Still In Love's
EP. 59. Lies

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The flashback

A few months ago, when Orange only learned the fact that Blue had memory loss and decided to fight to bring back the memory and heart of Blue.

Since then, Orange has always tried to remind Blue of his past memories. Starting from the story to bring Blue to the places they have visited, although at that time it was very difficult to invite Blue.

Sometimes the orange gets upset on its own. Blue who asked for his help so that his memory quickly returned, but who helped even ogah-ogahan like that.

One day in her room, Orange finds a journal she once found in a Blue bag nine years ago. Orange asked Blue to give it before his departure to America.

The journal was tucked between rows of medical books on a bookshelf as he searched for one of his books on heart surgery instruments.

Orange opens sheet by sheet the pages of the journal. He smiled as he looked at the contents of the journal whose paper had started to turn yellow, yet what was filled on it was still very clear, not fading. The journal contains a collection of photos of Orange in various activities that Blue took secretly, ranging from her meeting the girl to her last meeting before her graduation day.

“Why did I forget this?” Orange Mumm.

“I'll show it to him tomorrow.” Said Jingga then while smiling her smile. He'll show you another proof that Blue used to follow him like a stalker. Because all this time, Blue did not believe that he was like that when Orange told him.

“Awas aja, you will be ashamed of yourself after reading your own handwriting.” Orange smiled as she imagined how Blue would look after seeing this.

“I hope, this can help.” The orange exhaled heavily, then stuffed the journal into his bag.

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In the afternoon at the hospital, Orange came out of the room with a journal in his hand. He was going to the Blue room to give it to him, and he took him to lunch.

When the elevator door opened, Orange was surprised to find the sky was there. As usual, they greeted each other in an irritating style.

“Where are you going, Lang?” Ask Orange after she comes in and stands next to the guy.

“Pak Rendi calls me. Know, deh, want to do.” Answer the sky as he puts his shoulders.

“Maybe be fired times.” The original orange chirp, made Heaven unable to resist touching the girl's forehead hard.

“Aww, pain.” The orange stirred while rubbing his forehead with one of the backs of his hand holding the journal.

“What book?” The sky suddenly snatched the journal from the hands of the Orange.

“My Boo. . .” Not finished making sure, Orange has taken the journal back.

“Kepo you.” Cibir Jingga while holding the journal in front of his chest to avoid the reach of Heaven's eyes.

“Most contents of bucin sentence for refrigerator.” The sky turned to sneer, making the orange glare.

“I first. Ohh, yes, call me if you're fired. I'm ready to pinjemin shoulder for you cry.” Claw orange before he gets out of the elevator.

“Sialan.” Heavenbump. But Orange did not heed it and passed away, taking big steps to get to the Blue room immediately.

Orange's face slightly frowned when it did not find Blue in his room. But she realized it was her own fault for not contacting the guy before.

Orange snorted, then chose to keep his journal on Blue's desk. He then exited the man's room while trying to reach him by phone.

Sure enough, Blue was not in his room because he was having lunch outside with Albi, Bian, and Bhishma. Orange apologized for just walking into her room.

“So, I kept a journal on your desk. See that later, it's proof of your purity same me.” Say Orange to Blue across the phone.

“Hmm.” Sahut Blue sounds lazy, but the orange does not mind it.

“Ya. I hung up. Sorry to interrupt your lunch.” Tell Orange while hanging up his phone.

But without realizing it, Luna who happened to be going to the Blue room passed by him and heard all his conversations with Blue on the phone. The girl passed by Luna just didn't care.

“Proof?” Luna smiled grinning. A sneaky idea popped into his head. He kept taking his steps to get into the room.

“Do not expect, I will not let Blue heart waver with childish proof kayak gini.” Luna smiled cunningly as she managed to see the contents of the journal that Orange kept on Blue's desk.

After that, he hurriedly came out of Blue's study room with his journal belonging to Orange.

