Still In Love's
EP. 49. Yourself Extra

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“Eung, Ji.” Call Heaven then after sipping his drink.

“Hmm.” Jingga raised her fist to bring her eyes together with the sky that had been sitting opposite her.

“Main honest-honesty, yuk.” The orange almost choked with the pizza he was chewing in his mouth when he heard this ridiculous and laughable sound of Heaven.

The sky chuckled at the reaction of the Orange which he thought was a little exaggerated. With both hands, he held tightly to his mineral water bottle, he then leaned his back on the back of the chair.

“What game, tuh?” Orange does not immediately agree to come to play.

“Ikutin aja. . .” The sky does not argue.

Sighing a long breath, Sky then thought for a while to remember all the moments he had gone through with Orange.

“Hmm. . ., honestly, I was really late when we were kind of kindergarten, you like to call me hey, or flabby. It was so hard to call him again. Pas TK, you tuh, like thugs know. How much to bother me again.” The sky snorted at the end of his sentence.

Orange smiled, her memory drifting away at the time when she and Sky were still in kindergarten.

The sky and small orange have properties that are inversely proportional. If the sky is quiet, very weak, and likes to be muddled. So Jingga is an active daughter, her attitude is a little haughty, strong, and will defend anyone who gets unfair treatment including Heaven.

True, while still in kindergarten, Sky is a child who is always surrounded by friends because of his attitude is very quiet, difficult to get along, so it has no friends, so it is not, before then Orange came to defend and invite him to make friends.

For the Orang-O, Heaven is the first and only friend. Although Orange is an active child, it has no friends who are really close to it. That's because his body seems to be able to protect himself about who can approach or he approaches. Orange chooses a friend based on his heart, and Heaven is the one who can befriend him, let him be said to be arrogant.

The sky that likes to be alone is actually uncomfortable with the presence of Orange that always approaches and bothers him every day. Orange always invites him to talk and play together, but the Sky always ignores him. Until one day, Jingga felt anxious and grabbed the picture book belonging to Heaven and put it in her bag.

Until finally Sky upset and asked Orange to return the picture book. Orange smiled with satisfaction because Heaven finally wanted to talk to him. Then, Orange with all its messiness said that the Sky must want to make friends and play with him if the picture book wants to return. From that moment they became close.

“Haha, that's because you used to be flabby. Where there are boys who are bullied, but only. That's it, you, tuh, are quiet like people who can't talk. Eat it I like to disturb you.” Orange chuckles chiming.

“Honestly, I'll be as nice as you if we go to the mall. Yes, I followed you from one store to another, already bring your groceries as bad as again. Everywhere anyway, usually guys who follow girls shopping, this is even the opposite.” Add Orange. The sky snorted between annoyance and amusement.

“That's, right, my hobby.” The sky defends itself. The orange just rolled his eyeballs lazily. It was just a wonder until now because the Sky has a hobby of excessive shopping like that.

“Yaa, yes. Tomorrow I no longer want to be invited to shop at the same mall you again.” Orange Speech.

“Ihh, why?” Ask Sky.

“Because I'm just a coolie whose job is to pick up your stuff. Mending if paid.” Cibir Orange. The sky laughed and heard him.

“Now it's your turn.” Speak Orange then while throwing pieces of sausage topping towards the Sky.

“I, yes. Honestly, I was so late, until now you still like to say I'm skinny and snot boy.” The sky pretends to be bad.

“Iya deh, now you have metamorphosed into a beautiful butterfly until all the nurses and female doctors in the hospital are competing to catch you.” Reply Orange with a soft tone.

A snort came back out from the reddish lips of the Sky. But the guy didn't say anything, there was no reply to the orange speech just now.

“But to be honest, yes. I wonder, how can you be a handsome kayak oppa-oppa Korean gini? You're an oplas, huh?” Add later.

“Ihh, good aja.” The sky snorted violently while throwing pizza sauce at the face of Orange. The girl just chuckled amusedly and swiftly caught the pizza sauce so as not to hit her face.

“Now it's my turn again, yes. You already took the ration.” The sky then.

“As of you, deh.” Orange sounds unwilling surrender.

“Ehem . . .” The sky cleared his throat, he straightened his body, his gaze staring straight at the Orange with a serious face. “Honest. When I first saw you wearing your high school uniform, you looked so pretty. And since then I started seeing you as a woman.”

Stunned orange. The relaxed expression that filled his face slowly faded, changing with the look of a flat face, staring straight at the Sky.

“I think I’m in love with you. I like you, Ji.” Speak the Sky gazing in clear orange eyes that look confused.

The orange froze even more, a sentence he never wanted to hear, finally spewing out from the mouth of Heaven, piercing into his eardrum, very clear. But he hoped this was a joke.

“Lang, don't be kidding, deh. Not funny, know.” Orange trying to restore the atmosphere. Still thought the sky was just joking, but it wasn't.

“But, I hope you are not burdened by what I just said. I reveal this so I can be relieved because all this time I have harbored my feelings with you.” The sky sighed for a moment to pause his sentence. “I won't sue you, kok, Ji. I just want you to know how I feel.”

