Still In Love's
EP. 54. What Do You Want?

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The sky moved uneasily as the orange never returned from the bathroom. The reception is almost over. He had also contacted Orange several times, but his number was out of reach.

The sky grew even more worried when he did not find an orange in the bathroom. His steps and eyes skirted every corner of the place he was able to reach, looking around for an orange figure. However, the results remain nil.

“Where are you, anyway, Ji?” The sky wondered in its heart.

“Mana Orange?” Ask Bhishma when he saw Sky back alone, but the guy said he would catch up with Orange and take him home.

“Until there is nothing in the bathroom. I've searched almost everywhere, too, but he doesn't exist.” Clearly with a worried face. The sky ruffled his waist with one hand, while one more hand was rubbing his hair in a huff, signifying that the guy was very worried.

“Perhaps not, anyway, she's the same Blue?” Bian guessed when he realized Blue had not returned.

Moments after Orange left, Blue borrowed the key to Bhishma's car and said he would take the goods left there. But he has not returned yet.

“Blue?” Speak the Bhishma and Sky at the same time while looking at the chair that Blue was sitting on.

“But, I tried to call him.” Bhishma picked up the phone in her suit pocket, then started looking for Blue contacts to contact her.

“Sial, he brought my car.” Bisma came upon a message from Blue saying that he took his car and went home with Orange.

“Hah? How-how?” Bian's question didn't understand.

“Ya Blue bring my car, keep saying go home the same Orange.” Answer Bhishma.

“Lo sure he brought Orange home?” The timpal Sky hesitated, the look on his face still showing concern.

“Lo do not worry, Blue may not be macem-macem, kok.” Bisma is calming. Although in his heart he also felt worried, considering that Blue had been seen being emotional. Bhishma knew very well, his best friend was difficult to control himself when he was angry.

“Why can they go home together?” Luna muttered inwardly, she really felt annoyed. Although it has been separated, but does not make Blue can be far from Orange.

“Ya already, if so we also go home aja.” Albi's proposal which later got approval.

“Gue together elo, yes.” Pinta Bisma to the Sky and dikiatannya. They finally left the party area after saying goodbye to the owner of the event.

“Lo don't worry.” Bisma continued to try to calm down as she and Sky were already in the car.

“Blue again emotions, where can I not worry? You know what he did to Orange a few days ago? He's not in control.” Reply to the Sky.

“Yes, I understand. But I also know Blue. So you just calm down, I'm sure Blue just wants to solve the same problem Orange.”

“Gue will not stay silent if anything happens to the same Orange.” Seru Langit while gripping the steering wheel of his car growled.

“Quiet, I help you to mukul Biru if anything happens.” Sahut Bisma while patting the Sky's shoulder gently. The sky itself just grunted.

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Meanwhile, Blue who now brings Orange to his family's villa in Lembang, with emotions that control him, the man forces Orange to get out of the car and drags him to the room.

Originally Blue would only bring Orange home together, but her anger at remembering Orange leaving with Heaven made her take the girl there.

“Kak, how did you get the door?” Ask Orange to panic. But Blue still chooses silence.

The blue even more pulled the orange hand closer to the bed, then threw the girl's body there. Hard enough, until the pain instantly spread due to the impact between his back and the bed, making Orange grimace.

“Kak . . .” Orange Sound choked. He grew even more frightened when he saw Blue continue to walk closer to the bed with such a sinister gaze.

“Kak, what do you want?” The heart of Orange pounding fast found Blue has now encased it.

“I've told you never to say like ending or any other word of it.” Said Blue coldly while staring fixedly into the eyes of Orange that began to glaze.

“And I've also said, I don't like to see you with other guys.” Continue Blue.

“Kak–”

“Do I have to do this to make you understand?” Blue gripped the orange shoulder so that the girl did not continue to rebel, then she began to kiss her lips with a brutal gesture.

“Kak, you're okay, anyway?” A touch of Orange tried to push Blue's chest, but in vain. Now the guy even turned to peeling orange jaw to spread to his neck, giving a small bite, sucking it strongly, to produce some traces of ownership there.

“Kak .., hiks . .” The orange cry began to break. “Please don't believe gini.”

The girl could do nothing but surrender under the Blue cage. Blue energy is very strong, making it difficult for Orange to rebel.