Luna put the journal into her tenteng bag and never took it out all this time, until finally the journal accidentally returned to Blue's hands.

For the next time, Orange forgot to ask if Blue had seen his journal or not? It was hindered along with his quarrel with Blue which occurred more often.

Flashback off

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Blue Eyes with full focus read a line of writing that looks like a letter written by a teenager who is drunk with love on the second page of the journal after previously reading the orange biodata on the first page. Blue read the neatly lined writing so that no one missed a word.

For Orange, my beloved. . . .

I fell in love with you at first sight, you are the prettiest next to my Mama.

Orange, you are the only girl who managed to make me do something ridiculous beyond my predictions. Never once have I thought of stalking someone. But it’s all unexpected, when I’m with you.

You are a magnet that has a different pole than me, so I can only be interested in you, and I really-no real mrs my feelings from before.

But Orange, although our time together is short, but my love is much longer than that. Love me is the same you are without time limit. Forever, only you will and I can love.

Orange wait for me.

I promise to be the successful doctor you asked for, and after that I will propose to you like a prince.

See yes.

You’ll always be my boo, Orange.

“Tck.” Blue tickled amusedly, feeling silly with what he read, but he did not dodge that it was his own true handwriting.

“So, I kept a journal on your desk. See that later, it's proof of your purity same me.”

Suddenly Blue remembered Orange had once said about him keeping a journal on his desk.

At that time Blue ignored and forgot about it because it was busy. But true, Blue had never seen the journal in his room. Blue only found it from Luna's bag a moment ago.

“Why can this be in Luna bag?” Blue wonders. But for a moment he ignored it. Blue chose to continue to open the next page.

Blue was stunned when he saw a collection of candid photos of Orange in various activities. Then unexpectedly, the events when he filled the journal appeared. Blue remembers, in the library in his house, he wrote a letter on the second page of the journal crying at the thought of the orange he would leave behind.

Blue felt his heart pounding violently. It turned out that the memory spurred other memories open, starting from his last meeting with Orange on the playground.

Blue began to remember him, his hands were sweating and shaking violently as pieces of his memories with Orange sprung up so clearly that at his first meeting. All of his memories returned and were firmly fixed in his heart and mind.

“Jingga . . .” He closed his mouth with one palm to hold back his crying voice.

Not directly down from the car, Blue instead turned on and re-applied his car at high speed while crying. He hurriedly wanted to meet Jingga, the girl he loved and missed so much.

In the past, Blue did not believe the Orange speech if he really loved the girl was very big.

“Sorry me . . .” The blue tears even more when she realized her bad attitude towards the orange that hurt her so much that it made the girl leave.

“Yes, I love you. But you? Have you ever cared about me?”

“I'm tired of fighting alone. . .”

And the poignant words of Orange as the girl tried to end her relationship reverberated in her head.

“Sorry. I'm sorry I fucked you up and behaved badly.” Blue with regret in her heart that was full.

Blue came to the house of the parents of Orange. Om Rendra and Aunt Mona are a little surprised because Blue visits nights like this.

“Bi, what's wrong? Let's go in first.” Asked Aunt Mona who saw Blue standing in the doorway with reddened eyes holding back tears.

“Om and Auntie please tell me where is Orange now? I beg . . .” Om Rendra and Aunt Mona are shocked to see Blue suddenly kneeling before them.

“Please say the same Orange if I already remember everything.” Blue said then while clenching both hands pleading.

Om Rendra and Aunt Mona are again surprised and happy when they hear that Blue's memory has returned. But they were not given a chance to speak up for Blue.

“I'm sorry I hurt Orange's heart. I admit that I've been cold and selfish with him. But please, Om and Aunt tell Orange to go home.” Blue stared at the faces of Om Rendra and Aunt Mona alternately with a face of bleaching and tears welling up in her eyes.

“You can't be like this, Bi. Come on, log in first.” Said Om Rendra piba while guiding Blue to wake up and invite him to sit on the living room sofa.