The orange fell silent again, and soon his tongue became a mute.

“Lang. . .” The girl shook her head weakly, the look on her face between bewildered and surprised.

The sky flashed a knotty smile, then both of his outstretched hands grabbed the hands of an orange and grasped them gently.

“I didn't expect much less to ask you to return my feelings. I'm just asking, you don't hate me after knowing all this, and I'm also asking you not to let this affect our friendship. It won't change anything.”

The guy stroked the back of an orange hand. He felt relief in his heart.

“Stay be my best friend, hum?” The sky stroked one orange cheek. The girl looked shaken, her body pecking with blank eyes.

“You make me look like a bad guy.” The orange blur, made the sky frown not understand.

The man pulled his hand and moved to sit next to the orange.

“Ji, how come, say that?” The sky again grabbed the hand of the orange to hold it.

“How can you hold your feelings all this time? How can you grumble if I am the same Blue? All this time I kept sharing happy and sad feelings about her without paying attention to your feelings. Lang, you must be hurt, right?” Orange looked at the sky with a sad face, his eyes full of guilt.

He knows how it feels, how painful it is to see our loved ones paying more attention to others.

“Without me knowing, I must have hurt you. How am I supposed to face you now, Lang?” The sound of an orange choked along with tears that spilled down his cheeks.

“Jingga–”

“It's definitely not easy. Seeing people you like, but liking others. I'm so mean, Lang, same as you.”

The sky quickly clasped the body of the Orange into its embrace. The sky did not know if the orange reaction would be like this. She thought the girl would be angry, but instead ended up blaming herself like this. Instantly it made Sky a little regret already expressing his feelings.

“No, Ji. No that's. Please don't beat yourself up.” The sky spoke softly.

The girl fell silent again, sobbing softly in the arms of Heaven.

The sky rubbed soft orange hair. “Many ways to love someone, Ji. You really, my heart may hurt when you feel like other people, but I'm even more hurt if the people I love are not happy.”

For a moment Sky let out a long sigh to then continue his sentence. “So, since I want you to be happy, eat it I prefer to always support you, let you be happy in your own way and choice.”

The sky again scooped up the air to fill his empty lung cavity. Not being able to have an orange does not mean you have to stop loving and loving it. Maybe that's how he loves that girl.

According to Heaven, let his love for Orange be his business. How the orange feels to him, it's an orange affair, Heaven never expect to get a reply to his feelings, because we can not force ourselves to be able to have the love we want.

“Why did you just say it now, Lang?” Orange raised his head to meet his gaze with the sky.

The orange doesn't know it's too late or not. But had Sky said it before Blue came, perhaps Orange would have considered his feelings and he would not have made Heaven hurt like this.

The sky of good people. And if Orange knew this long ago, it's possible that she wouldn't be stuck in a painful relationship with Blue right now.

“Because I don't want to lose you.” The sky kissed the top of the head of the deep orange, as if channeling his love all this time there.

Orange is someone who means a lot in the life of Heaven. The orange is always in his likes and sorrows. The orange is the one who makes it strong. If it wasn't for the Orange, maybe the Sky would be a special needs child by now.

Sixteen years ago when she was ten, she saw her mother hit by a truck and died on the spot while crossing when she was about to pick her up.

All his laughter disappeared in an instant, Heaven lost its world. The sky was traumatized, so he had difficulty speaking and continued to blame himself. His father and brother Dusk were very sad to see the state of Heaven, even doctors were not able to make him recover.

From that day on, Orange with his optimistic mind always came to the house of Heaven and invited him to speak every day, continuing to disturb him until the Sky was disturbed angry at him, he said, and finally Heaven spoke again and could live his life normally, let his mother go without continuing to blame him.

It's okay, Sky is ready to accept any consequences after he expresses his feelings.

“Continue now? In the end you did that too, right?” Lirih Jingga with a gaze of protest and disappointment mixed. Why should Heaven let him hear this now?

“I'm sorry. Sorry I like you.”

“Nggak.” Orange shook slowly. “Your feelings are not wrong, because we cannot choose to fall in love with whom.”

Orange stared in the eyes of the sky. Their eyes locked on each other for a while.

“But I am sorry, sorry for not being able to return your feelings.” Imbuh Orange.

The sky smiled as it wiped away the tears flowing down the Orange cheeks. “I, right, told you not to be burdened. You know enough and don't think about.”

“You're outrageous. Where can I like that?” The orange protest.

The sky again submerged the girl's head into his arms. “I hope, our relationship has not changed after this.”

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The next day, Jingga came early in the morning to the hospital. He did it to avoid the sky. Although the guy said not to be burdened, but still Orange needs time to be able to accept all this.

And here he was now, sitting leisurely enjoying the morning air under the tree that was in the garden beside the hospital, his gaze staring blankly. His face looked cute and tired from lack of sleep.

The honest play left him shaken. His head was dizzy with everything that had not been resolved. Orange wants to escape from Blue and Orange does not know how to face the Sky now.

In the empty glaring view, dark circles under the eyes bring together the picture of fatigue and sadness. Repeatedly he exhaled heavily, hoping that all the burden in his heart was wasted along with it.