Orange continued to hit Blue's chest hard, hoping the guy who was kissing her neck stopped. But Blue didn't notice it at all. He completely lost control, his hands even now have crept behind the back of the orange, pull the zipper, then lower the dress he wore to the chest. Similarly, the kiss is now creeping down to the shoulders and orange collarbone that looks prominent, and it makes it look sexy.

“Kak . . .” The orange voice sounded clear as Blue lowered his kiss towards the top of the orange chest which is now exposed because Blue lowered the dress, he sucked the part so hard that he left the hickey there.

“Kak, please. .” Orange Ink with a choking sound along with melted tears that spewed out soaked his cheeks. But Blue doesn't care about it. The man's consciousness was already covered by such great fury and fog of passion.

“I beg you, please don't believe gini.” Orange tried to hold Blue's hand which began to play with her breasts.

Blue stopped his action when he heard the sobs of orange that sounded so heartbreaking. The man then moved his head which was originally above the chest of Orange, then looked at the face of the girl who was now also looking at him with eyes pleading for anger.

“Ji . .” Blue with a heavy voice and the roar of breath that is still hunting. As if aware of what he had done, the man looked at Orange with a gaze that felt terribly guilty.

Orange brings his body to wake up, fix the dress that was lowered by Blue, then inching backwards to lean on the headboard of the bed.

With a body trembling in fear, he pulled out a blanket and covered his body to the waist. For a moment, Orange managed to catch her breath as much as she was crying too much.

“What did this guy say would fix everything? Is this how you fix it?” Ask Orange with a pushy look, not dampening the tears that continue to flow on his cheeks.

“What is this person who has told you that Daddy and Mommy will take care of me and protect me?” Ask again with a voice that is increasingly heavy along with the tightness that is stuck in his chest.

Blue, his mouth suddenly mute, the eyes that were originally filled with flashes of anger and the fog of passion are now turning soft, staring at every tear drop that continues to fall down through the face of Orange. She wanted to stretch out her hand to wipe away her tears.

“You are just a bad guy who is always emotional and can only hurt me.” The orange spills into the depths of the heart and the Blue of hearing.

“Ji, I–” Blue tried to get closer and tried to grab Orange's hand, but the girl immediately brushed it off. “I'm sorry.” His words are full of regrets.

Orange just fell silent, staring at the Blue otter although tears still wrapped around him.

“I'm sorry, I'm really nyesel. I was so angry that I couldn't control myself, sorry.” Said Blue again, did not let go of his eyes on the orange which now turned his face fed up.

Guys are still trying to grab hold of Orange's hand, but the girl always brushes him off. Blue can't be pushy, because he doesn't want to scare the orange anymore.

“I was almost crazy when you said you were going to end it all, and I was really angry when I saw you with another guy.” Blue continues to express her feelings. While Jingga was still silent, to create an atmosphere of silence in the room.

“Why? You don't want to lose your stuff?” Ask Orange sarcas, remembering Blue which always makes Orange feel like an item that is always treated as he pleases.

“No, Ji. Not at all like that.” Blue shook her head quickly, she grabbed Orange's shoulder to face her, but the girl instead distanced her body.

“You want what, anyway?” Ask Orange in frustration. “Stop confusing me. Is it my fault that you can treat me like a gini? All this time I also never maksa you make back the same me.”

Orange exhales violently. All this time he wanted to hear the honesty of Blue's heart, but until now he didn't get it. Blue just kept torturing his feelings like this.

“Tell me, what should I do? What should I do to let you stop me and let me go?”

“No, I never want to let you go.”

“Or you won't let me go because of this?” Slowly Orange came down from the bed, then lowered the dress until it was completely detached and left only the underwear that wrapped his body, and it made Blue surprised.

“You need my body, right?” Orange stretched out its arms, staring at Blue with eyes that returned glistening.

“What are you, anyway?” The Blue Sentence immediately jumped towards the Orange and re-imagined the dress. “Don't be crazy, Ji.”

“Why? You weren't satisfied, were you, before this? Please, if this can make me detach from you. I also still want you to say your body is only interested in my body at that time.”

Blue sighed in frustration. “Neither, Ji.”

The orange pushes Blue's body, and returns to lower the dress.

