise to share everything.” Sambar Orange sounds weak.

“Yes, it is my fault that still can not open completely the same you.” Blue is sorry.

“I hate you.” Orange hit Blue's back hard.

“So please excuse me again this time. I still have to try, please understand me, hem?”

The orange did not answer. He understands that they are still in the stage of learning to understand each other and adjust to accept their respective shortcomings. But having Blue make a mistake, Orange somehow gets upset and can't take it like this.

Since when did he who was usually level-headed become unable to control his emotions like this? Is this what is called pregnancy? Ahh, really sucks.

“You want to excuse me, don't you?” Blue asked again while taking the distance to meet his gaze with Orange, but without releasing his embrace.

With a frowning face, Orange nodded. “But not sincere. I'm still sprained with you.”

Blue harrumphed amusedly, then re-hugged Orange tightly. “Nothing, tomorrow also definitely lost his sprain.”

“I hate you. You're evil.” Orange still wants to curse her husband. “You jerk.”

“Shuut, you don't talk that way, dong, later Dedek danger, you know.”

“Nothing, let him know his Papa rese.” Orange again grumbled, then pulled away, punching softly Blue's chest. “Ish, I hate you so much.”

Blue grabbed an orange hand to hold it. “Until you know, no?”

“Ngak.” Sambar Orange not interested.

“Ish, dengerin first.” Blue poking gaunt chin Orange. “Said Mama, if too hate the same person later his son looks like that person. Do you want Dedek to look like me?”

“Yes it's okay, right, you Papanya.” The orange still responds with ketus.

“Udah, ahh, don't sniff gini.” Blue poked his orange chin once more, then stood up and extended his hand. “Let's sleep, pity his Grandpa if you sleep too bad.”

“I don't want to sleep here.” Legut Orange hit Blue's helping hand.

“Iya, lah, will we sleep in the room, come on.”

“I mean, you sleep here, keep me the same Dedek in the room, both.”

Blue was surprised to hear it. “Ihh, where can I like that?

“Can.” Quick orange reply. “Say Dedek again do not want to sleep with his Papa.”

Orange stroking her stomach for a while accompanied by a sneaky smile on her back from the corner of her lips, It turns out that pregnant fun too, she can use the child in her stomach for excuses and ask for anything.

“Ji, you don't cheat, dong.” Blue protest not accepted.

“Ihh, who cheated. His grandfather who did not want to, kok.” Excite Orange while moving to get out. For a moment he turned around as he was about to open the closet shelf when he remembered something he had not said.

“Awas, yes, if you dare to get on the bed let alone, I make sure the next week you sleep alone. Here.” Orange gave a warning, making Blue who heard it can only sigh resignedly. Just tonight, it's okay.

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To be continued . . . .