“I'm sorry, Om, Aunt. Orange go like this because I've been acting bad.” Lirih Biru lowered her head deeply in front of the old man Orange.

“But again please ask Orange to go home soon.” Blue looked back at the faces of Om Rendra and Aunt Mona with a face of compassion and despair.

“I've been mean, eat it I want to apologize the same Orange. So please–” Blue could not continue his sentence anymore when suddenly his throat felt choked due to a restrained cry.

Blue covers the face using both palms by placing both elbows on top of the thighs as a buffer. He returned to his tears there.

“Bi . . .” Aunt Mona sat down next to Blue, rubbing the back of the boy who she said loved her son so much that he calmed down.

“Nothing, because everyone has made mistakes. We are human. Think of it as maturity. So, you don't constantly blame yourself.” Aunty Mona softly uttered as she carried Blue into her arms.

Although the middle-aged woman knew for sure that Orange left because Blue had hurt her only daughter. But he also could not be completely angry at Blue and corner him, because Orange had already done so. They as parents do not need to follow.

Om Rendra and Aunt Mona were concerned about Blue after the departure of the orange they heard from the boy's parents.

Moreover, seeing Blue who showed her regret like this, made those who were kindhearted unable to get angry at Blue. Although in his heart still tucked in disappointment, disappointed because Blue has hurt his daughter who all this time they keep lovingly.

“We will try to bring Orange home. You can fix it later. So please be patient a little more, hum?” Said Aunt Mona, her hands are still faithfully rubbing Blue's back which now looks vibrating because the child began to cry.

Indeed, all this time Om Rendra and Aunt Mona, even Bintang and Sagara always try to ask Orange to come home when he calls. The girl was so stubborn now, even the threats and drama that the father did could not make the girl's heart melt to go home.

“Hey, what is this that wants to be a child husband Om? No shame cengg gini?” Ledek Om Rendra followed by a ticklish laugh from Aunt Mona.

“God is indeed very fair, yes, Dad. Blue looks perfect from all aspects, but it turns out he is shameless even cry in front of us like gini. I think Mama you fit pregnant hoping that born girls, deh, but even out boys. Ehh, it's like this. His son cengeng.” Typhoon Aunt Mona while wiping away Blue's tears using her thumb.

Inwardly, Blue embarrassed herself. Somehow he became very sensitive after the orange left. Blue can't control it either. But he doesn't care anymore about shame, because Om Rendra and Aunt Mona have seen him.

Blue raised his head so that he could reach the faces of Om Rendra and Aunt Mona. “You're not angry? You guys still support me to come back the same Orange after what I did?”

“If angry, yes obviously angry. No parent wants their child's heart to be hurt. But how else, it's already happened.” Om Rendra relax.

“I'm sorry, Om.”

The man commented a knotty smile, then wisely said. “But however, Om same Aunt still hope you become our daughter-in-law. But all decisions are the same Orange. Om and Aunty won't interfere in that business. We can only do’a the best for you.”

After this incident, they will not force the orange again for anything, including this. They will not force Orange to accept Blue back if he does not want to. They just want the orange to be happy in its own way.

“OK, then I will fight to defend the Orange. I promise I'll fix it all, never get orange again, and love him as big as Om and Auntie.” Blue said with full confidence, making Om Rendra and Aunt Mona snort amusedly.

“Om and Aunt hold your sayings.” Aunt Mona pats Blue's shoulder arm.

“Pasti.” Sahut Blue sure.

“One more. Don't be a crybaby like gini. Not cool, Bi. Aunty does not like, later have a son-in-law like gini.” Ledek Aunt Mona while shuddering, making Blue face instantly heat up resisting embarrassment.

“Already, Mother. Don't sneak that blue. Look, his face is like a tomato.” Sahut Om Rendra chuckles amusedly.

“Ohh, yes. You stay here, yeah, Bi. It's malem, you know.” Aunt Mona said then shortly after she saw a clock on the wall that showed ten o'clock in the evening.