“STOP!” Shouted Blue loudly until Orange was frightened. For the first time he heard Blue yelling at him that hard. Orange body to the point of trembling and his breath choked. “I said no like it.”

“Why? What do you want from me?” The orange repeated the question as his body slumped, sitting weakly on the floor. “You are evil.”

“Sorry. . .” Blue sat down on his knees, and he grabbed the girl's trembling body.

“Sorry to have snapped at you.” The girl still did not want to raise her face. “Sorry it's been too much with you.”

“You hurt me.”

“Iya, I know.” Blue hands crept across the girl's back. “That's because I'm confused as I feel.”

Blue thought his defense all this time wouldn't collapse. Unfortunately Orange managed to bring a strange feeling in his heart, but until now Blue also still did not understand what he felt. Or rather prestige, he had the prestige to lick his own spit.

“So since you're confused, can you please be just like me? Blue you just lost your memory, not lost your mind.” Orange pushed Blue's chest until her embrace was released. “Cterminate you.”

“But now I realize that I love you.” Biiru grabbed the hand of Orange, but quickly pushed aside.

The girl smiled disappointed. Already late. Blue had gone too far to hurt her heart, all of Orange's hopes for her were gone.

“Eat I want us to start all over again, from the beginning. You want to, right?”

Orange again brushed off Blue's hand that almost grabbed his shoulder, then threw away his face, reluctant to look at the man.

“Ji, please see me.” Pinta Blue ogre.

“I want to go home.” Orange speech does not heed Blue speech. He stood up, shortly after fixing the dress.

The guy had eroded his confidence, before Orange had made a decision with the heart, this time not. He'll use his brain. The orange doesn't want to hurt anymore.

“Ji. . .” Blue quickly restrained the orange arm that began to step closer to the room door. The man looked at Orange for an answer.

“I said I wanted to go home.” Said Orange once again, he looked at Blue expressionlessly.

Blue sighed deeply while closing her eyes briefly. The situation is not right to discuss that. The orange looks still shaken.

“This is malem. We'll go home tomorrow, okay?” Persuade Blue while trying to lead the girl to bed and occupy her there.

“Then you get out there.” Cast out the orange with a raucous voice from crying too much. Orange does not want to argue Blue. Fear still haunts him, Orange is afraid Blue does the unexpected as before if he debates it.

“No, I've got you.”

Orange snorted, jerked Blue's hand, then spoke coldly. “You want to make me hate you more, huh?”

“OK, I'm out.” Blue relented. “I'm sorry.” Say it while giving a smooth swipe at the top of the head of Orange, before then moving away from the room.

Orange locked the door of his room tightly after Blue's departure. The memory of what Blue had done to her a while ago frightened her and had to be more vigilant.

Orange took the phone from inside her bag, she exhaled in frustration when she found her phone dead. There was no charge or power bank in his bag. Damnit. He couldn't reach Dad or Sky to pick her up.

The night is getting late, even time has shown at two in the morning. But Jingga had not been able to close her eyes, heart and mind that were in a frenzy made her just roll around on the bed. The method he used did not make him sleepy. He had to count sheep, hoping his drowsiness would come.

“879 sheep . . .”

“880 sheep . . .” And Orange fell asleep after that, leaving the chaos in his heart for a moment.

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In the morning at about half-six, Jingga came out of the room after washing her face in the bathroom. His eyes skirted every corner of the room, looking around for where the kitchen was. Her throat was so dry, she needed a drink.

The orange eyes sparkled as if finding an oasis in the middle of the desert as his steps arrived at the kitchen. Quickly, his hand was stretched open the fridge door and took a bottle of cold mineral water from there, then he gulped it down to the toilet. Now his throat feels so relieved.

“Non Orange is awake?” The voice of someone shocked Orange who was still standing in front of the fridge. The frowning orange eyebrows found a middle-aged woman his mother's age now standing before him.

“I Bi Nyai, who used to take care of Pak Rendi's family villa.” He introduced himself, as if he understood the confusion of the orange. Om Rendi's villa is indeed only two confidants who take care of it. Bi Nyai and Pak Ujang her husband.

“This is true Non Orange, right? His future wife Den Blue? Aunt heard from Mom, you're getting married. Turns out his future wife Den Biru is very beautiful.” Cerocos the middle-aged woman.