Orange turned his head when he felt someone sticking a bottle of yogurt on his cheek. Orange reached out to receive the bottle of yogurt. But a moment later, he turned his gaze back to the other direction, not wanting to linger with Blue.

“It turns out you're here. I picked you up, but you're not.” Said Blue after successfully taking a seat next to Orange. “I also called you from last night, but you didn't pick up, it wasn't active.”

Orange glances at Blue. He did indeed intentionally set up a silent mode for calls from Blue after what happened last night.

Sighing deeply, Blue then grabbed an orange hand to hold it. “I'm sorry last night did not dat–”

“Udah is okay. I don't want to talk about that.” Sela Orange slightly jerked Blue's hand to escape from his grasp.

The girl's words sounded cold. Blue has never seen an orange like this, although the orange was indifferent the first time they met at a family dinner.

“You angry?” Blue grabbed the orange shoulder for the girl to face him.

Orange was silent while pulling a little one of the corners of his lips. Again, Blue always doesn't realize his mistake.

“Ji, I totally forgot. Sorry I came to terlam–” Blue tried to explain, but the girl interrupted him again.

“I said it was okay. Luna section is more important.”

Blue was stunned, suddenly his heart slipped and felt guilty at once.

“Ji –”

“You should have said that you couldn't come before. I know, it was just dinner. But you know, no, I was really happy when you were convinced it was?”

“OK I was wrong. We can change the time tonight, how?” Persuade Light blue.

Orange hissed with a slick smile, he shook his head slowly, then said. “Udah, Brother, enough. Last night was the last chance I could give you. It's enough that I'm the third person among you with Luna.”

“Ji, what are you talking about, anyway?”

Orange grunts violently. This guy with the title Professor next to him is stupid or what?

“I saw you with Luna in the park last night.” Clear Orange.

The guy blinked, starting to understand why the orange was this angry. “I just nemenin him. You don't get me wrong.”

“And you hug her.” Sambar Orange.

The guy was silent, there was no fight for a while.

“Udah, Brother. I'm tired of you.” Orange then moved from his seat, but with a quick movement Blue held his arm.

“Do not get angry just because of small things like gini. You clearly know who I'm going to marry. And for dinner, I can change it later tonight, or every day we have dinner together if you want.” Said the guy was cold. Even with his eyes.

“Temple it, yes, you are talking?” Sahut Orange looked at Blue disappointed. He then jerked Blue's hand back, then sauntered away leaving the guy with a feeling that was much more hurt than before.

Blue really has given her the worst birthday present. Orange should be happy today, but it doesn't seem to be on his side.

It felt like he suddenly felt nauseous imagining that he would soon marry someone like Blue who had no firmness, was very selfish, and was also heartless. Although she still loves Blue, but she is really fed up with her attitude.

Blue is restoring her hair in frustration. He was completely unfamiliar with this kind of debate. Blue is not unusual to persuade a girl.

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It seems like today is a bad day for Orange. Apart from Blue, now even alone in the elevator with Luna. Orange wonder, why this wolf in sheep's clothing has entered work? Didn't Blue suggest to rest first?

“What's your dinner fun, Doctor Orange?”

Clearly, the two of them had used Luna to directly attack Orange.

“Ups, I forgot. I'm sorry, yeah, I think last night Blue was better for me than for dinner with you. I guess he also forgot, deh, have a promise with you.” Added Luna.

The orange growled with both hands clenched behind his suit pocket. Really sneaky snake.

“Oh, yes? Continues?” The orange tried to respond to him casually.

“So, you should, well, be able to open your eyes if Blue is not in love with you.” Luna said with a sly grin.

“Emang why if Blue is not in love with me?” Reply Orange defiantly, this time Luna who began to be irritated.

“Yes because Blue is not in love, so I want you to release him.” Answer Luna.

Orange tickled amusedly, one corner of his lips lifted up to form a faint smile. “Who are you telling me to do that?”

“You burden him, don't let him get caught up with your obsession.” Luna said.

“If you are sure Blue is burdened, try to say the same he made me.” Challenge the Orange again while singling a thin grin.

Damnit. Luna's initial intention to make Orange jealous and emotionally ignited, even so herself who fires a beard.

“And isn't that you, huh, who's obsessed with Blue? See, even you keep asking me to release him. Though obviously you said that Blue is not in love with me.” Orange looked at the girl satisfied.

Luna growled, she clenched her hands with her jaw hardened. It was very desirable for him to claw at the pretty face of Orange right now.

“Luna, this dread. I tell you as a good human being, don't let your obsession destroy what you already have. Do not rule out the possibility, if you will lose a loved one just because of your obsession.” Say sincere orange, even his gaze.

An instant Orange took a breath and then continued his speech.

“Emang is not wrong to love someone. But, not forever we have to force ourselves to be able to have the love we want.” Jangro continued to end their conversation. He then chose to get out of the elevator, even though it had not reached the destination floor.

Leaving behind Luna who stared at her departure sharply and whose face was flushed red.

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To be continued. . . . .