“No, Tan, thanks. I'm home aja.” Reject polite Blue.

Blue was about to move from his seat, but suddenly the sound of his stomach rang so that made Om Rendra and Aunt Mona look in wonder at him.

“You haven't eaten, Bi?” Shoot Aunt Mona directly.

“Udah, really, Tan.” Answer Blue lies. The last time he ate with the sky was this afternoon. His mind and heart did not want to eat, but his stomach could not be controlled and be rebellious to be filled.

“But your stomach sounds. You're hungry, right?” Aunty Mona asked urgently, making Blue again hold back the embarrassment.

“Neg. I did not lap–” Blue lowered her head, looking at her stomach that was back beeping. Om Rendra and Aunt Mona smiled amusedly at him.

“Okay, you're not hungry. But your hungry stomach.” Aunt Mona gnawed, making Blue's face flushed.

“You eat here first. Om and Aunty will not ngizinin you go home before eating. Later you faint again like that time.” Aunty Mona said she did not want to be denied.

“No need, Tan, thanks. I'll eat at rum–”

“Udah come, don't be shy.” Aunt Mona quickly pulled Blue's hand and led her towards the dining room.

As a result, inevitably Blue must eat food that has been prepared Aunt Mona for him. It's really embarrassing.

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Blue returns home to her own parents' house after she returns home from her parents' house. Shame still enveloped him, his face instantly heating up when he remembered his stomach that suddenly rang earlier.

“Aiish, shit*.” Blue shook her head to forget about it while running up the stairs to her room.

Blue arrived in his room, with his heart racing again, Blue stared at the shelf of the closet containing his unique action figure. Blue remembers now, why all this time he had never found any items related to Orange.

With trembling hands, Blue pushed the cabinet rack which turned out to be a door that was connected to her secret room.

Sure enough, the room that had been a little damp and dusty because it had not been cleaned and visited for a long time was filled with all things about Orange. Starting from the many polaroid photos that Blue took without permission decorate the walls of the room with hanging photo displays.

“Wow, really a stalker.” Blue gawked in amazement at his own behavior.

Blue eyes re-circulate to every corner of the room. Polaroid cameras, sketchbooks, and orange gift items are neatly tucked away in wall shelves.

“Reacted here. Why can I forget there's this room?” Blue is self-defeating. Too rare to go home and more comfortable living in an apartment makes him forget that.

His hand now stretched out to take the sketchbook and open it, he saw one by one the drawing of the orange sketch from the scratch of his hand.

“Reply, Ji. I'm gonna show you all this. It's okay if you want to suck me as much as later.” Blue Mumbles then. The corner of his heart again felt pain, considering his longing for Orange which was increasing every time.

In the midst of his busyness to open a sketchbook, suddenly Blue again remembered with Luna. Why would Luna have the journal she gave to the Orange?

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The next day, Blue accidentally picks Luna up to her house. Last night Luna contacted her via Ms Ratmi's phone that her bag was left in Blue's car, then Blue said that she would return it while picking up Luna tomorrow. Of course, this makes Luna happy not to play.

“Tas you.” Blue handed Luna a bag of tentengs when the girl was already sitting in her car.

“Ahh, yes. thanks. I don't know why last night I forgot my bag.” Luna.

“You check first, Lun. Who knows there's a lost item.” Blue said who slowly began to run his car leaving the courtyard of Luna's house.

Luna reached into her bag, checking the contents one by one. He furrowed his brows as he did not find a journal in his bag. Luna ransacked the contents of her bag to make sure it was there. But the result is nil.

“Why, Lun?” Blue asked casually as she looked at the panicked-looking Luna.

“It looks like my book is not here.” Answer Luna.

“What's falling, huh?” Murmured Luna, her eyes she rolled down her seat, looking around for the existence of the journal. Who knows, that stuff fell there last night.