“I-iya, Bu.” Answer Orange awkwardly. He was forced to agree, because he did not want to raise more questions.

“Call me Aunty aja, Non.” Said Bi Nyai while commenting on her smile.

“Iya, Bi.” Orange replied with a friendly smile.

“Then, Aunty excuse me to prepare breakfast.” Pamit Bi Nyai was polite, Jingga just nodded her head. But before Bi Nyai left, the woman was momentarily stunned to see the neck of Orange which there are many love bite there.

“What's up, Bi?” Ask an orange who feels uncomfortable being noticed that way.

“Ahh, No, Non.” Reply bi Nyai wavered before he finally really left.

“Basic of young people today. Like tube first before legitimate.” Bi Nyai muttered in his heart while shaking his head.

Shortly after, Jingga returned to the room to pick up her bag, she wanted to go home as soon as possible. But he was confused how, because the area was not passed by public transportation.

“Where are you going, Ji?” Blue asked who found Orange out of the room with his bag.

“Rome.” Answer the short orange without looking towards the Blue.

“Breakfast first, Ji.” Blue Pinta, but Orange does not heed it. The girl passed by leaving Blue and stepped out of the villa in a swift motion. Blue also inevitably had to chase after Orange, he quickly grabbed his wrist when he reached the front yard.

“OK, we go home now.” Blue gives up and leads Orange into the car. Not to forget he said goodbye first to Mr. Ujang and Bi Nyai.

Along the way, there was no conversation between them, making the atmosphere in the car feel frozen. The silence of the Orange who would not answer the words that Blue made him stop to speak.

“You sleepy? Yes, if you sleep. When I arrive, I wake up.” Blue said when he saw Orange leaning on the car seat while closing his eyes. The girl came back unnoticed.

Orange chose to take the time to pretend to sleep to avoid possible conversations with Blue. Besides, he was also sick of seeing Blue's face long ago.

The journey home felt so long because they were stuck in traffic. Karrena is definitely a holiday. In my heart, Orange wants to curse everyone because they have to travel on holidays. Because of them, the road became jammed, causing the longer he had to be stuck with Blue.

An hour later, Orange felt Blue slow down his car and stopped abruptly. The orange that was still maintaining its sleep pretence slowly opened its eyes. The girl realized that they had arrived in front of the apartment building.

“Wake up, Ji?” Blue asked who saw Orange rub his face. The girl still ignored him, she immediately opened the car door and went down without saying goodbye first.

Blue immediately got out of his car to chase after the orange that had just come down when he realized something.

“Ji, wait.” He grabbed an orange wrist and managed to stop his steps.

“I'm also sorry for this.” Blue wrapped her handkerchief wide enough along the neck of Orange to cover the love bite she made last night.

For a moment Orange was stunned while touching part of his neck. It was only fitting that this morning Bi Nyai noticed him like that. That woman must have been thinking of him.

“You rest. We'll meet and talk tomorrow.” Say Blue while wiping the top of the head short orange. It felt Blue was unwilling to end her meeting with Orange at this time, but she had to give the girl a moment to calm down. Either way, Blue will keep the orange on his side.

“Do not hope!” Sahut Orange stared at Blue with an unreadable expression.

“I go home first.” Blue replies don't heed.

The man then passed and got into his car, leaving a still-silent orange in front of his apartment building.

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The next morning, Blue entered the room with a shunt. It seems like Orange is still unwilling to speak and wants to avoid it today. Evidently when he picked her up at the apartment, Jingga did not open the door for him. Similarly, when he calls, his number is even out of reach.

Blue has also been looking into his room, in the garden, roof, and places around the hospital that is usually visited by Orange. But the girl wasn't there.

Thus, he decided to go to his own room and meet Jingga later at lunch hour because maybe at this time the girl was already busy with her work.

Blue's pupils instantly widened as the pink box object on the desk stole his attention. He then approached the table, and slowly opened the box cover.

Funny things like dolls, bag hangers, some polaroid photos, a blue necklace, a bottle of strawberry yogurt, and a letter were inside.

Blue outstretched hand took the letter written in orange origami paper, then he began to read a long line of writing.

This may be the last strawberry yoghurt I can give you, drink this and forget about me in every one.

You don't have to remember me from now on. Because in the end, you still have to forget me.

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To be continued . . . .