“How to do it?” Blue asked furrowed his brows.

“Journal, the cover is sky blue. You have a look?” Answer and ask Luna later.

“Neg. Last night I saw your bag lying on the chair, really, not falling.” Blue is lying. “May fall somewhere else.” The impression then that saw Luna was still busy looking around.

“What yes, yes?” Luna muttered as she recalled when she had ever dropped the bag or pulled out the journal?

As he remembered, Luna never took it out. Damn it. Luna cursed to herself who kept it in the bag. He should have just burned it. If this is the case, it is, so it unsettles his heart. What if other people he knew found and saw him like the Sky back then?

“Emang is what book, Lun?” Blue asked fishing, she hoped Luna was telling the truth.

“Eung, just a regular journal, it contains a patient case record.” Luna answered nervously.

Blue smiled wryly hearing it. What does it mean that Luna lied to her like this?

“Later try looking for it again in the car. Who knows if it just fell here and did not look.” Sahut Biru still with his casual tone.

“Nevent gone, Bi. I guess it's not here. Maybe you really, it fell somewhere else.” Said Luna while tidying her hair to neutralize the nervousness that pervades her.

“Ya. Later if I meet, I immediately return with you.” The Blue Speak then answered a doubtful nod by Luna.

No more conversations after that. Blue chose silence, her mind and heart were filled with questions as to why Luna was doing this. She was disappointed that Luna lied to her.

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In the afternoon during the break, Blue again invited Luna to meet on the roof with the reason of wanting to have lunch together. Luna was of course again made happy by it. Because Blue doesn't usually take her to lunch together like this. During this time, Luna herself always invited him.

“Sorry I'm late, Bi.” Blue smiled and nodded, a sign of no problem. Luna then took a seat next to Blue which in front of her was a kimbab and drinks that was Blue message from Korean restaurant.

“You ordered kimbab?” Asked Luna with sparkling eyes.

"Yes. Orange always wants to eat this same me, but it's a pity we haven't had time to eat this together.” Answer Blue with a sad face.

“You should have avoided something that catches you the same as him. It just makes you sad, Bi.” Sahut Luna with an irritated heart. It's always an orange.

“No, I even mouthed my memories with him.” The Blue Speak made Luna growl in her heart.

“Ohh, yes. I found this under the car seat. Got you, right?” Blue asked, handing over her journal. Luna's face stiffened again when she saw the journal was in Blue's hands.

“I-iya. It's got me.” Luna answered while robbing the journal from Blue with a wave.

“It really is yours?” Blue asked once again with a probing glance.

“Iya. This is mine. Thanks for finding and returning this.” Luna replied as she turned her eyes away from Blue.

“That time the Sky storm the book.” Blue said as she pointed at the journal in Luna's hand. The girl turned her head towards him with her brows furrowed, waiting for Blue to continue her words.

“He said, your book looks like the same book that you want to love to me.” Continue Blue quietly.

“What Heaven have I been accused of taking a book with Orange?” Sambar Luna with an annoyed look. “Bi, kayak gini book much.”

“I didn't say he accused you.” Blue pulled one end of his lips into a thin grin that was barely visible. While Luna, she is distraught herself with her overreaction that could have arisen suspicions.

“Ohh, yes. I also just remembered, if I have a book that looks like your book.” Blue again. Luna became irritated herself, why is Blue still discussing the book? Didn't they come there for lunch?

“You want to know what it is?”

Luna was still speechless with a stiffened face, she started to twitch uneasily.

Blue then tells about the journal he once gave to Orange which contains a love letter and a collection of photos of Orange. “What book have you same content?”

Luna was surprised by the question Blue asked. He swallowed his spit with great difficulty.

Luna chuckled forced. “Haha, what do you mean, Bi? I, right, told you that this journal has me.”

“Before you were not this kind of person. Why are you lying?” Luna's face stiffened even more, she didn't expect her lie to be known.

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To be continued . . . .